"Suicide Is Selfish." I Don't Care??

all I keep thinking is

fuck you

and

i hate you

hate that I'm 19 and done with high school now

gotta actually find a job, especially if I plan on taking a gap year or not going to college at all

i get worse when im on here.

i also get worse when I'm not on here.

i don't think you get just how much I need A back. i needy my lover back.. I need him to come back. i need to feel okay again. i need him.

I'm taking this as a ghosting/breakup. 4 years to nothing I guess.

not being able to kill myself is the worst feeling

genuinely want a skateboard and learn how to to do but like, I'm too fat and out of shape for that.

2nd degree burns again but this time its from a sunburn. it fucking hurts because this time its blisters unlike a few years ago when the er doctors just cut away the skin (I casually set my hand on fire)

One day everyone will think I’m just offline for awhile but I’ll be gone

debating to post on my art blog but it's sh art. like, I dunno man, some irl's follow that account.