Decrepitasylum - There's No Snow In February

“whats your plan b?” - suicide

i wasn't even aware of that and now I'm very terrified for my account lmao-

feeling like blocking everyone but that just feels like too much of a hassle and questions to answer so I'm just going to go off the grid again without telling anyone

today's wonderful. my chest fucking hurts like I cant breath but I'm breathing fine. I'm so fucking pissed at everything. i wanna throw hands at a teacher, I swear she's trying to fail me now, I wanna skip this stupid concert, I wanna yell at the director and how she's doing a shit job at teaching, I don't understand this math assignment and I have an A in math so I should understand but I don't, I don't want to stay till the bus I want to go home, its been three months since I've heard from A, I wanna fucking mess up my body and cut everywhere, music is not blocking out anything. FUCK THIS SHIT.

i don't think you get just how much I need A back. i needy my lover back.. I need him to come back. i need to feel okay again. i need him.

"But you were fine 2 seconds ago"

yeah and now im not

"But you said you were getting better"

yeah and now im getting worse

dropping off the Internet again (not posting or responding to anyone for probably a week again) and debate suicide

shut the fuck up just shut the fuck up

i hate you, I hate you all

"ill need your essay by 3:15 or you'll have to spend time after"

fuck off fuck off fuck off I leave at 130 you cant make me stay. you can wait until fucking midnight when I turn it in. you can fucking wait.