Next Level Jealousy

PLEASE DO NOT THINK FOR EVEN A SECOND THAT YOUR VOICE WILL NOT HAVE AN IMPACT THIS IS LITERALLY THE BARE MINIMUM

I'm sorry for putting this in the BLM and stop Asian hate tag but in the last few days posts tagged with "Palestine" have not been showing up.

This video made me cry so I wanted to put it here

To the person reading this, I hope tonight treats you gently, and that tomorrow looks brighter. 

my intrusive thoughts have definitely improved, personally, but actual intrusive thoughts are so horrifying that it creates a vicious cycle of stigma –> ppl dont want to talk about what its actually like to have intrusive thoughts –> lack of information on what intrusive thoughts ACTUALLY are –> stigma.

the point of intrusive thoughts is that they’re really scary. having quirky ideas are just thoughts. those are just normal thoughts. intrusive thoughts are distressing and painful. that is why they are debilitating. 

i think it would help if ppl who dont experience intrusive thoughts imagined them as….behaving more like flashbacks than normal thoughts. ppl with traumatic flashbacks dont intentionally have them. theyre a part of your brain attempting to process trauma, and more importantly, its indicative of your brain going back to a dark situation instinctively because of a trigger. 

intrusive thoughts are similar. they’re just relative to the current situation rather than throwing you into the past. its your brain literally applying your trauma/illness to whats happening around you. 

if you were heavily exposed to violence or suicidal ideation in the past, your first intrusive thought when in the kitchen with your s/o chopping carrots might be “stab yourself” or even “stab your partner.” its horrible, but its your brain reverting back to what it was exposed to. its not any more morally corrupt than seeing a knife and having flashbacks to an act of violence you witnessed that traumatized you in the past.

you wouldnt tell someone having a flashback that they’re doing it on purpose or that theyre intentionally having a flashback bc they want to traumatize others. dont do the same to people with intrusive thoughts.

Please spread awareness about this!

gentle reminders:

🌷 sometimes, being kind to yourself is to study instead of procrastinating, even if it makes you feel uncomfortable - when the exams and deadlines approach, your anxiety won’t be so bad.

🌸 sometimes, being kind to yourself is to log off everything, stop looking for the rush of validation - at the end of the day, you can’t fill an empty mood with more emptiness.

✨ sometimes, being kind to yourself is to make yourself uncomfortable for a while. to get rid of habits that initially comfort you, but ultimately make you feel worse. all habits are uncomfortable to stop, but the rewards will be so satisfying, and so worth it !!

It’s kinda cool how someone can just pop into your life all of a sudden and become so important to you within such a small amount of time. I think that’s what makes life so interesting though. There’s always a reason to be hopeful for the future because you never know what good things will come your way next.

It's okay if sometimes all we do is survive. We survive for the moments when we learn to thrive. We will get there. I pray Jesus blesses you all so you can get to know him much better.

Know the difference

Don’t forget to get ya a little snack and a few sips of water.

Go on a mini mission and find some funny videos or pictures. 

That’s good, you’re good now.