" And My Biggest Mistake Was Loving You More Than I Could Ever Love Myself."

You're the winter that will never warm up to me

And the autumn that will never fall for me.

-H.Asteid

" What made you so afraid of people getting too close?"

-H.Asteid

You. You showed me the side of love that Disney tried to hide from me when I was a kid. You made me realize that walking this earth with a soft heart can cost me everything. That night when you left me lying naked on the floor, I wept and silently wished I didn't have emotions at all.

-H.Asteid🍁

" She's like a closed book hiding on the farthest part of a shelf, tightly hugging herself , Afraid that someone might ruin her pages again."

- H.Asteid, Ruined Pages

I was born with reds and violets tattooed on my stomach, shards of glass in my eyes and scars on my back. I never really knew how to talk in a velvety voice or hold flowers in my hands without crushing them in the process. The love introduced to me isn't the kind of love that'd wish you sweet dreams. The love I've known brought me nightmares with me crying, laughing at my fallen tooth on the carpet.

So please be patient with me. I'm still learning not to destroy the things I love.

---H.Asteid🍁

" This may sound crazy to you but...If she were a cliff, I won't even hesitate to take the leap."

- H.Asteid

We will survive!

Oh you better watch us thrive

Yes, you did drown our dreams

But we can dive, we can swim

We'll dragged them back up on the surface

With our famous brand of determination and resilience

We'll pick up all the shattered pieces

You see , the harder the wind blows,

the tighter we hold on

The harder you try to pulverize our hopes,

the more you give us nothing but a choice to be strong

- H.Asteid

" I lost myself trying not to lose you."

-H.Asteid

How many more sonnets do you I have to write for you?

How many more steps to do I have to take to get to you?

You see, I'm running out of ink

And it's like my knees are about to give in

But I kept writing

I kept walking

Coz honey, you're inked in my mind like a tattoo

You're like the cups of coffee I consume

Cup after cup after cup

Still, I can't get enough

I can't stop!

I can swim, Believe me I can swim

But my heart seems to be so fascinated with your depths

That it doesn't mind getting drowned in it.

But you won't let me in.

You'd leave your door slightly ajar then you'd slam it on my face,

You'd pull me close then you'd pull away

You have me wrapped around your thumb

That when you ever you needed a hit, I'll be your drug.

It's insane! I mean...

I think it's the other way around

You.

You are my drug.

Your love's my addiction

But the way it's consuming me right now,

Tells me...

That you are both my sweet salvation and also, the road that would lead to my own destruction.

- H. Asteid, One-sided Sonnet