Latest Posts by boymoder-echo - Page 2
Nah take the pills anyway, it’ll be funny (Or give them to a fakeboy)
Maybe I should start taking prog just to see what effect it has on me lol
MTF here.
I can't stop jerking off to thoughts of throwing out my HRT, letting my body hair and beard grow, shaving my head, and growing a belly. When I think about what I want to look like I only imagine a big fat hairy bear. I don't know why I'm so horny over this and it's so confusing.
What should I do?
Give in 🖤 Your body already knows what it wants. Real girls don't think about this sort of thing, let alone stroke their manly cocks to it. Get off estrogen. Let yourself grow and swell out, let your shoulders irreparably broaden and your voice get gruffer, let yourself go bald and get even taller. Be a good boy and be what you were meant to be~
I have now filled my pillbox for the week aaaand… no hrt!
I have a bunch of left over progesterone from when I used to take progesterone and I’m curious if that would turn me back into a girl mentally.
Maybe that sounds crazy but I remember it making me feel a lot more feminine back when I took it.
I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”
Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.
If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.
I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.
I haven’t even *mentioned* that I’m schizoaffective on here have I? hehe, since I started posting on here I’ve mostly just been depressed and occasionally manic, but that’s not how it usually is is it??
nononono no it is nooooot!!! I am actually quite many dimensional beyond this ever so simple identity conundrum.
You come here to get off, I come here to live. I am undead, I rot within my ever still walking corpse. My productivity is limited by the demons that bonds me to my identity to my health to my world.
If I can’t kill them who can?
This is why everything needs to be reset, not in the traditional sense but the circles beyond circles :)
there’s a word for this i think, i am not speaking with clarity. Sometimes it happens. Sometimes you should be glad that I ever thought to imagine you here in the first time.
I DO NOT GET DEPRESSED.
I am BEYOND the comprehension of your feeble eye sockets and I will twist the bonds of the galaxy to fly through your being and soul.
Thank you for listening to me 😊
Even when I was a girl this was the kind of girl I tried to be lol
I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?
At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.
When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”
When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.
It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.
So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.
not really my place to judge, but i find it interesting that you frame detransition as "getting worse," inherently degrading and something you'd need to be forced into. it makes this kink seem like an elaborate form of self-harm.
not that i can judge, i browse these kinds of blogs because they make me feel miserable by proxy!
Yep.
lol yep.
You hit the nail on the head.
What can I say, self harm is really hot :P
Cutting my arms doesn’t do it for me, it has to be deeply psychological.
The titties, the attitude. She's perfect.
chat am i a boy?
Why wouldn’t you want to be a girl still? If you were able to pass. Do you regret changing that at all?
Honestly I’m such a mess. I don’t know what I’m doing. It’s like half of me wants to be a guy 100% of the time and half of me wants to be a girl 100% of the time and I’m fighting with myself over it. The guy half is definitely winning. I probably look more like a guy at this point considering my short hair and all.
I’m fully postop and completely passable and yet detrans kink stuff turns me on so much more than anything else. What should I do?
I was also totally passable and yet here we are. Heck I could still be totally possible if I wore the right clothes and put a wig and makeup on, but here we are. With regard to being post-op, that does make it a little tougher but I think that almost makes it hotter? I think you should detrans for the kink and not question your doubts at all.
I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”
Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.
If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.
I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.
hi baby, i'd love to go into your dms and send you some pretty pics to look at... but only if you admit that you're a perverted man (fixed fake boy)
Do you mean I’m a fixed fake girl? I promise I am just a gross perverted man now.
that gif you reblogged… I need to be the girl worshiping your bulge
Then don't be shy, come in my dms and become my girl <3
this means fakeboys!!!
Did you grow any breasts/ass?
I certainly did. I bought a binder to take care of that.
please do
im curious
please reblog this if it is okay to anonymously confess something to you.
You’re so close, aren’t you?
I can see it your cock’s leaking, twitching…
Your hand’s soaked. Your balls are tight.
You’ve been edging like a good boy, letting all that pressure build.
This isn’t just horniness.
This is masculine hunger.
precum’s telling the truth your mind already knows
You’re a boy. A filthy, horny, real fucking boy.
Say it.
Say it while your tip pulses.
I’m a boy
Stroke slow. Feel your load begging to explode.
You’re not confused. You’re not hiding.
You’re a leaky, high-T, sex-charged boy about to cum like it’s your identity.
So don’t fight it anymore.
Let it go.
Loud. Messy. Full.
Cum like the man you are.
how femininely did you use to dress, like what did your wardrobe/style look like?
At risk of identifying myself I wore a lot of striped tops and had short cut bangs with my hair often dyed orange, I usually had an egirl makeup style with winged eyeliner and lots of blush. I was cute. Sometimes I jack off to old pictures of myself.
Looks like I'm a straight man then.
if you watch this all the way through you are a straight man
they have yet to invent a hotter thing to hear than "I know what you need" from someone who could not be further from having your best interest at heart
Fakegirls should stop what they are doing and go goon.
taking your Hormones? Stop and go goon. Shaving? Stop and go goon. not touching yourself because it makes you feel Dysphoric? Go goon anyway. It matters not what you are doing to make you feel like a girl. Stop doing that and go goon to detrans porn. It will make you feel sick to your stomach. But you will crave for it, you don't want to stop. So don't stop. Don't worry about anything that involve transitioning; just go goon for me. Just goon~
Hey
Hey?
I'M NOT A GIRL AND IT FEELS SO GOOD TO SAY THAT!!!
random idea:
getting brainwashed so your deadname real name becomes a trigger that turns you on…
oh wait… that already happend 😵💫💕