OKAY TIME FOR MY BIG ANNOUNCEMENT

this is literally orin scrivello💀💀

STOP PARALLELING THE HONEYMOON WITH YOUR OWN JAPAN TRIP THATS OUR JOB

Thinking about self hatred and how it's such a plague in Blue Lock. Thinking about how Rin can't look in the mirror because of how much he reminds himself of Sae, but how he tells Isagi to look at him. How even characters who think of themselves as filth get angry, how Kenyu has bursts of it, how Kaiser chokes himself. How deep down every single character in Blue Lock is begging to be loved and understood. The light in their eyes when someone believes in them and the deep pit of depression they fall into when no one does.

How Reo and Ness are hated by parts of the fandom probably BECAUSE their self hatred is so viceral and so obvious you can fucking feel it. Yet characters like Barou and Kunigami are seen as edgy because they hide their self hatred behind an equally destructive facade, a mask of controlled apathy for those around them. The way the coaches have to cradle the fragile, fragile souls of these boys while still pushing them to be better. Begging them to believe they are capable and picking them up after they pass out, stopping them from falling into the same imposter syndrome they've witnessed again and again (that even they are not immune to).

Thinking about how even Ego Jinpachi doesn't take care of himself.

to be clear we got first meeting commentary for the first time and the verdict is, dan expected Phil to be hot and confident, Phil was nervous, and Phil thought dan was a version of Anthony he would pound. like. just to be clear

Happy Pride

obsessed with engarde dropping his benign idiot persona to reveal that he’s evil and your immediate assumption being ‘oh he was pretending to be stupid as part of his persona he’s actually smart’ and then the game wasting no time at all in saying no he’s still incredibly stupid he’s just also evil

Have you listened to Close to the Top by Måneskin? I saw your Engarde playlist and I thought it would be a good fit!

wait omg anon you are a genius idk why i haven't added any måneskin to matt's playlist he's so fitting of their vibe mmmm x___x thank you for the addition rec <333 it has been done

matt..

got really high last night and when i eventually fell asleep all i can remember from my dream is being in the bllk facility and chigiri was there we were hanging out we were chilling and then talking. reo also briefly was there. currently trying to figure out if the edible turned dream!me into second selection!kunigami .