Never Beating The Emo Stereotype Allegations Cause Unfortunately I Have Jerked Off While Crying While

does anyone have 55 quettatons of tnt for me to use

i'm going to do something REALLY funny (blow up the sun)

face reveal!!!

he wants that cookie so effing bad

3 & 25

Tobacco? No, smoking tobacco scares me. I wish I could smoke weed but I unfortunately rarely have access to it.

And stargazing. Like just driving out into the middle of nowhere where light pollution isn't an issue and then just looking up at the stars with a telescope. Better with a picnic blanket.

this but they're all just completely impossible to interpret and understand, let alone put into words.

i wanna start just posting my unfiltered thoughts on here but most of them r like i need to have freaky nasty sex and then get brutally murdered and that’s about it

for the record, i don't bruise very easily

'cept hickeys, but even then you need to try pretty hard.

sometimes i wonder if i'm too nice for my own good

as much as i love the IDEA of doing it, i'm really awful at degrading people because i want everyone to feel good :D

it mostly comes from a place of anxiety, i guess. like a voice in the back of my head that tells me that everything i'm doing is wrong.

oh what a dilemma i have found myself in... i'd appreciate any tips if people have them, mostly about swallowing that anxiety (even though i don't think anyone would really read this)

kicking my feet and giggling while scrolling through klapollo and narumitsu/wrightworth posts

the confusing urge to sadistically hurt someone followed by the inexplicable emptiness when i breathe the wrong way in front of the same person

ughhhh I wish I had more to post about but it's kind of demotivating knowing that people won't really see it.

i mean, like... sure, that MIGHT mean that i can type whatever i want and not feel embarrassed. but it's not like it's that easy. i wish i was better at coming up with scenarios (or at least expressing them through words. not that i'm good at picturing them either, i'm aphantasic).

and there's some stuff that i'm not READY to express through words on here yet. i don't even really know if i'm ready to accept some things about myself anyway.

i just need to explore some more parts of myself. and there's some things that i need people to ask/talk to me about because it's probably not possible for me to just come out and say it. i don't really know what i mean by this yet but i'll keep tumblr posted.

current mood:

(couldn't sleep)