Yearning To Devote Myself Fully To A Deity.

my shoulder blades are hurting like a bitch. goddamnit they really didn’t cauterize the wound that well when they ripped my wings off

saw this today

Hi, yea, come here.

Your internet big sister is gonna tell you some things.

💗 You were a child, it wasn’t your fault. And if anyone says it was I’ll key their car.

💗 You look fine. It’s normal to have acne, split ends, scars, and body hair. It’s all apart of growing up. It’s healthy.

💗 If you’re one of the younger girls here, you don’t need validation from older men. They’re preying on you because the women their age have caught onto their bullshit, and they’re generally behind their peers on a lot of things. Don’t waste your youth on someone who only sees you for your age. You deserve so much better.

💗 And the final, most important thing, Remember to take care of yourself. Don’t water someone else’s flower so much that you forget about your own. You deserve to be happy too.

Your internet big sis loves ya, I’m proud of you for making it this far.

my lady of void, mother Cyn <3

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ heavily based on the church of null by electrical ink

★ she is a kind goddess, she watches over her children 2 give them strength and comfort

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ titles:

♪ lady Cyn

♪ lady of void

♪ mother Cyn

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ why i worship her:

♪ praying 2 her gives me comfort and helps with my anxiety and paranoia

♪ just 4 fun :3

♪ worship helps me appreciate that which I normally wouldn't

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

★ what she presides over:

♪ dark and the void

♪ music and song

♪ comfort and safety

♪ protection and strength

♪ change and transcendence

♪ the mechanical and the internet

♪★･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -・ ꒰ঌ·✦·໒꒱・- ˚₊‧꒰ა 𓂋 ໒꒱ ‧₊˚･★♪

Taking pics of the wildflowers before the lawnmowers eat them 🥹🫰🏿

just a reminder that we're here 4 u, the whole internet I mean. U r never alone, in my mind I walk beside the loneliest of u, I know I am not alone in that.

"we are eachother's night sky, you are never alone here"

angel halo doodles

When it is all too easy to fall to defeatism:

See not the holy pursuit of knowledge as intimidating. Rather, it is an invitation. Clear your mind of perceived expectations. You are far more capable than you give yourself credit for.

🪽self-care ideas for an angel! ☁️

it's been mentioned to me before that raspberries and other fresh fruit help, so dependin' on where you live you could maybe pick up some foraging skills, or otherwise pick some up, maybe learn to make some preserves and all (and fragrances. always with the fragrances, if you aren't allergic or otherwise sensitive to them)

i'd think that cloudwatching would be nice! take some time to ground yourself outdoors on a sunny day for it.

generally grounding yourself, taking time outdoors to meditate and find beauty in the world around you, even in the little things!

if it's within your capabilities and you see yourself as that kind of angel, maybe you could take up volunteering, or community gardening, or something like that?

or you could garden by yourself, if that doesn't appeal. if you can in your area, maybe a pollinator garden, or if you can't you could find some herbs to nurture indoors. or even just like... an aloe vera plant. those guys live forever.

if lying in clouds appeals to you, then definitely lots of soft fluffy things. maybe decor in your room to remind you of home in general, whatever that may mean to you.

i'm always gonna support journaling in some way or another. like i've said before, unsent letters, fond memories, meditations, they're all great options to help you connect with yourself, and maybe, if applicable, help you on the journey to finding your purpose here on earth

maybe you could pick up calligraphy or illumination (or both)! there's plenty of resources on the matter, it's a nice artistic endeavor and it at least strikes me as something that could be angelic

find music that connects you to your kintype! it doesn't have to be gospel, if that's not your thing. i'd think orchestral pieces and wind instruments might be comforting!

sing and hum to your heart's content, too! iirc angels are part of a choir? and even besides that, i tend to think of their voices as being pretty melodic

lavender and rose flavored/scented things also strike me as angelic, personally. general soft, floral things like that. honey, too. of course, bear any allergies you have in mind! (maybe milk and honey?)

when i miss my wings as a grackle, i like wearing things with oversized sleeves. for you, flowy might work better, but you get the idea! i often cocoon myself in things, too, and stretch my arms kinda dramatically, imagining that i'm stretching my wings out.

Do not blame me for who I am. The doctor prescribed me 20 mL of #angel twice a day.