Working Towards This Point, Can’t Let Anxiety Set My Boundaries Anymore

Cassandra Clare

Today would have been three years, and I can’t tell you how much it’s saddens me to say it’s not. I hope you are doing well and that you’ve found the peace you needed. I still care, and I wish you wouldn’t have pushed me so far away. I’ll still always be there if you need a friend. All you have to do is reach out. You’re still never far from my mind. Until the atoms that make up my soul cease to exist.

To the person reading this, I hope tonight treats you gently, and that tomorrow looks brighter

“Remember… you always have a choice to be better. You always have a choice… to pick the right path… Even if that choice comes a little late.”

— from Star Wars: Dark Disciple by Christie Golden

That was short lived, but went about as expected, but I had to at least try one last time. Goodbye Father, I wish you had the ability or want to understand just how deeply what you’ve done for my entire life has affected me, but I will no longer dwell in that place, nor will you have access to or claim to my life or success. I will not continue the cycle like you have chosen to. I know that you will never read this, so please don’t mistakenly think that this is for you, it is simply me marking the place where a stone has been laid as I carve out my path in this journey.

I want sleepy morning sex 🥺