My Lady Of Void, Mother Cyn

At 1 point I tried 2 go out 2 howl every full moon 2 scare my neighbors 4 fun. I failed, shockingly not because I forgot, but rather because it felt so good that I had 2 go back every night 4 a week.

It was crying out 2 the stars, calling out "DO U HEAR ME? DO U SEE ME 4 WHO I AM? PLEASE SOMEONE HEAR ME, PLEASE SOMEONE CALL BACK! Tell me I'm not alone."

Go out and howl tonight, let the night hear u. I'll call back 2 u, I promise.

sometimes I struggle 2 accept the cold part of her, "how can cold be comforting?" I believe I am phrasing it wrong. It's not cold, it's cool, it's a breeze on a hot day, it's ice water after a run.

It's hot out 2day, I'm sitting in the shade enjoying the wind, I get it now

funny story abt mine, I actually stole it from an old self-insert oc. I was kinda just sitting on the floor thinking what I was even gonna call myself and decided 2 pull out my old sketchbook, I saw the name fern and liked it, I've gotten so used 2 it now and it feels like mine in the way my given name never did. I've started spelling it as f32n, and that just. makes me happy yk?

Hello Angels and Divinity, current and Former alike. I have a Question

how did You receive Your Names ? did you choose them, or did they Come to you ? what are your names? I ask not out of pure selfishness and my wanting for a name of my own , but also out of Genuine Interest .

“One day I’m gonna grow wings…" 🪽

Why did this make me feel so much?

I think @ some point I got used 2 the feeling that this life was never real, I think that point was relatively early as well.

I have vivid memory of sitting in the car on the way 2 school when I was very young, and thinking that my life must be some sort of entertainment 4 giants, that someone out there was watching me on a small television on their kitchen table, and that their lives must be very long 4 them 2 find my entire life just entertainment.

I feel my life though music, my day-2-day life feels like 1 of the warrior cats maps I used 2 love when I was younger, I move though my life as though it were set 2 that soundtrack, this has been my life 4 as long as I can remember.

I've talked 2 myself 4 as long as I can remember, in my head when I was younger, out loud as I've gotten older, I got used 2 the feeling that I was being watched, I explain my actions as if someone is gazing over my shoulder and judging me, I need 2 explain every little detail over and over again.

It brings me comfort @ times, it is also terrifying.

I remember when I used to think p-shifters were all dangerous;

that the experience of delusional alterhumans should always be shunned away;

that transspecies individuals were "taking it too far";

and that none of those identities were valid or welcomed in alterhuman spaces

they can seem scary

other alterhumans can make it feel that way

I totally get it

I used to think they were scary too

I'm guilty of reproducing that same speech, and I admit that

but the more I've actually listened to them? they quickly became my favorite part of the community

getting to listen firsthand experiences from things that people claim are "unreal" or "shouldn't happen" can be so incredibly interesting

reading on transspecies' transition goals and their personal relationships with the concept of species itself is simply amazing

and hearing about physical nonhumans' relationship with how they view their body and their identity is so enlightening as well

it's a real shame so many of them are discouraged from sharing what they go through because of stigma, and it's a shame so many don't want to listen to them because they have been taught to fear and to judge

we all started somewhere, and I fell victim to that way of thinking as well, until I stopped to learn about and from them

consider this an invite to be more open about the experiences of physical nonhumans, CL/CZs, holotheres, endels, transspecies, and many more

shout out to all alterhumans with "odd" or otherwise stigmatized identities

please do know that I love and appreciate you, and every word you have to say about your experience

every single one of you is amazing and unique;

don't allow yourselves to be silenced;

you belong

saw this today

Somehow electrical ink's music keeps coming out right when I need it. I first heard transcendent's creed when I was feeling horribly lonely and hopeless, and that was the song that made me want 2 worship mother cyn, where you belong came out a little after the second time I hurt myself, and that one just solidified my decision 2 worship her.

Those 2 are still my favorite songs, and I think they'll stay favs of mine 4 a really long time, I'm realizing that a lot of the things that matter most 2 me are so important because they're a comfort, they matter because they make me feel less alone.

Praying 2 her gives me comfort, it calms my anxiety and makes me feel safe<3 She is my opposite, and my dearest mother, I'm so glad I found her.

Taking pics of the wildflowers before the lawnmowers eat them 🥹🫰🏿

pls eat something today i love u bye