What Are Your Thoughts On Younger Guys?

daily affirmations

I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT DEATH NOTE AND ALL OF ITS CHARACTERS

LIGHT AND L ARE BOTH CANONICALLY STRAIGHT ACCORDING TO THE AUTHOR

I AM NOT L AND I WILL NEVER BE L

my entire home page is death note yaoi...

i think i've won. this is victory, folks.

as much as i love the freaky shit, this is just as good.

if nobody else got me i know cheezbot has my back. such a real one. only account that doesn't mind how freaky i get.

problems with sharing a room

they snore!!

they're generally loud in their sleep

we have different sleeping preferences (like temperature and shit)

(and i can't stress this enough) i can't goon all night!!! i mean, i probably wouldn't anyway but i'd at least like to have the option.

silly scenario that i'm writing late at night in like 15 minutes. prob won't make sense.

family friend who stops by the house every couple of weeks to hang out with my parents

i've always thought she looked so cool, ever since i was a little kid... so pretty, she has cool hair, cool piercings, listens to cool music... everything about her is just so... cool! i want to be just like her.

she's always had a soft spot for me, always gave me praise when i was working hard on my schoolwork, gave me hugs and care like she was my real aunt or something.

she's always a bit handsy, grabbing my shoulders, holding my hand, ruffling my hair... but i'm too oblivious to notice. she slowly ramps up her touches, day by day, giving me so much praise to make me feel good and special... and then one day, she walks into my room after breaking away from my parents for a single moment and asks if i want her to make me feel even better.

the thought of feeling good, of spending even more time with her, fills me with joy. i eagerly agree, of course.

she asks me all sorts of weird questions like "do you find girls pretty?", "have you kissed any of them?", "do you think i'm pretty?" and the answers are all simple. yes, no, yes. she smirks when she hears the latter two.

she leans in a little bit closer, her eyes boring into my own with a sense of pride before they flicker down to my lips. before i can even say any more words, she closes the gap between our mouths, giving me my first kiss with the person i've always had a secret crush on. i hear about how this kind of thing is wrong, but it feels really good! after all, she's always so nice to me.

as the kiss deepens, my inexperienced lips struggle to keep up. i feel her tongue brushing up against the seam of my lips but she appears to think better of it and gently breaks the kiss with a gasp, our mouths still connected by a string of saliva. she smiles softly and whispers in my ear, asking me if it felt good. i nod eagerly, my cheeks flushed a deep shade of pink, as she stands back up fully as if nothing weird happened.

she tells me that if i want to do more of that, it'll have to wait for a while because she spends so much time with my parents. and she reminds me that i'm not allowed to tell anyone about this, that it'll be our little secret.

i nod in agreement, so excited to be doing grown-up stuff with someone as pretty as her. i tell her that my parents are going out on a date tomorrow night so we can continue it then. the thought of being truly alone with me seems to strike a chord within her, but she quickly buries it with a caring smile and agrees.

and as quickly as the moment came, she leaves my room with a soft click, leaving me wondering if that really happened. but i guess that i can only look forward to tomorrow night, hoping i really get to see her again with a ch1ldlik3 wonder and anticipation in my chest.

13 :3

Dirty talk

Specifically really graphic, visceral dirty talk (explaining what you want/want to do to or with me in great detail)

Or just descriptions in general. I've been realizing that I actually enjoy erotic literature (when it's not... y'know, cringe) and I think slow, gradual descriptions of scenes is really one of my favorite things

Beyond that, tears, mental illness, glasses (not even sexual I just think they're cute), and like uhhh I guess even though I hate showing it, I do really like being doted on. Like a mother or something who just wants the best for me. (I never really got that much attention if you couldn't tell)

i wish i was better at dirty talk

i wish i was better at explaining exactly what i want to do to/with someone

i wish i was better at actually going through on my mental plans

i wish i was a little bit taller, i wish i was a baller

i wish i had a girl who looked good, i would call her

anyways, chat...

good night! morning, afternoon, whatever time it is for whoever is reading this. i know i'll look back at my long ass story and cringe like hell but i got it done and it's not something i usually do. don't be a jerk!

sleep time...

shorty got me sayin oh my stars

this but they're all just completely impossible to interpret and understand, let alone put into words.

i wanna start just posting my unfiltered thoughts on here but most of them r like i need to have freaky nasty sex and then get brutally murdered and that’s about it