๐’๐ฅ๐ž๐ž๐ฉ๐ฒ ๐ค๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฌ - ๐ˆ๐ฌ๐š๐š๐œ ๐ฑ ๐†๐ž๐ง๐๐ž๐ซ

๐’๐ฅ๐ž๐ž๐ฉ๐ฒ ๐ค๐ข๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฌ - ๐ˆ๐ฌ๐š๐š๐œ ๐ฑ ๐†๐ž๐ง๐๐ž๐ซ ๐๐ž๐ฎ๐ญ๐ซ๐š๐ฅ! ๐‘๐ž๐š๐๐ž๐ซ

Genre: fluff/comfort

c/w: implied/mentions of trauma, abuse, assault themes

a/n: I wrote this at 3am while I'm the kitchen because a spider was in my bedroom

โ€งอ™โบหš*๏ฝฅเผ“โ˜พใ€€โ˜ฝเผ“๏ฝฅ*หšโบโ€งอ™

Isaac had never been one to be very affectionate, he was a very busy man with work and such. It would often only range from small hugs before he left for work to spooning while you both slept, it was never more than that. This however, it made you feel a little insecure, making your mental health slightly decrease.

You were alone at home, the house was empty. Isaac was working late and your thoughts were bearing down on you, chomping away at you. You were tired, your eye bags showing the extent of worry and stress you felt.

Your mental health had just been plumeting lately with thoughts of how Isaac may leave you. He knew you were often worried and over thought this. Due to your last and past relationships, he always tried to put things right between the two of you, never wanting you to feel left out or alone at all. He was there for you and wanted you to feel loved despite him not showing it very often.

You sighed, the sunset turning into a watercoloured scene, the colours blurred nicely into each other. Yet it felt so lonely. Your hands slowly slid up to your face and hid it, you then felt the warmth of tears burning your palms.

The scene was emotional to anyone who saw it while peering up at the window at you. The apartment was large and had large windows, allowing anyone outside to look up inside. You sighed and looked at your phone, Isaac hadn't messaged yet.

You stood up and wiped away your tears while you crouched and got a start on dinner. It would probably go cold before Isaac got back again. Yet.. you would still cook, the food hot in the pan while you made a simple recipe.

You didn't know if Isaac would even be coming home tonight. The thoughts were making you spiral and you soon became emotional, tears forming again as you cried. Your body slumped to the floor, spoon in hand and your arms still half folded on the counter. You looked so done.

You hadn't even noticed Isaac had walked through the door due to this. As soon as he saw you, his eyes widened and he quickly put down his things and came over. His hand pat your shoulder and he crouched to your level, his hands sliding to your face as he looked at you.

"Oh love.."

He sighed in a soft way, his large hands held your cheeks either side of your face, tracing your scars and such as you cried, your hands angrily and uncontrollably trying to push him away but he didn't care and pulled you in for a hug, he knew you needed it, as soon as he felt your body melt against his.

"I've got you.. I've got you shh shh shh.. Let me take care of you"

You had never felt him be so touchy, it made you almost calm immediately. Hands calmly touched you and lifted your body into his large, muscled arms. He sat down on the sofa and grabbed a blanket, wrapping you up and cuddling you. You let him do whatever he pleased at this point, you craved this comfort.

"Such a good pet for me. There you go, calm.."

He smiled softly and kissed your head, letting you rest in his lap. The rain outside gently hit the windows and added to the comfort, the tv quietly playing an animal documentary that both you and Isaac watched. His hands played with your hair while you came down from your meltdown, soft hair stayed in between his fingers as you both fell asleep.

The image of you both passed out and exhausted on the sofa would never not be cute or funny. Your face was red and teary, yet hidden in Isaacs chest your breath warm. Isaac meanwhile was holding your waist with one hand and one on the back of your head. Neither of you heard his phone ringing later that night. You both deserved this break and Isaac finally having time to touch you (he was most definitely ignoring the call)

Maybe you are made to be loved, you deserve this after everything.

โ€งอ™โบหš*๏ฝฅเผ“โ˜พใ€€โ˜ฝเผ“๏ฝฅ*หšโบโ€งอ™

a/n: AH, I'm so sorry this is so short I have such bad writers block ๐Ÿ˜ญ I'm probably going to write a part 2 where he takes you for a day out

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1 year ago

<3

Xanthus X Reader

xanthus x reader

xanthus comforts you!

ANOTHA ONE! and ofc its xanny again what can i sayyy i love my pookie- this was meant to be more wholesome butttt i chopped off an entire part that just didn't flow with everything

alsooo finals season is starting and ill be busy suffering for the next two weeks sooo i may complete one more fic later this week then disappear for a while

โœงโ‹„โ‹†โ‹…โ‹†โ‹„โœงโ‹„โ‹†โ‹…โ‹†โ‹„โœงโ‹„โ‹†โ‹…โ‹†โ‹„โœงโ‹„โ‹†โ‹…โ‹†โ‹„โœงโœงโ‹„โ‹†โ‹…โ‹†โ‹„โœง

โ€œYou're in the wind, I'm in the water Nobody's son, nobody's daughterโ€

Youโ€™re not one to sulk, throughout your life youโ€™ve learnt that pointless worrying will never prove to be an advantage and overthinking weighs you down like a heavy burden. Although sometimes you canโ€™t help but think of home especially now when your life is thrown on the line all over again. The home you once knew and loved isnโ€™t your home anymore. The home you abandoned to pursue a better life. Ironically, that peace was short-lived and danger seems to follow you everywhere you go; it seeps into the cracks of your life, it follows you to every crevice of the earth.

Sometimes you wonder about your parent and if they think of you too. It would be funny to explain the course your life has taken to them. It would be nice to introduce Xanthus to them. Would that be possible? Are they even alive still? Nothing is guaranteed, nothing at all. Maybe someday you could track them down. Someday you could see them again and hug them but would they even remember you? Have they already moved on and forgotten about you?

Thatโ€™s impossible, right?

Dontisโ€™ home has a spectacular view of the city, his balcony was a perfect to observe the cityโ€™s rich culture but that wasnโ€™t your reason for gazing down at the lights and colours that illuminated the streets. You wished to clear your mind, avoid your thoughts of home and your parents but the families that hurried excitedly through the streets together did not help you whatsoever. If anything, it made your current predicament worst.

Teardrops fall onto your hand, the wet stream cooling in the nigh time breeze as it rolls down your cheeks leaving a glistening trail in their wake. Shit, you didnโ€™t mean to cry not when Xanthus can feel what you feel.

โ€œLove, are you out there?โ€ his soothing voice calls from behind you.

Crap itโ€™s too late now.

โ€œYeah, uh Iโ€™m hereโ€ your hands quickly drag against your cheeks wiping away any sign of tears before you head inside.

He stood by the glass doors, waiting for you. You donโ€™t say a word. You walk straight to him pressing resting your forehead against. His hands immediately wrap around your body and he placed a kiss on the crown of your head.

โ€œWhatโ€™s the matter my love?โ€ his voice is so gentle, so patient.

It makes you break down all over again. Your lips quiver, and you squeeze your eyes shut as you sob into him. Xanthus is so sooo patient with you. He stays with you silently rubbing small circles on your back and resting his face against your hair.

You donโ€™t know how long youโ€™ve been standing there with him but it was long enough for you to calm down. Hiccups leaving your throat as you pull back from him.

โ€œโ€™m sorryโ€ you mumble

โ€œYou donโ€™t have to be loveโ€ he cradles your face in his palms.

โ€œI ruined your shirtโ€ you eye the wet splotch on the front of his shirt but Xanthus only lets out a short chuckled.

โ€œThatโ€™s the last thing on my mind right nowโ€ he kisses your forehead. โ€œCome on, letโ€™s get you comfortableโ€

He walks you to the plush sofa and drapes a soft blanket over your shoulders before disappearing into the kitchen. Within seconds heโ€™s back by your side with water and he takes a seat next to you.

โ€œThank you Xanโ€ you take a sip of your water.

โ€œI promised to take care of you didnโ€™t I? Now, do you want to talk about it?โ€ concern is evident in his voice and his eyes.

โ€œI donโ€™t know, lately Iโ€™ve been thinking about my parents and I guess it makes me sad. I think during my time away from them Iโ€™ve romanticized a relationship thatโ€™s far better the one we actually had.โ€ A deep sigh heaves from your chest โ€œTruth be told, Iโ€™m not even sure theyโ€™d remember me. Itโ€™s been so long and I still somehow miss them and the relationship we could have had if I stayedโ€

โ€œThatโ€™s alright love, itโ€™s understandableโ€ he lays on the sofa pulling you close to him. โ€œSometimes I feel it too.โ€

โ€œReally?โ€ you perk up like a puppy, only slowly like a rather sick puppy given how miserable you feel.

โ€œYeahโ€ he looks down at you โ€œItโ€™s been 400 years but sometimes I think of a fond memory and I long for their presence again too.โ€ The sadness doesnโ€™t get lost in his voice and its clear Xanthus understands exactly how you feel.

โ€œItโ€™s mostly memories of my brother and my mother but itโ€™s enough to make me miss them in my life.โ€ He continued.

โ€œIโ€™m sorryโ€ you werenโ€™t sure how to reply, it felt most natural to let your actions say what your words couldnโ€™t. You close your eyes and hugged him tighter.

โ€œDonโ€™t be, itโ€™s not something we can change.โ€ He smiles. โ€œAnd we may not have families but we have each other donโ€™t we?โ€

You look up at him to find his piercing eyes already looking for yours.

โ€œWe do.โ€

You smile at him and he pulls your body onto his chest. His lips fit perfectly against yours slowly savouring the feeling and taste. Your hands grip his shirt and his slips under the thick blanket to hold onto your waist. He pulls away slowly, reluctantly.

โ€œAnd weโ€™ll always have each otherโ€

โ€œAlwaysโ€ you parrot and he places a kiss on your forehead.

For the rest of the night Xanthus stays cuddled up with you in Dontisโ€™ balcony, sharing fond memories, tracing patterns in the stars and eventually you fall asleep in his arms.

There's a glimmer in his eyes then he speaks again. โ€œI have an idea, come hereโ€ he gets up, pulling you to follow him.

Life has definitely taken a turn through another dangerous path, but you arenโ€™t complaining. You donโ€™t bother yourself with such a mediocre thing either, because through every hardship, every conflict, you arenโ€™t alone. Xanthus has been here from the start and thereโ€™s no doubt in your mind that heโ€™ll be here until the very end. You can feel it when he holds you close, when he kisses you, and especially when he looks you in the eyes and tells you how much he loves you.

The guarantee of a future is unknown but youโ€™d die and do it all over again if it meant Xanthus was by your side.

โœงโ‹„โ‹†โ‹…โ‹†โ‹„โœงโ‹„โ‹†โ‹…โ‹†โ‹„โœงโ‹„โ‹†โ‹…โ‹†โ‹„โœงโ‹„โ‹†โ‹…โ‹†โ‹„โœงโœงโ‹„โ‹†โ‹…โ‹†โ‹„โœง

1 year ago

@birdyyyyyy: Alr okay so my idea is โ€ฆ Iโ€™ve checked you donโ€™t mind writing nsfwโ€ฆHEHEHE

so.. Xanthus and the listener being at Dontis place for 2 months now. They didnโ€™t do anything special beside kissing and hugging but it never crossed that line. One evening when Dontis was looking for company, Xanthus uses the opportunity to get close to the listener. They were on the coach talking and Xanthus was needy HE WAS NEEDY so he started getting close and then pulling listener under him and then yk โ€ฆ you donโ€™t have to write it till s3x. Just go as far as you are comfortable. If youโ€™re not comfortable just leave it aside lol

๐ก๐ž๐š๐ฏ๐ž๐ง ๐ข๐ฌ ๐š ๐›๐ž๐๐ซ๐จ๐จ๐ฆ - ๐ฑ๐š๐ง๐ญ๐ก๐ฎ๐ฌ ๐œ๐ฅ๐š๐ข๐›๐จ๐ซ๐ง๐ž (๐๐’๐…๐–) โœง

@birdyyyyyy: Alr Okay So My Idea Is โ€ฆ Iโ€™ve Checked You Donโ€™t Mind Writing Nsfwโ€ฆHEHEHE

เผบโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ˜†โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”เผป

[แด˜ส€แดแดแด˜แด›] xแด€ษดแด›สœแดœ๊œฑ แด€ษดแด… สแดแดœ แด€ส€แด‡ สœแดแดแด‡ แด€สŸแดษดแด‡, แด€ษดแด… xแด€ษดแด›สœแดœ๊œฑ แด›แด€แด‹แด‡๊œฑ แด€แด…แด แด€ษดแด›แด€ษขแด‡ แด๊œฐ แด›สœแด€แด›.

a/n: hi guys omg ive had writers block for SO LONG and havenโ€™t had any ideas so sorry i went on break for so long :(( but iโ€™m back now ! (proceeds to come back with smut LMAOAO). ive based this on xanthus recent audio where dontis leaves to see his partner if thats okay!! you can just skip the first bit if you want as its just me quoting the start of the audio LOL. gender neutral reader :) also sorry if this is so cringe this is my like FIRST EVER smut so i apologise LOL

c/w: NSFW CONTENT AHEAD! not full smut but like pre smut LOL

เผบโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ˜†โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”เผป

"How long are you going to be?"

"Not long, why are you worried about me?" Dontis teases with a smirk.

Xanthus scoffs, "No, you know the city so I'm sure you've mapped out the little hidey holes."

Dontis nods, "Yes I have. I'll let you know when I'm on the way back." He says as he grabs his bag.

You're sitting on the couch watching all of this unfold, Xanthus standing by the doorway as Dontis gathers his things. Fran had left a while ago to explore New Orleans, and Dontis is now leaving for a while, which means it would be just you two in the house.

Xanthus folds his arms.

"Hm. Be careful." Xanthus warns.

"When am I not?" Dontis says with a smile.

"If I listed them all now you'd be late for your appointment, and you seem...eager to leave." Xanthus questions.

Dontis chuckles. "Not to leave you but to see them, I have my own bonds to tend to."

"Hm, have fun then."

"You too~" Dontis says as he opens the door, turning back to you for a moment.

"Look after him okay?" Dontis jokes to you. You laugh gently.

"I will, don't worry." You joke back as Xanthus rolls his eyes sarcastically, smiling a little.

Dontis gives you one last smile before making his way out the door. Xanthus sighs as he makes his way over to you.

"Where has he gone too?" You ask.

"He's gone to see his hunter friend, and I doubt he's coming back soon." Xanthus says as he sits next to you on the couch.

"How come?"

"Because they think it will be the last time they see each other, and honestly I don't blame him for thinking that way." Xanthus sighs as he lets his head rest against the couch. "We're doing something that no one else has been foolish enough to do, well they have but were defeated without a soul to spread it. That means we're either brave or idiotic, or both." Xanthus shrugs.

"Well we'll have to see soon won't we?" You reply.

"Mhm, no matter what we are it'll all come to light soon. And in the mean time.." Xanthus shifts closer to you. "I'd like to tend to my bond, as Dontis puts it." He says as he strokes your face.

"Feeling a bit bold today are we?" You tease with a laugh.

Xanthus chuckles back, kissing your forehead. "Well, it has been a while since we've had some private time, especially with you doing so much research all the while. Ah, speaking of...how are you feeling, love?" Xanthus asks you.

You perk up about your feelings as Xanthus listens intently. After a while the conversation then turns into just talking about whatever, just appreciating each other's presence for a while.

ษด๊œฑ๊œฐแดก ๊œฑแด›แด€ส€แด›๊œฑ สœแด‡ส€แด‡ <3

However, you can't fail to notice how Xanthus was acting a bit...different. The constant shifting around, moving closer to you, the way his eyes lingered on your neck, looking at you like you were some sort of prey, and his tone just felt different. You shook it off, thinking it was just because it was the two of you in the house and he could let his guard down for a while. But when your eyes met the bulge between his legs, you knew exactly what he wanted from you. Your eyes went wide and you cut off what you were saying, starting to stutter.

You two had never done anything so...lewd. It never crossed your mind at all, only exchanging kisses and hugs. The only semi lewd thing you've done is when Xanthus was feeding on you, and his hand trailed a bit too much on your chest, touching places you didn't know were sensitive until then. But that was it, never going any further. So to see him be so needy in front of you now was...well quite arousing if you were being honest. The way his eyes lingered on you with that wanting expression made your body go warm.

You two stared at each other for a couple of seconds, before Xanthus sensed your want, looking at your lips. He moved closer to you and whispered.

"May I?"

You just nodded. He held your face gently and kissed you passionately, the kiss turning more needy as it carried on. Exchanging kisses, he put his hand behind your head and pushed you down gently, landing with a slight whine as he licks your bottom lip, asking for entrance as he strokes your face with one hand as he uses his other to support himself on top of you. You allow him in, his tongue battling with yours lovingly as he admires the noises you make. Sloppy kisses shared back and fourth, his hand trailing down your chest and perking at your nipples, gently trailing his hand over them, making you gasp into his mouth slightly. He smirked at this as he gets a reaction from you. He slowly starts to slip his hand under your shirt, toying with your nipples even more. The sudden contact made you break off the kiss and throw your head back, letting out a slight moan.

"God- Xanthus I- ah~" You cry out, putting your hands around his back. Xanthus takes this opportunity to latch his mouth on to your neck, not biting but making a different type of mark. Because of him feeding from you so often, he already knows all your weak spots on your neck, so he takes advantage of that, still toying with your perky nipples gently. Still crying out in pleasure, he pulls off your neck and holds your face, bringing his mouth to your ear and whispering.

"I'll make you forget for a while."

เผบโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ˜†โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”เผป

hi guys im so sorry ive been gone for so long but ive had MAJOR writers block and autistic burnout for ages and havent had any ideas so im sorry for leaving without warning but i think im getting back in the swing of things now! this post is probably really random but i needed to get SOMETHING out. ill start working back into my routines and getting back into my posting as i went through a phase where i was posting EVERY SECOND for about 2 days LOL so ill try and post more now if i can :)

thank you for reading love u all <3

-Jasper

@birdyyyyyy: Alr Okay So My Idea Is โ€ฆ Iโ€™ve Checked You Donโ€™t Mind Writing Nsfwโ€ฆHEHEHE

เผบโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ˜†โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”เผป

1 year ago

Reblog if you've ever cried over the death of a fictional character

1 year ago

Strictly Business

Isaac asks for a relationship that is entirely professional. You oblige, to both your disappointment.

Isaac Rhoades x Reader

Warnings: talk of insomnia

โ€œI just thoughtโ€”โ€ you began hesitantly, moving the tray of cinnamon swirls closer to Isaac, prompting him to take a second one. The placating motion did nothing to ease the frown on his face. His hard stare remained fixed on you, annoyed and dismissive. You felt your heart sinking and averted your eyes.

Isaac hummed unbothered as if he couldnโ€™t care less about your request to spend time together โ€” as if he did not care in the slightest to entertain your pathetic longing for human company. โ€œIโ€™m busy, you know,โ€ he said by way of dismissal and pushed the plate of freshly baked cinnamon swirls back towards you.ย 

After a bit of prying, you had found out that his mother used to make them when he felt sad and โ€” with the anniversary of his parentโ€™s death so recent โ€” you wanted to cheer him up and surprise him with his comfort food. Isaac did not appreciate your efforts, evidently.

You tried to take the blunt rejection of both your company and care for him in stride, but you could not suppress the tight clench of your jaw as your heart squeezed painfully in your chest. โ€œIf I overstepped the other day in the garden,โ€ you said slowly, raising your gaze to meet Isaacโ€™s and show him the sincerity of your apology, โ€œI didnโ€™t mean to. Iโ€™m sorry if I made you uncomfortable in any way. Iโ€”โ€

โ€œItโ€™s fine,โ€ he said curtly, rising from his seat at the table and straightening his tie. โ€œThink nothing of it. It was a lapse of judgment on both parts. We can pretend it never happened.โ€

โ€œBut I actuallyโ€”โ€

โ€œNo,โ€ Isaac interrupted, holding up a hand to silence you, โ€œour relationship is strictly professional and I intend to keep it that way. Iโ€™m sorry, but I am in no way interested in anything more. There is nothing between us. Understand?โ€ย 

Isaacโ€™s stare burned into you and you swallowed thickly, hiding how much his words hurt. โ€œI understand,โ€ you said in a tone so calm and drained of feeling it took Isaac aback.ย 

He blinked in surprise, no longer used to your flat tone and apathetic stare. โ€˜Sirโ€™ hung unsaid in the air between you. Isaac cleared his throat to break the loaded silence stretching across the house again.ย 

You got up from your seat, brushing down the front of your clothes. โ€œWell, as you said, my services will not be needed on my day off. I will be in the library should you change your mind,โ€ you said tonelessly, leveling Isaac stoically.ย 

There was a glint of worry in his eyes, a chip in his armor you could only spot because you had spent many hours with him, paying close attention to his expressions and mannerisms. Isaac looked unsure. His mouth was slightly agape, but whatever he wanted to say was buried a moment later, hidden behind the thick wall of nonchalance and indifference he put up.ย 

The crack in his mask was sealed, and expressionless eyes met your own.

โ€œHappy reading.โ€

Isaac thought he knew what loneliness felt like โ€” he had lived in solitude for years now โ€” but no amount spent on his own had prepared him for the heart-wrenching sorrow he felt as you continuously brushed him off, retreating into yourself and being the strict definition of utterly professional.ย 

He felt hollow, watching you set the table with only one plate for him to eat at alone, hearing your monotonous voice ask him if he would prefer rice or pasta, seeing your lips twist in a polite but ingenuous smile as you greeted him in the mornings, handing him his coffee and disappearing to start on your daily chores.ย 

There had been no sweets, nor snacks you would prepare for him and shily requested he give you feedback on. There were no little bursts of light throughout his day as your paths crossed and you shot him a smile or playful wink.ย 

There were no intimate moments between you two where you would look at him with an open, vulnerable expression and rest your head against his chest as you told him about your past. There was no tender, featherlight caress of your fingers on his cheeks as he revealed some of his fears and troubles to you.ย 

You had shut him out, adhering to the boundaries he had impulsively set as his anxieties got the better of him. Now he was left with the consequences of pushing you away.

โ€˜There is nothing between us,โ€™ he had said, but why was his heart breaking every time you looked at him with your cold stare and turned your back a moment later? Why was he lying awake at night, his mind occupied only with thoughts of you as the devouring feeling of loneliness and loss swelled in his chest and choked him? Why was he missing you so terribly that it made tears gather in his eyes when you had your back turned?

It was pathetic, and one night, after you had shot down his concern for the dark circles under your eyes and told him it should be of no matter as long as you performed your duties to his standard, he recognized his sentiment to be a lie.ย 

There was something between you. There had to be because the sinking feeling as you, clearly hurting, turned away once more tore him to shreds. There was no other explanation for it, but Isaac was afraid of what that realization brought with it.

He was afraid that the admission to his all-encompassing love for you would be the very thing that destroyed him. Everyone he loved was gone, and he felt his hands beginning to shake at the thought that you โ€” now among those he adored โ€” would meet the same fate because he was too slow, too weak, too incompetent to protect you.

Still, there was only so much hollowness he could endure, and the loneliness engulfing him was so acute that it had begun hurting to exist in the house. Your brief company somehow made him feel the loneliest of all.

A quiet sound of protest came from one of the corners of the library as Isaac switched off the light. โ€œSorry,โ€ he apologized tiredly, turning the light back on to look at you, huddled on the small sofa with a blanket around you and a book in your hands. Judging by the cover, it was Frankenstein. โ€œI thought you had already gone to bed and left the light on by mistake. I didnโ€™t mean to interrupt.โ€

You glanced at the clock on the wall and sighed. It was late. However, something kept you from sleeping for the past few weeks, and no matter how tired you were, it was nearly impossible for you to doze off. At times, when the morning sun was slowly rising over the horizon and the first rays illuminated the dark blue of night, it felt like you were too tired to fall asleep.

โ€œNo worries,โ€ you said curtly, resuming your reading, โ€œI will make sure to turn off the light when I go up in a minute. Good night.โ€ย 

The lie rolled off your tongue as if it were nothing. Isaac did not move from his place in the doorway. You knew he knew that you couldnโ€™t sleep. It was evident in your appearance, your red eyes with dark bags beneath them that looked more like bruises with every passing day. The soft footsteps he could hear pacing around the house at night when you were too restless to sit down. He would be a lousy private investigator if he had not noticed your insomnia coming back in full force.

โ€œIโ€”โ€ he said into the silence, making you look towards him.

โ€œIt is rather late,โ€ you answered, trying to discourage Isaac from starting any conversation. In truth, it hurt having him near you when he was seemingly an infinity away, hidden behind some brick wall he had put up to keep the world out โ€” you included.ย 

It was his decision, and after the kiss, or as he called it, a โ€˜lapse of judgment,โ€™ you did not think it right to push his boundaries after he had so clearly told you and shown you with his actions, that he wanted nothing but a professional relationship with you. It made your heart crack, but you were adamant to give him only what he asked for, only as much as he wanted from you. It made the situation somewhat bearable to know it was what he wanted.

Isaac cleared his throat, stepping further into the room. โ€œI know, but Iโ€” Itโ€™s just that youโ€”โ€ he stuttered, suddenly nervous at confronting you. โ€œYou havenโ€™t beenโ€”โ€

โ€œWell, I certainly am tired,โ€ you said, marking the book to set it on the small table beside the couch and rising from your comfortable cocoon to fold the blanket neatly and place it over the back of the couch.

โ€œWait, Iโ€”โ€

โ€œGood night then, boss.โ€ You brushed past him and kept walking towards the door, but a hand on your wrist stopped you. โ€œDonโ€™t forget to turn off the light,โ€ you said, fighting against the urge to lean into Isaacโ€™s light touch. It wasnโ€™t professional. That was not what he wanted. There was nothing between you.

โ€œDonโ€™t call me that, Pickle,โ€ he said quietly, his thumb tracing small circles against your wrist. โ€œI havenโ€™t beenโ€” Our relationship has not been strictly business for a while now. It never was to begin with.โ€

โ€œI thought that was what you wanted out of me,โ€ you answered, unable to keep your voice from breaking as Isaac raised your hand to his lips, softly kissing the back of your hand. โ€œYou saidโ€”โ€

โ€œI was wrong,โ€ he said quickly, his eyes so earnest that you could not help but believe him, โ€œI was scared that I would get too close to you after the kiss and then you wouldโ€” you would leave me andโ€” I donโ€™t think I can go through that again, losing a person I love.โ€

At Isaacโ€˜s words, something within you broke.

Tears began welling up in your eyes and you stepped closer to wrap your arms around him in a tight embrace, which he returned immediately. It felt so good to have him close to you again, his fingers running soothingly along your back as you could feel his elevated heartbeat pounding in his chest.

โ€œYou love me?โ€ย 

Isaac swallowed, squeezing you tighter and pulling you even closer to him as he steeled himself. โ€œI do,โ€ he said shakily, but the truth of his words was evident in the underlying confidence with which he delivered them, โ€œand Iโ€™m sorry I made you doubt that. Iโ€™m sorry I pushed you away and dismissed our relationship as a mere work association when it has always been more than that. Iโ€” I was scared and I didnโ€™t know what to do after youโ€” after what you did for me andโ€”โ€œ

You leaned back enough to meet his gaze. โ€œCan I kiss you?โ€ you asked, longing to do it properly this time, wanting to erase the bitter taste of rejection that had accompanied the feeling of Isaacโ€™s lips on yours.

โ€œPlease,โ€ he whispered, inclining his head as you moved to meet his lips.

Suffice it to say, with Isaac lying next to you in his soft double bed โ€” him pulling you close and whispering sweet nothings into the darkness of night as your head rested on his chest and his arms were securely wrapped around you โ€” you fell asleep almost immediately.

Isaac smiled, placing a kiss against the top of your head as he listened to your breathing even out.

1 year ago

Me

I love how all xanthus stans are theorising and trying to figure out when the next video comes out like (i am one of them๐Ÿ˜ƒ)

I Love How All Xanthus Stans Are Theorising And Trying To Figure Out When The Next Video Comes Out Like

i come here and say everything is audrics fault i bet hes the one after us

1 year ago

I love you

๐“๐‡๐ˆ๐๐†๐’ ๐ˆ๐’๐€๐€๐‚ ๐’๐€๐˜๐’ ๐ˆ๐ ๐๐„๐ƒ
๐“๐‡๐ˆ๐๐†๐’ ๐ˆ๐’๐€๐€๐‚ ๐’๐€๐˜๐’ ๐ˆ๐ ๐๐„๐ƒ

๐“๐‡๐ˆ๐๐†๐’ ๐ˆ๐’๐€๐€๐‚ ๐’๐€๐˜๐’ ๐ˆ๐ ๐๐„๐ƒ

๐“๐‡๐ˆ๐๐†๐’ ๐ˆ๐’๐€๐€๐‚ ๐’๐€๐˜๐’ ๐ˆ๐ ๐๐„๐ƒ

โ€œis this okay?โ€

โ€œdoes this feel good?โ€

โ€œi wish you could see the faces you make when i fuck you like thisโ€

โ€œthatโ€™s it babyโ€” shit yeah yeah keep moving like thatโ€

โ€œeasy now donโ€™t get over zealous pretty thingโ€

โ€œitโ€™ll fit, donโ€™t be scaredโ€

โ€œyou take it so wellโ€

โ€œdonโ€™t be shy now, spread though pretty legs for me sweet thingโ€

โ€œmove your hand hereโ€ฆfeel that? thatโ€™s meโ€

โ€œso your neck is sensitive huh?โ€

โ€œyou keep marking my neck like that iโ€™ll end up looking like a van gogh paintingโ€

โ€œnot yet.โ€

โ€œthatโ€™s right sweet thing keep goingโ€” mmm damn itโ€

โ€œopen your mouth.โ€

โ€œmghmโ€” fuck pretty thingโ€

โ€œit hurts? your body is telling me otherwiseโ€

โ€œwant me to kiss it better?โ€

โ€œi bet you doโ€

โ€œon your kneesโ€

โ€œfucking s-shitโ€

โ€œalmost there, right there yes yesโ€

โ€œgive me a kiss sweet thing, you did amazingโ€

โ€œnow youโ€™re all shy?

๐“๐‡๐ˆ๐๐†๐’ ๐ˆ๐’๐€๐€๐‚ ๐’๐€๐˜๐’ ๐ˆ๐ ๐๐„๐ƒ

saku donโ€™t look

.love always <3 pearl

.masterlist

1 year ago

now that christmas is over,

Now That Christmas Is Over,
Now That Christmas Is Over,
Now That Christmas Is Over,

fuck all three of these characters they make me throw up inside my mouth

1 year ago

@birdyyyyyy: Alr okay so my idea is โ€ฆ Iโ€™ve checked you donโ€™t mind writing nsfwโ€ฆHEHEHE

so.. Xanthus and the listener being at Dontis place for 2 months now. They didnโ€™t do anything special beside kissing and hugging but it never crossed that line. One evening when Dontis was looking for company, Xanthus uses the opportunity to get close to the listener. They were on the coach talking and Xanthus was needy HE WAS NEEDY so he started getting close and then pulling listener under him and then yk โ€ฆ you donโ€™t have to write it till s3x. Just go as far as you are comfortable. If youโ€™re not comfortable just leave it aside lol

๐ก๐ž๐š๐ฏ๐ž๐ง ๐ข๐ฌ ๐š ๐›๐ž๐๐ซ๐จ๐จ๐ฆ - ๐ฑ๐š๐ง๐ญ๐ก๐ฎ๐ฌ ๐œ๐ฅ๐š๐ข๐›๐จ๐ซ๐ง๐ž (๐๐’๐…๐–) โœง

@birdyyyyyy: Alr Okay So My Idea Is โ€ฆ Iโ€™ve Checked You Donโ€™t Mind Writing Nsfwโ€ฆHEHEHE

เผบโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ˜†โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”เผป

[แด˜ส€แดแดแด˜แด›] xแด€ษดแด›สœแดœ๊œฑ แด€ษดแด… สแดแดœ แด€ส€แด‡ สœแดแดแด‡ แด€สŸแดษดแด‡, แด€ษดแด… xแด€ษดแด›สœแดœ๊œฑ แด›แด€แด‹แด‡๊œฑ แด€แด…แด แด€ษดแด›แด€ษขแด‡ แด๊œฐ แด›สœแด€แด›.

a/n: hi guys omg ive had writers block for SO LONG and havenโ€™t had any ideas so sorry i went on break for so long :(( but iโ€™m back now ! (proceeds to come back with smut LMAOAO). ive based this on xanthus recent audio where dontis leaves to see his partner if thats okay!! you can just skip the first bit if you want as its just me quoting the start of the audio LOL. gender neutral reader :) also sorry if this is so cringe this is my like FIRST EVER smut so i apologise LOL

c/w: NSFW CONTENT AHEAD! not full smut but like pre smut LOL

เผบโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ˜†โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”เผป

"How long are you going to be?"

"Not long, why are you worried about me?" Dontis teases with a smirk.

Xanthus scoffs, "No, you know the city so I'm sure you've mapped out the little hidey holes."

Dontis nods, "Yes I have. I'll let you know when I'm on the way back." He says as he grabs his bag.

You're sitting on the couch watching all of this unfold, Xanthus standing by the doorway as Dontis gathers his things. Fran had left a while ago to explore New Orleans, and Dontis is now leaving for a while, which means it would be just you two in the house.

Xanthus folds his arms.

"Hm. Be careful." Xanthus warns.

"When am I not?" Dontis says with a smile.

"If I listed them all now you'd be late for your appointment, and you seem...eager to leave." Xanthus questions.

Dontis chuckles. "Not to leave you but to see them, I have my own bonds to tend to."

"Hm, have fun then."

"You too~" Dontis says as he opens the door, turning back to you for a moment.

"Look after him okay?" Dontis jokes to you. You laugh gently.

"I will, don't worry." You joke back as Xanthus rolls his eyes sarcastically, smiling a little.

Dontis gives you one last smile before making his way out the door. Xanthus sighs as he makes his way over to you.

"Where has he gone too?" You ask.

"He's gone to see his hunter friend, and I doubt he's coming back soon." Xanthus says as he sits next to you on the couch.

"How come?"

"Because they think it will be the last time they see each other, and honestly I don't blame him for thinking that way." Xanthus sighs as he lets his head rest against the couch. "We're doing something that no one else has been foolish enough to do, well they have but were defeated without a soul to spread it. That means we're either brave or idiotic, or both." Xanthus shrugs.

"Well we'll have to see soon won't we?" You reply.

"Mhm, no matter what we are it'll all come to light soon. And in the mean time.." Xanthus shifts closer to you. "I'd like to tend to my bond, as Dontis puts it." He says as he strokes your face.

"Feeling a bit bold today are we?" You tease with a laugh.

Xanthus chuckles back, kissing your forehead. "Well, it has been a while since we've had some private time, especially with you doing so much research all the while. Ah, speaking of...how are you feeling, love?" Xanthus asks you.

You perk up about your feelings as Xanthus listens intently. After a while the conversation then turns into just talking about whatever, just appreciating each other's presence for a while.

ษด๊œฑ๊œฐแดก ๊œฑแด›แด€ส€แด›๊œฑ สœแด‡ส€แด‡ <3

However, you can't fail to notice how Xanthus was acting a bit...different. The constant shifting around, moving closer to you, the way his eyes lingered on your neck, looking at you like you were some sort of prey, and his tone just felt different. You shook it off, thinking it was just because it was the two of you in the house and he could let his guard down for a while. But when your eyes met the bulge between his legs, you knew exactly what he wanted from you. Your eyes went wide and you cut off what you were saying, starting to stutter.

You two had never done anything so...lewd. It never crossed your mind at all, only exchanging kisses and hugs. The only semi lewd thing you've done is when Xanthus was feeding on you, and his hand trailed a bit too much on your chest, touching places you didn't know were sensitive until then. But that was it, never going any further. So to see him be so needy in front of you now was...well quite arousing if you were being honest. The way his eyes lingered on you with that wanting expression made your body go warm.

You two stared at each other for a couple of seconds, before Xanthus sensed your want, looking at your lips. He moved closer to you and whispered.

"May I?"

You just nodded. He held your face gently and kissed you passionately, the kiss turning more needy as it carried on. Exchanging kisses, he put his hand behind your head and pushed you down gently, landing with a slight whine as he licks your bottom lip, asking for entrance as he strokes your face with one hand as he uses his other to support himself on top of you. You allow him in, his tongue battling with yours lovingly as he admires the noises you make. Sloppy kisses shared back and fourth, his hand trailing down your chest and perking at your nipples, gently trailing his hand over them, making you gasp into his mouth slightly. He smirked at this as he gets a reaction from you. He slowly starts to slip his hand under your shirt, toying with your nipples even more. The sudden contact made you break off the kiss and throw your head back, letting out a slight moan.

"God- Xanthus I- ah~" You cry out, putting your hands around his back. Xanthus takes this opportunity to latch his mouth on to your neck, not biting but making a different type of mark. Because of him feeding from you so often, he already knows all your weak spots on your neck, so he takes advantage of that, still toying with your perky nipples gently. Still crying out in pleasure, he pulls off your neck and holds your face, bringing his mouth to your ear and whispering.

"I'll make you forget for a while."

เผบโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ˜†โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”เผป

hi guys im so sorry ive been gone for so long but ive had MAJOR writers block and autistic burnout for ages and havent had any ideas so im sorry for leaving without warning but i think im getting back in the swing of things now! this post is probably really random but i needed to get SOMETHING out. ill start working back into my routines and getting back into my posting as i went through a phase where i was posting EVERY SECOND for about 2 days LOL so ill try and post more now if i can :)

thank you for reading love u all <3

-Jasper

@birdyyyyyy: Alr Okay So My Idea Is โ€ฆ Iโ€™ve Checked You Donโ€™t Mind Writing Nsfwโ€ฆHEHEHE

เผบโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ˜†โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”เผป

1 year ago
Becoming A Pet For The Master || Audio RP | M4A
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You have been imprisoned for a while, in a dark place with nothing to keep you company but other captives. Today, a stranger approaches you

Only listened to his audio to hopefully hear something about Isaac and Xanthus ๐Ÿ™


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anyone of the zsakuva community that shifted there ? :)


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