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Maybe i should watch the anime after all?

It’s incredibly important to me that the anime decided to include this scene that wasn’t in the manga. In the manga, Maomao does pass out in Jinshi’s lap after saving him from what was obviously an assassination attempt.

HOWEVER, the manga cuts off at this point, keeping strictly in Maomao’s perspective, and cuts straight to when she regains consciousness in bed after being treated for her injuries. The manga doesn’t show how she got back. They SAY how, and she briefly mentions, “wow that must have been embarrassing; he carried me back,” but we don’t SEE it. We don’t get to feel the true impact of what that means. But the anime DID show us, and holy shit.

They SHOW us how taboo this is. They show Jinshi carrying her out of the temple, after a public attempt on his life.

They show us the shock and horror on Lakan’s face as Jinshi silently walks past him. Horror at the state his daughter is in, horror at another man—a man with a status he could never dare to question—staking such a public claim over his child, horror at the fact that he could never have this level of closeness with her (as Maomao would never allow it).

Everyone hides their gazes, as is their custom when someone of his rank passes by, but the air is different this time. Jinshi is furious, he’s terrified, and he could not give a single shit about how inappropriate it looks to these palace officials.

The shot that slowly follows her trail of blood—even though it’s a small detail—that in particular leaves such a intense impression of how poignant this is for him.

Maomao talked about this scene in the manga like it was nothing to her. She did what she set out to do: she saved the person who was targeted by the attack. She didn’t even know the target would be someone she knew. But she has no idea that this happened afterwards as a result of her bravery. To her, it likely wasn’t even an act of bravery at all. She acted on impulse; she did what she knew was the right thing to do.

The anime didn’t need to include this, because the manga didn’t show it. But damn, I’m so glad they did.

from my sketchbook! it's a week's worth of doodles, when my classes are boooring hehe

When you manage to make your friends join the same fandom

The Wary Weretiger

"You know, I think therapy might be more effective than this." Said Atsushi. He didn't need to turn around to know Akutugawa was rolling his eyes.

"Shut up."

Atsushi raised his hand, catching the orange. "Huh, you even peeled it this time. Must be serious."

He wasn't exactly sure how they got here. Akutagawa had been hunting him down for his bounty.... And than one day just stopped. Somewhere along the lines this had become their routine.

Akutugawa ranted at him, Atsushi sat and ate whatever fruit he'd pick up on the way. Sometimes he'd voice his own opinion and Akutugawa would begrudgingly listen.

It was werid.

But not unwelcome.

It definitely beat having his leg cut off, that's for sure.

"Go on, out with it. I'm busy today." Akutugawa scoffed "and what could you be possibly busy with." Atsushi shrugged "well I still need to get a job."

It didn't matter how much he saved from what he stole from the Orphanage, it wouldn't last him much longer.

"I thought the Agency offered you a position." Said Akutugawa, carefully. As kind as Atsushi was he fought like a caged beast. He could and would ditch Akutugawa if the other offended him.

And Akutugawa didn't want to admit he liked his company.

Atsushi took a bite out of an orange slice "only because of my ability. They're nice people, but I'll find a job myself. Besides that would you my enemy and I am not dealing with that."

His leg would grow back but it was painful. And being on Akutugawa's not bad side was a nice place to be.

Not that Atsushi would admit it.

Akutagawa nodded, he could respect wanting to keep your pride even when you were at rock bottom. But even soo... "Is it so bad for them to want you for your ability?"

Atsushi paused.

"My whole life people have only wanted my ability. They've tried to rip it out of me because they felt entitled to it.... Do you really think I'd want to join an organisation that values it so highly?"

There was an edge to his tone, but also sadness. Akutugawa's eyes went wide in shock.

He unconsciously tugged his coat closer. He wouldn't know what to do if Rashomon was stolen from him.

Akutugawa felt vulnerable just taking a bath, he couldn't imagine how Atsushi felt feeling his ability get ripped out of his skin. It was fortunate that it clearly failed.

It certainly explained Atsushi's distrust of both light and dark.

"I suppose not." Said Akutugawa, going quiet in thought. He went back to his initial question.

"I was once in a situation like yours. I lived in the slums, it was there Dazai found me and I joined the Port Mafia. That became my purpose, and I'm lost without it. But you... You don't have that, and yet you seem satisfied."

Atsushi hummed, thoughtful. "I'm gonna say something, but right or wrong you're not allowed to stab me again."

Akutagawa scoffed.

"I stabbed you one time, stop acting like it was such a big deal.... But very well, I won't stab you."

Atsushi turned to face Akutugawa, putting his orange slices back into a tupperware box. "That isn't your purpose."

Akutagawa is taken aback. He wants to argue but something in him stops him. The way Atsushi spoke to him now was different to how he usually does.

He sounded like Dazai.

Dazai in the quiet moments, the rare moments when Akutugawa hadn't failed him. The all seeing look in his eye as he read Akutugawa like an open book.

"You had a purpose, one you cherished like a second soul. But you lost it. You tried to convince yourself whatever you consider your purpose now is it, but it isn't. And it never will be."

And yet when Atsushi spoke it was kind. It wasn't intended to tear Akutugawa down, quite the opposite. And Akutugawa found himself unable to look away.

"... How do you know this?"

Atsushi smiled, it was small and sad and it didn't fit him like his usual grin did. "You wouldn't be trying so hard to find your purpose if you truly believed you found it."

He looked away, giving Akutugawa some privacy in his own thoughts. "Ask yourself, who were you before the Port Mafia? Who were you back when you were like me? There's you're answer."

Akutagawa frowned, deep in thought. He'd been... He'd been weaker and pitiful. A small child who killed whoever went in his way, but killing hadn't changed in his life.

He was the Port Mafia's Rabid dog, he was still a killer so that wasn't it.

What had he been killing for? In the Port Mafia it was because those were his orders. Because the weak needed to be destroyed to make way for the strong.

Back in the slums it had been for survival. Akutugawa would've died many times over if he'd let those idiots survive. And Gin wouldn't have survived of he hadn't protected her from them.

Akutagawa froze.

... That's what it was. He had been a protector, his reason for killing down in the slums was to protect Gin and his friends.

His friends who were killed on the night Dazai found him... The night Akutugawa lost his purpose and tried to gain another.

But failed.

"I can't get it back." Whispered Akutugawa, suprised that he choked up at the thought. He hadn't thought of them in years.

"You can" Said Atsushi, looking at him again. "The circumstances may have changed, but the core premise is the same. You just have to open yourself up to that."

Open himself up? So Akutugawa had to find something else to protect? That... Didn't seem so hard, given the Port Mafia protected the city from the shadows. And Gin was still with him.

Had it really been infront of him, all this time?

"That's the difference between us" said Atsushi, quietly but Akutugawa caught it. "You had a purpose only to lose it. While I have never had one."

Atsushi chuckled and it was sad again and Akutugawa hated it. He preferred when Atsushi was genuinely happy. When his smile reached his eyes, his eyes that were kind and shined with light.

Now they looked so empty, so sad.

"You think I'm satisfied but I'm not. I have no dreams, no aspirations, my worth is tied entirely to my ability. I live to spite all those that want me dead, to stop them from taking the tiger if I pass on. I have no purpose, not really."

Akutugawa didn't know what to say, all he could do was nod in goodbye when Atsushi left.

He reached down, picking up the half of orange Atsushi saved for him. That he always saved for him, no matter how hard times got.

"You're wrong" he said to the wind as he walked away. "You're so much more than you're ability."

I love how in Bungou stray dogs, the kindest characters are the ones with the most destructive rage.

In the Port Mafia, Dazai gave a warning. "You'd be better off not angering Odasaku, ever.

If he were to become angry from the bottom of his heart, everyone in this room would he dead. Before any of us could even draw our guns."

And everyone in Yokohama knows you must never anger Kenji.

hc that Dazai made a point of calling Chuuya small when they met because Dazai was used to being the small one.

like, finally there was someone shorter than him. because let’s be real, Dazai was barely taller than Chuuya in Fifteen.

i think people forget how small Dazai was too— not just in height, but also in weight. He was underweight in Dark Era, but in Fifteen & even at present he's barely within the healthy weight range for his height. he was constantly described as a twig in Fifteen, and almost every time he's introduced in the light novels he's called lanky, slender, etc.

I am a Kunikida had an emo phase truther and so just image Katai getting bribed by Dazai to give him a picture of Kunikida as a teenager.

Dazai's expecting dorky nerdy Kunikida in a suit or sweater vest at some school event.

What he gets instead is Kunikida yelling at a cop at a protest. His hair is in a high ponytail, with streaks of purple in it.

He's wearing a jean jacket filled with pins and patches. Fishnet gloves and flipping off said cop with one hand. And holding his notebook in the other.

Dazai is just staring, jaw dropped while Katai snorts in amusement.

Dazai's just like... I was robbed! We were robbed!

Bsd except Atsushi recognises Sigma.

Because 3 years ago while he was at the the Orphanage, Atsushi wrote in an empty book about how much he wished he had a friend.

And wrote about them going on adventures together.

Sigma smiling at Atsushi as he falls like I'm glad I got to finally meet you, Atsushi.

Seeing a lot of braces Dazai (which I love so much <33) reminded of this headcannon that I submitted to an anonymous chat box & then got super popular

Here’s a small (very unfinished) comic to go with

Now I need Atsushi, Chuuya and Tachihara to all become friends and bond over being experimented on.

Having to deal with torture, and annoying pretentious scientists monologuing about improving and bringing out their full potential.

Mori's just secretly taking notes in the corner and everyone else is horrified.

dazai having an off day and being quieter than usual when suddenly one of kunikidas pens rolls across the desks and bumps into dazai’s hand and transforms into a piece of paper that’s been folded into a heart

Headcannon aproved 💯💯

dazai fidgets a bunch, and you can usually tell who he feels close to based on who it is he fidgets . . . with.

he would mess with odasaku and ango's glasses at the bar, grabs kunikida's shoulders and arms and messes with the fabric of his clothes, plays around with atsushi's hair, and messes with just about every bit of chuuya. his hands, his gloves (on more than one occasion he's managed to slip one off and marvel at the ridiculous softness of his skin), his hair, his sleeves, (his face)

the only people to have reciprocated this are oda and chuuya. oda would mess with dazai's hair in the same way the latter now does atsushi's. chuuya would mess with dazai's hands during meetings, sometimes fidgeting as well with the topmost layer of his bandages.

just. dazai not knowing jackshit about normal physical touch and getting his fill in whatever lame ways he can

O acquaintance, grantors of dark disgrace, do not wake me up again.

i'm too good, i can make something like this everyday- motivation required tho💀

yo wussup homeslice. I have THOUGHTS

Chuuya has a tongue piercing, Dazai know this and loves it. Kunikida does not know about it until they kiss for the first time and it feels weird and Chuuya laughs his ass off before sticking his tongue out to show him.

Kunikida found a new thing he finds hot that day.

Dazai totally has his ears pierced and gets the weirdest earrings he can find.

Kunikida doesn't have any, Dazai tries to get him to get a bellybutton piercing.

thoughts tee hee <3 consumes them and leaves you an empty husk <3

yes. chuuya with a tongue piercing, what will he do (give really good head and kisses, probably. also he 100% just licks people sometimes. sometimes when dazai is being annoying chuuya will just. lick. and boom <3 peace and quiet <3 that is the one thing that compels kunikida to consider piercings WHEEZE)

earrings. tiny baby dolls. hanging on nooses. but earrings. dazai is truly just a lesbian tbh, like spiritually

kunikida has a reputation he cares about so he can't get any piercings and he tells dazai this repeatedly but dazai never listens SO eventually kunikida is like 'every time you tell me to get a piercing i will tally it and once there are 100 tallies you will get two piercings of my choosing' and that is how dazai ends up with nipple piercings. he is a very big baby about the pain <3

Whenever one of them feels down the other two take a day off and go to their favourite places and get favourite food or just stay at home cuddling

Kunikida who sees Chuuya and Dazai as completely and utterly human.

But also Kunikida witnessing loss infront of his eyes and breaking down over his own failures.

And Dazai and Chuuya holding Kunikida in their arms and having to remind him that he's human too.

I kinda want smth like that...

Listen, I posted about this on twitter, but Kunichuuzai breakfast club au!!

Chuuya the “rebel” Kunikida the “nerd” and Dazai the “outcast” end up in detention together for 8 hours under the supervision of one Ougai Mori.

They hate each other at first, but after enough conversations, shenanigans, and some weed, they end up revealing things they’d never shared before. Chuuya talks about his shitty home life, Dazai talks about his suicide attempt, and Kunikida talks about the pressures of being “gifted” and how—hey, his life actually sucks.

And by the end of it, by the time they eave that school, Kunikida has two phone numbers written on his wrist, a hickey hidden under the collar of his shirt, and a promise of a future with two boys he never in a million years would have even spoken to previous to this

dazai who needs glasses for distance, but never wears them.

chuuya who has matching compression gloves with kunikida.

dazai who sets up dates.

kunikida who doesnt quite understand his own issues, but gets that theres something wrong with him.

chuuya and dazai, who really do try and help kunikida find out whats wrong.

no diagnosis is given, not yet, but its a start.

Hirotsu & fukuzawa besties>>>>

mori: this is top secret so don't tell anyone, especially from the agency, alliance be damned

hirotsu, awkwardly exiting out of his chat with fukuzawa where they were making fun of mori and he was telling fukuzawa about how mori was like in this particular meeting: of course sir, i would never

akutagawa, ending his call with atsushi, who he had been talking to when he got asked to come here and never bothered to hang up on <3: i understand. this is port mafia business strictly.

chuuya, still texting everything to his chuuya-kunikida-dazai groupchat (named dazai and his bitches until they stole his phone and changed it and is now untitled): sure thing boss

kajii, asleep: hmm lemon bombs

may I suggest a Chuuya pixel sprite 👀

after much procrastination here he is!! Thank you for your patience 😭🙏

WAIT- Why did i never noticed dazai's pain tolerance?!??

About your theories on Dazai's trauma that he didn't get from Mori, what are they?

The most backed up one I have is that it was people that worked for Dazai's parents. In No Longer Human Yozo is abused by his family's servants so it would make the most sense for Dazai to have been in a similar situation. I could make a very long post about that, but for the sake of other theories I'll stow it.

I also think it's likely the if my first theory is wrong then the main abuse Dazai faced was neglect. He doesn't know how to be a person, he knows how people act and can mimic it but he doesn't fully understand which to me, sounds like he has autism. The only thing I can't pin to the neglect theory is his pain tolerance.

In 15 Dazai hurts his arm when Chuuya kicks him around and steps on his hand. He reacts to neither. Now I am still relatively freshly not 15 (turned 16 a few months ago) so using myself and friends as a reference point, 15 year olds don't normally act like that when getting hurt. So at some point he has to have built up a pretty serious tolerance as well as a hate for pain.

This is where a lot of people like to point to Mori, say he did it. Which was one of my main theories (and still is something I use for some fics) until I talked them over with a few people and we ended up agreeing that Dazai wouldn't have been so close with Mori had that been what was happening. Also knowing Dazai he would've brought it up for clout at some point. It just doesn't make sense for him to not only be so comfortable around Mori and then never say anything.

None of that logic applies to real people, I'm saying it doesn't make sense for Dazai.

So as for who caused that, I'm not sure. I don't have a character to point at. I can say that his parents didn't come to get him after Mori found him, and as far as I know they aren't dead, so they didn't seem to care about him very much. Usually around here is when I circle back to "people who work for his parents" because it has more ties. But maybe a family friend or a parent or a sibling did it, those are all very possible abd make more sense than Mori.

I don't know if anyone will see this and you prob dont know me but 🥲

Shin soukoku

Akutagawa : I shall rip out your throat and celebrate your death but only if it is by my hands. If someone else kills you or even hurt you I shall rip them apart too

Atsushi: Only if you promise not to kill anyone for six months

Soukoku

Dazai : Let's do this.

Chuuya : Do what?

Dazai : Do crime Be gay

Chuuya : K

That's it. That's the difference. One is still in denial and the other is just...ignoring it for the time being

I forgot that the headmaster is a person and can be buried...

Odasaku, Sasaki, and the orphanage headmaster are all buried in the same cemetery.

So Kunikida, Atsushi, and Dazai all run into each other grave visiting regularly and politely pretend they don’t. They never acknowledge the meaning behind the bouquets brought, even if all of them know the others know flower language. They never acknowledge the tear streaks down Atsushi’s face, or the solemn look on Kunikida’s. Atsushi never points out how the scent of whiskey is always a bit stronger on Dazai’s coat. They never acknowledge the location of their accidental meetings.

Sometimes Kunikida might offer to take them to get food, or Atsushi will offer a random hard candy from his pocket, on colder days Dazai might lend his coat. None of them are really themselves when faced with grief, and none of them will to hold it against each other.

I think its best if he never works in customer service

the glamorous life of a mafia executive

(based on an idea from Remi!)

Drying hair

What if chuuya nakahara has extended life span cuz of arahabaki so he has so see all people he knows slowly age and die.

But then he meets sigma a man that was created by the book, he doesnt have written ability to age like a normal human.

So now they're both together angaist loneliness that comes with loosing loved ones.

(platonic or romantic idc but fic potential)

Me when my friends tell me about their crush:

Oda: He kicked you into a wall?

Dazai: and in the face after he stomped on me.

Ango: and you're happy about that?

Dazai: I've never liked pain more 😊

Ango: Therapy. You're going to therapy.

Dazai: Oda!

Oda: No I agree. Time out for you.

Just the teens of the Agency being taken care of by the others.

Because yeah maybe Junichiro and Atsushi aren't that much younger than say Dazai and Kunikida. But to them and the rest they're still kids.

And this job can be a lot.

If no one else is injured, Yosano seeks them out first after a mission for a check up.

She's made sure they know her door is always open, to come to her even if they don't think a wound is serious.

Atsushi and Kyouka have to be told this more than anyone else. They still hesitate but Yosano always smiles when they approaches her, letting them know it's okay.

Atsushi's childhood and Kyouka's time in the Port Mafia taught them to show weakness. But somehow that rule falls aside when their in Yosano's office.

Because they trust her.

Naomi rarely ever needs to go to the infirmary. But she's had too and what she's seen terrified her. Yosano has ushered her in and listened, comforted her that she's safe now.

Kenji and Atsushi spend a lot of time in the infirmary.

Kenji is always sweet and bright but there's times even he feels scared and hurt. Junichiro holds it together but he breaks down when their alone.

Yosano stays by their sides, a kind presence in the chaos and hugs them close.

Ranpo always knows when to take them off a mission.

When Junichiro has a test coming up, when Kenji needs to rest after using his ability. He won't have them overworking themselves, no way.

Ranpo will instead having them guide him to his cases or get him snacks.

Or just straight up tell him to take a break. He's even used his ability to save them time on cases when there's too much going on.

"There you're done, now go take a nap."

Ranpo's memorised which snacks and sweets they like, and periodically drops them on their desks. Reminding Atsushi that it's a gift, he can have it and that it's okay.

Kenji gets the most, especially when he's had to use his ability a lot. Ranpo's not letting him go without having something to eat.

After the guild incident Naomi gets a huge bag of her favourites dropped on her desk.

Kunikida despite his schedule always makes time for them. He's lenient on paperwork (that doesn't apply to you Dazai!)

Junichiro hesitantly asks for his help on some homework and it turns into a full midday study session. And Kunikida wouldn't let him apologise for it.

He's contacted Kenji's family and gotten their permission to sign off on anything Kenji needs his parents permission on.

Kunikida comforts Atsushi when he makes a mistake. He reminds Kyouka that she made the right decisions.

He takes them out for dinner or cooks for them, and makes sure everyone's well fed and has enough food.

Kunikida had made himself all of their emergency contact. He has told them to call him whenever they need him. Rain or shine he will be there for them.

Dazai knows just what to say to lighten the mood. He reminds Kyouka that people like them can change. He will actually do his paperwork if he senses Atsushi's overwhelmed.

Reminds them all that one mistake doesn't destroy all their hard work. He'll praise their efforts and remind them of how far they've come.

Dazai notices when Kenji's smile isn't as bright and sits by his side. He shares stories that'll make them laugh and grins when he succeeds.

He's a calming presence when things get rough. Ruffling Atsushi's hair and patting Junichiro's head. Smiling kindly at Kyouka and Kenji.

He reminds them all that the world doesn't rest on their shoulders, they've got others to carry the weight.

And he'll break into their dorms to drag them out if he notices any of them isolating themselves.

Fukuzawa keeps an eye on everyone, but the younger members in particular.

He took Kyouka in and is her legal guardian. He signs off on anything that requires a parent or guardians permission.

He reminds Kyouka that people like them can change. Divulging into parts of his past to comfort her and Atsushi that he understands how they feel.

And doesn't see them any differently.

Makes sure Kenji can regularly vists his family. He's in close contact with them and keeps them updated.

Fukuzawa let's them nap in his office or take a breather in there.

His office is a safe space, tells them nothing and no one can harm you here. He checks up on them all whenever they're in the infirmary.

He has Junichiro's latest report card on the fridge and has told him on many occasions he's proud of him.

Fukuzawa keeps an eye out to ensure Atsushi and Kyouka are settling into the dorms okay. He has given them all his personal number for emergencies.

He checks on Naomi, especially after the incidents she was involved in and makes sure she's okay.

Doesn't allow any of them to overwork themselves. Has taken them to cat cafes on breaks when things get rough.

Because the Agency are family and they look out for their own.

Tbh i would also smile dying knowing that the one to kill me would be my friend

the absolute ADMIRATION with which fukuchi looks at fukuzawa?????? dear lord. HIS EYES. AND FUKUZAWA'S. THEY ARE SOOO LIGHT I'M GONNA PUKE THESE TWO ARE TOO MUCH. fukuchi's literally smiling knowing he's gonna get killed in a second at hands of his oldest friend.

We need to see chuuya convincing kunikida to make fun of dazai's height as a payback

Kunikida is 2 months younger than Dazai (Dazai is born in june and Kunikida is born in august). So when Dazai will hit 23 years old, Kunikida will remain 22