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Honestly I’m finding that I’m afraid to go out in public looking like a guy. It’s intimidating. What if someone recognizes me? I need some encouragement.

me: *becomes an alcoholic but in a cute and sexy way*

First of all I LOVE DMs please feel free to dm me (18+ obviously) I love chatting especially about kinky stuff.

You can call me Echo. My "dead"name is a little too unique to share here because I think people would gather my identity. I am very strongly into transformation and especially detransitioning.

My flavor of detrans specifically is becoming a dominant porn addicted bro type. I especially have a fantasy of a girl (especially a yandere type) attaching herself to me romantically and insisting I become a dominant man for her (bonus if "she" is a fakeboy)

The detrans stuff is shockingly real for me, and I actually will commit to my notes game 100%, but any transphobia and (most of the) misogyny is just play (I think?)

I am very mentally ill, autism, schizoaffective, BPD, so just take it as me being a lil quirky :)

again feel free to dm!!

I have now filled my pillbox for the week aaaand… no hrt!

I have a bunch of left over progesterone from when I used to take progesterone and I’m curious if that would turn me back into a girl mentally.

Maybe that sounds crazy but I remember it making me feel a lot more feminine back when I took it.

I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”

Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.

If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.

I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.

I haven’t even *mentioned* that I’m schizoaffective on here have I? hehe, since I started posting on here I’ve mostly just been depressed and occasionally manic, but that’s not how it usually is is it??

nononono no it is nooooot!!! I am actually quite many dimensional beyond this ever so simple identity conundrum.

You come here to get off, I come here to live. I am undead, I rot within my ever still walking corpse. My productivity is limited by the demons that bonds me to my identity to my health to my world.

If I can’t kill them who can?

This is why everything needs to be reset, not in the traditional sense but the circles beyond circles :)

there’s a word for this i think, i am not speaking with clarity. Sometimes it happens. Sometimes you should be glad that I ever thought to imagine you here in the first time.

I DO NOT GET DEPRESSED.

I am BEYOND the comprehension of your feeble eye sockets and I will twist the bonds of the galaxy to fly through your being and soul.

Thank you for listening to me 😊

Maybe this is wildly specific but I want some crazy girl to become just wildly obsessed with me… but only if I’m a boy. I wanted to be a girl for a while, but if some manic, obsessive girl latched onto me and insisted I need to be her BOYfriend I would cave to her so quickly, I’d let her obsess over me and keep me in her basement and not let me talk to anyone else.

Okay doubts over for now!!! I’m back to wanting to be a cis man. I went out in public today as a guy, even wearing a binder. I still sounded like a girl, unlearning voice training is harder than you’d think when you’ve sounded like a cis girl for years.

I feel like I’m really coming across as trans masc here and maybe that’s basically what I am at this point. I’m guessing most people that see me in public think I’m trans masc. My facial features are soft and feminine, I’m relatively short, if I’m not wearing a binder (which most of the time I’m not) I have noticeable breasts, my voice does not sound like a cis man at all, the small amount of facial hair I have looks like it just started growing.

I think the assumption for anyone would have to be either that I’m afab trans masc or maybe alternatively that I’m significantly younger than I am. I think add to that I’ve always been kinda afab-coded (I tone it down for this blog because of the nature of it) and trying to sell people on the idea that I’m a cis guy is probably not easy.

I would say if anything at this point I look like I haven’t aged since I started taking hrt and if anything look even younger than that because of the effects of estrogen, so even if I told someone I’m a cis guy they’d probably guess I’m like 18 or 19 (I’m about to turn 25)

This isn’t really a detrans kink post as much as it’s just a detrans post, but it’s interesting. I think pulling the curtains back on the kink stuff… a lot of this isn’t kink for me. Part of me still very much so wants to be a girl, and to be perfectly honest my personality and mannerisms and way of speaking are so naturally feminine that I would have to fundamentally change who I am as a person at my core to meet the detrans goals I have in mind. That’s not easy at all, but still it’s exciting to try and I want to see how far I can go with it.

Because of the nature of my personality my natural state is probably being female, I guess in the back of my head I’m pretty sure that if I detransition I’ll retransition eventually. That’s why I’m so tempted to ruin every chance I have at being a girl, going off hrt for a while and trying to change my personality and all that.

We’ll see how it goes :)

I have been skipping my hrt most of this year. Even when I have doubts about detrans I still usually don’t take it. I haven’t really noticed many changes yet, besides it being easier to get an erection and developing a tiny bit more facial hair, but the reason I’m doing it is for my breeding kink :P

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