Your Shoulders Are Littered

A No.2 pencil and a dream can take you anywhere.

Joyce Meyer

Colorblind Problems... just me?

So I'm colorblind, and when I was starting at a new school everybody was super freaked when they found out. People always point at things and ask what color it is... is this just me? Like this,

People: Ooh! You’re colorblind? What color is the sky?

Me: Blue.

People: What color is this paper?

Me: White.

People: You aren’t colorblind, why would you lie?

Me: I’m not lying, I am colorblind. I’m just not colorstupid.

But then there are sometimes...

People: Ok, what color is this peanut butter?

Me: ...

Me: Green..?

Never in my life before

Have i felt this unfulfilling ache

Which rises with the rosy sun

But never seems to set

At twilight

You defy all meaning

All logic

All truth

You are like a blizzard

In the desert

Or an earthquake

In the sky

Impossible,

Yet happening

Right before my eyes

There are so many eyes

Glowing in the dark

Watching me

Waiting until i slip.

It is maddening

The disembodied cackles

Mocking me

Not with words,

But with laughter.

Awaiting my failure

Do you see the eyes?

Do you hear the sounds?

Am i the only one

Who is

Going insane?

I inhale lemon.

A sweet breath

That ushers in my sleep,

So then i waver

Into a state

Filled with nothing

Except the scent

Of tangerine dreams.

If we are all as dead

As we claim to be

Then are we merely

Skeletal actors

Playing the role of a man

And stiffly mimicking

The beating of a heart?

Of all the insults you've thrown

"Soft" has hurt the most.

To hear that the years of love and laughter

That carved the lines in my cheeks

Were a weakness

Wounds me as much as the slaps you endured

At the hands of people far less soft than I.

In a moment my pain will pass, I know

And pity will set in

At how sad it is that you were raised

To see compassion as a flaw.

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Day 3/14

Thoughts on Love #9

Love is like being lost, then finding yourself at your destination anyway. Love is like forgetting the formula on a math test, but still getting the the answer right. Love is life forgetting your wallet and finding the exact change you need on the ground. 

Love is an innocent mistake, that ends up better than you could ever have hoped.