There are so many eyes
Glowing in the dark
Watching me
Waiting until i slip.
It is maddening
The disembodied cackles
Mocking me
Not with words,
But with laughter.
Awaiting my failure
Do you see the eyes?
Do you hear the sounds?
Am i the only one
Who is
Going insane?
I wanted you before I knew what love was, but then I understood that it is a constant battle. I push away when you pull me in, I say I love you when you can't stand to look at me. Love is a war- a brutal fight. Because love isn't easy. We work, we fight, but when it comes down to it we both would take a bullet for the other. Even if we pulled the trigger.
Does the moon feel lonely
When it is all alone
Because nobody is awake
To see it?
I lost my phone
I lost my keys
I ponder if it would be easier
To hide where nobody
Could find me
Too?
I grew up hoping
I was special
But you made me believe
It was true
The darkness takes me
And my eyes feel heavy
Like my heart
Which weighs down
My chest
I watched the stars
Then i consumed their light
One by one
A darkened sky
Then little by little
Their light consumed me
In return.
I wandered into the purple mist
And listened to the eerie croaks
Of creatures in the dark
Paying no mind
To the smoke and haze
That smothers out my spark
I look tenderly at the bluebells
For the first time in a while
I hope they know how well they are doing
How fast they are growing
And how beautiful they've become.
This is neither what i expected, nor what I wanted.
I thought love was about fighting for something, not with someone- then i realized how similar the two concepts were. I understand now that i was fighting with you in order to protect myself, when really all I needed was you.
If you were hurt
By the words that i said
You never stood a chance
To the ones in my head