Heavyy On The First Two Bc Fasting Can Get So Boring At School

me bc unfortunately i need male validation for motivation. sometimes

he will soon have to see you in a bikini, lock in!!

i wanna hate myself for eating a full twix bar so badly but i just can’t it was so delish and worth the c@l0ries

best workout combo

for an hourglass, thigh gap definition and smaller wrists ♡

4 sets of 20 reps of weighted russian twists

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlmhc2DMp8w THIS VIDEOO BLESS HER HEART

these r the only things that made my waist and legs shrink soo much

ive been doing the workout almost daily since September n the twists since jan, those r perf for flattening ur belly

it takes motivation but u will feel so good after finishing this

i immediately get humbled anytime someone mentions how they haven't eaten anything all day long bc whoopsie they forgot

like i have to deliberately ignore the hunger and they don't even have to think abt it like goshh

Ah isn't loss of appetite the biggest blessing?

• • • •

Perhaps I feel faint, perhaps I need the focus today.

Oh but I can't.

My head is spinning, reeling, and I can't stop thinking.

But at least it gives me a break from eating.

• • • •

18 hrs of work and nonstop thought.

Tonight I will stare in the mirror, as I always do.

Exhausted.

• • • •

But euphoric. I'll trace my bones, admire my stomach's concave. Know I'm in control.

At least of this.

• • • •

More work.

Then in 24 hrs the scale will show my progress.

Tell me in thin, worthy, beautiful... right.

• • • •

Oh to be perfect, see my flaws melt away.

To finally feel proud.

nothing beats the humiliation you get when you thought you were skinny until coming to school and so many people are thinner than you

once summer comes i don't think i'll feel as trapped inside with my ed and actually live a fulfilling life outside of being the thinnest I can be.

this disorder is so lame ngl the only thoughts running through my head are preparing for a beach body like omg get a life

so that every time they see me, i'm th1nn3r

hello universe i am reaching out to you to lock me in an apartment in nyc with no food and just a clingy cat to lounge with on the living room floor all day long

or am i supposed to get a job