Omg So That's Why So Many Empty Blogs Follow Me. I've Been Blocking Them At First Assuming That They

daaamn girl are you a graph?

cause you're very edgy

2 IV 2023

oh god the programming task for today was so annoying. I was supposed to process the MIT database with ECG records, and the annotation part of it was hell. after three hours I finally did it but the anger I felt at that time put me seconds away from throwing my laptop out of the window lmao

a recent success is that I calculated the rank of the module that I am working with, the problem is almost solved! when I told my advisor about it he looked so happy, he said that maybe he should start looking for another problem for me to ponder, it was so satisfying. I have a thing for mentors. at each point in my life for which I had a mentor who would teach me my special interest the progress I was making improved significantly and those were always the happiest times of my life. I am not sure if my advisor will stay with me to further show me a way into the research, but it certainly feels like a possibility

today I did some algebraic topology and differential geometry, I'm trying not to fall behind with the material even when I don't feel like studying

next week the easter starts, so I will probably have to visit my family. it's an interesting feeling to see my sister all grown up, there is still the image in my head of when she was barely a teenager and we didn't have much to talk about. now she is almost 18 and the significance of the age difference is nearly gone. when she start university it will be even less noticeable as she will understand what I mean by "fuck my life it's exam session season" lol

for about a week I've been trying to eat more healthy food, it's going fine so far. my biggest problem is that I'm eating way too much sugar but undereating in the general sense at the same time. I'm trying to incorporate more fruits and vegetables into my diet, as well as different kinds of nuts. it's so important to be properly nourished for math and yet I neglect it so much

yesterday I had a conversation with my friend and he said that his vision for doing math is working on some huge open problem such as RH. obviously you do you, but this sounds like such a depressive idea to me lol. chances of solving something like this are almost non-existent, that's such a waste of time to work on something like this for 10, 20, 50 years and make no progress. I mean, it certainly would feel nice to prove or disprove something like RH, but I'm perfectly fine with reading papers and answering all the questions I can anwer, which might not be huge and famous but I'm pretty sure creating those small pieces of theory will be useful to somebody one day

Every now and then I remember that Malbolge exists and I get to spend the better part of an hour cry-laughing at the world’s worst programming language

already starting off strong, but it gets worse

Wow! Sounds easy and intuitive to use! What’s the “crazy operation” you ask? We’ll get to that later. For now let’s see what a program in this language looks like :)

Thanks! I hate it!

it’s so difficult to work with that the first program was written by another brute force search program

mmmmm delicious base-3 arithmetic, what could go wrong? (For reference, that means this program forgoes the usual “0/1″ values of binary code in favor of a much more fun “0/1/2″ set of values)

ah.

Here’s how the language actually figures out what to do. It’s got 8 “simple” commands that can be executed easily by *checks notes* running the code itself through the modulo operation and taking the result.

As a bonus, on top of all that every single character in your code will now alter what every single other character does. So I hope you’re alright with cracking a cipher every time you add a new letter to your program!

oh god oh fuck.

behold, Malbolge’s primary arithmetic operation and what you’ll be using for most of your math while programming with it :)

This looks specifically designed to be the least logical math operation you could make, and knowing what the rest of Malbolge is I’d wager that’s precisely what happened. I never want to ever use this and it’s my favorite thing I’ve ever seen.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Malbolge

Anyways here’s the wiki page if you wanna read through it more deeply, I’m gonna sit here holding in my laughter staring at the hello world program again.

31 VII 2022

finally posting after the exams are over, it was the longest session I have ever experienced, a month of exams. I passed everything and it was a good semester, actually my grades are better than ever before, which comes off as a surprise, I can't believe that it's anything other than luck

now what am I going to do for the holiday huh

next semester I am going to take three courses: analytic functions, commutative algebra and a mix-course of category theory, sheaf theory and homological algebra. then I plan to take algebraic topology, algebraic geometry, number theory and some more abstract algebra, along with writing a bachelor's thesis. this is probably going to be the hardest year so far, I don't know how I am going to survive this, I'm so scared

I was asked to give some lectures on geometry during a math summer camp for people who want to participate in the math olympiad. it's a great opportunity for me to practice giving lectures, as that's what I plan my job to be. moreover, it is my dream to be so good at math that I could prep people for the olympiad, hence that's a fraction of that dream coming true

the problem is I don't know geometry lol last time I did any was like four years ago in high school

thus I play with triangles everyday

other than that I must prepare a talk for a conference, I chose to do one on the knot theory, Seifert surfaces specifically. I started reading about it some time ago and it seems super cool

untangling knots is a perfect thing to do for fun

my plan for the holiday outside of these side-quests is to learn as much as possible for the courses that I'll be taking. the problem with them (besides analytic functions) is that they will be quite technical, detailed and dry, as they are supposed to give the tools necessary to study algebraic topology and geometry. that does sound dreadfully boring, no? that's what scares me, because when I am not interested in what I'm trying to learn everything becomes twice as hard. I asked here and there for advice and people told me to read about algebraic geometry in tandem with commutative algebra, since many constructions have beautiful interpretations and motivations there. sounds like exactly what I need

my bachelor's thesis will be on algebraic or differential topology probably, but I don't know exactly what I want to write about. I was thinking about vector fields on manifolds or de rham cohomology, but the thing with the proseminar on geometric topology (mine) is that it's been planned to give the introduction to the currently researched topics and offer opportunities to work with fresh conjectures and theorems. at least that's how it was described. allegedly geometric topology has this property that undergrads can contribute to the development of new theory, which is very surprising to me ngl, I would guess that this is highly unlikely with any kind of math nowadays and yet here we are

in conclusion, I'm excited but scared

Me: I should write something

me : … or I could spent 78 hours straight making a miniature library with a working LED chandelier

30 I 2023

in a fortnight I will have two oral exams and one problem-based exam

the first oral will be for complex analysis and we are supposed to choose three topics from which the professor will pick one and we'll have a chat. I chose meromorphic functions, Weierstrass function and modular function. I have already received my final score from homeworks, which is 73%. combined with 74% and 100% from tests, I am aiming for the top grade

the rest of exams will be for algebraic methods. a friend who already took this course told me that when someone is about to get a passing grade, they get general questions and the professor doesn't demand details of proofs. when I asked him if we are supposed to know the proofs in full detail or if it suffices to just be familiar with the sketch, he told me that if I will only know the sketch I will sit there until I fill in all the details. lmao that sounds like he wants me to get a top grade. ok challenge accepted

so it seems like I have a chance to ace everything. if I achieve this and do it again next semester I can apply for a scholarship. studying for the sole purpose of getting good grades doesn't feel right, the grades should come as a side effect of learning the material. buuut if I can get paid for studying then I might want to try harder, I enjoy being unpoor

the next two weeks will be spent mostly grinding for the algebraic methods exams, this is what I'm doing today

I'm glad I never encoutered anyone with such serious mindset while I was studying programming because now I wouldn't have as much fun writing branchless things in python, which is completely useless in highlevel languages but I just can't resist

I feel like some people are too serious with learning how to program. “I gotta be the best in this and that and build this and that to impress this employer” blah blah, that kills the fun out of programming. I see a lot of people (bashing people on Twitter again and actually a few people on here too, oops) making programming such a serious topic and you can’t have fun in it. Besides the proper syntax, documentation, best practises whatever, people in the tech community have putting up “rules” about how you should program and what to learn and if you fall out of that, you get ridiculed for it. Literally making it less fun.

Someone said that there’s no point in learning jQuery because JavaScript alone can do all that jQuery can and more.

So? I’m still going to learn it for fun? I’m having a blast with SCSS and jQuery, I don’t care 🤷🏾‍♀️ and I’ll learn the other frameworks and libraries that suits me because I want to. I don’t care if the entire tech community stops using a technology - if it interests me, I’m still going to learn it~!

Also no hate or anything to that person who said that to me - I completely understand your POV on jQuery! 💗✨ When I first read comment, I was a bit down like “oh what’s the point then…” but slapped myself and was like “I’m not learning for them or anyone. This library is cool and I like it so I’m still gonna use it”

Moral of the story: just do you. Do what makes you happy, code what you happy. Don’t be so serious all the time and make stupid dumb programs or games or websites whatever. Have fun in such a hard subject!!!

What's the beef between engineers and physicists and even mathematicians.

Why physicists mock mathematicians: Because playing 51 dimensional chess against your own brain seems silly to us when there’s a whole cosmos to explore.

Why mathematicians mock physicists: The universe can only be understood because some nerd spent the time playing 51 dimensional chess and in the process they created some useful stuff for the physicists to steal and abuse the hell out of.

Why everyone mocks the engineers: π=e=3 is an abomination before God and those pencil pushing dorks make more money than us so we feel the need to vindicate our $75000 student debt.

oh and there is the dual thing: sometimes you just know that the professor hates the subject. like when I was taking one of the analysis courses, where the lecture was with one professor and the tutorials were with a different one

at the lectures we were two months into measure theory while at the tutorials haven't even started doing exercises on that topic, but oh it was fine, still plenty of time, he knows what he's doing – we thought, like fools. then the midterm was announced, two weeks left, we still haven't started measure theory. then it was one week left, so the professor tried to solve some lebesgue integrals with us, but he got so bored with each example that he hasn't finished a single one. at this point we just hoped that maybe measure theory just won't be on the midterm, it was too late to do anything. well, unfortunately, the midterm consisted mostly of measure theory problems, it made sense because that was the main content of the course

the professor was clearly very passionate about hating measure theory

One of the really amusing things about college is that if you pay attention you sometimes can discern some of your professor's favorite pet concepts.

For instance, in my Topology course this semester, the Zariski topology has come up at least once in every single homework set so far, and in multiple lectures.

And okay, that's not that weird. The Zariski topology is a really important object in a LOT of fields, especially algebraic geometry. And discussing it at length is a really pedagogically sound move because the Zariski topology is a good example of a topology with a very well motivated structure (the closed sets are the algebraic sets!) that still very naturally gives rise to a lot of strange features, like the way all open sets in the standard topology are Zariski-dense. It was quite effective at startling me out of the complacency of unconsciously basing my intuition of how topologies behave entirely on the standard topology on the reals. So my professor bringing up Zariski so often doesn't necessarily mean he has any special affection for it.

except...

My professor writes many of the homework problems himself. Not all of them - the less interesting ones he lifts from the textbook- but some. Well, every single Zariski topology question I've encountered so far is an original from this guy. I know because the all the questions he writes personally have paragraphs of commentary contextualizing why he thinks the problem is interesting and where the ideas in the problem are going later in the course. And well- let's just say the asides on the Zariski topology have been copious indeed

AND THEN there's the way he talks about the Zariski topology in class! It's with this blend of enthusiasm and fascination only comparable to the way I've seen tumblrites talk about their blorbos. Like hey! Come behold this sgrungy little guy! Isn't he fucked up? Isn't he marvelous? And I look and I can only conclude YEAH that is indeed a spectacular specimen, he's so strange, I want to put him in a terrarium and study him (and then I get to! In my homeworks!)

Anyways. It makes me really happy picking up on how excited my professor is to share this topology with us. I'm kind of baffled that people assume math is a boring field full of boring people when there exist folks like my professor who get this passionate about a topology!