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Tell me why it's 1 AM, and I just made pancakes for breakfast in advance while listening to this song on repeat. Even as I eat one pancake on my bed, I am still listening to this ear candy.

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I feel like March is Orange, he is giving orange idk why, it fits the handsome lad very much. Yes March is a boy... No further queries...

Woke up... Late - sink routine - skipped stretch again... - had only black coffee and one toast as breakkie - read a classic - listen to substack - OH EM GEE I FORGOT TO TAKE A PIC OF MY LUNCH : FRIED SWEET POTATO, TRUST ME😌👌- the scroll of doom - thought of march resolutions; will share tomorrow - played LADS - made whipped coffee - touched some grass, coz my phone was dying and there was no electricity/WiFi - made dalgona for funsies - simped over older men - watch Lucifer - shower - dinner + Luci - now bed time + more Luci.

Also look at this tweet of mine that NOBODY liked. Furthermore, my friend is fed up of me 💔

What's wrong with liking Hannibal, Dr. House, and Lucifer? Clearly, I have a type 🙄.

open.substack.com

Let it Be Ugly

so you can access the precious side.

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I'm obsessed with Dr. House 😔

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:0 the date 2005!

Today I tried to complete the painting I started yesterday, but ehh, will finish tomorrow once I get over the overthinking phase.

I did pilates as usual today, and I'm seriously thinking about actually going ahead with signing one of the 2 modelling contracts offered to me, but my mom won't let me 💔but I want to take it (modelling) seriously urghhhh.

Idkkk, and I should actually finish with the uni stuff, idk idk idkkekjskaksvdndksksk I did NOT plan to be alive to experience this moment oh my gooooddddddddddd😖

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WIFI GOT PAID MWHWHHAHHAHA TIME TO LEARN CODE 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

10/10 day

I was sleepy while drawing this, tell me if you wanna see my actual art— the real deal [confident]

Catsss

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Project research, planning, university searching, contemplating life, back to project, cut myself some shorts from jeans I don't wear, planning on what to do with the scraps, organise my dresser, vc with BFF, now to bed

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Lemee show you my first ever abstract painting 😼 heh.

Apart from filming that draft post, I'd say today was mediocre; I had bad cramps. By the way, I don't see my fellow girl bloggers mentioning period topics. Perhaps I'll take this as an opportunity to write about periods! It's not a taboo topic, and while I understand that girl blog spaces are welcoming and gender-neutral, I think discussing it and giving tips would be quite beneficial to those of us that menstruate in the community :D.

Reached a pivotal moment in House MD, and I just keep falling in love with his character, dawg. I love antiheroes; I love empathizing with characters you're not supposed to show care for. Ugh, new comfort show!

1: i aspire to be that girl with her rats. 😭❤️‍🩹 Me whennnnnn? I love rats; I had a baby fever equivalent for rats, especially rex rats. 🥹💓 I can't wait to be grown up and get grown up money to have my own 2-3 cuties 😭😭😭😭. Great, now I'm falling in love again.

2:No, because I'm starting to think I'm too in love with the act of drawing myself that I over-romanticize my appearance. Even though I'm satisfied with my current looks, I do acknowledge I tend to do too much in my drawings. 😭

3:Old haul that reminded me to finish the book - Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert. It's kind of a 'you snooze, you lose' book... As in, if you push through the first 20 pages, that's when it really starts. Is that a good analogy?

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Made my hair! Love the twists🙇🏾‍♀️

I did half of my sudoku puzzle of the day, mostly binged Lucifer while on Pinterest #pip #andriod, and did nothing much except sit from 3 to 8 pm and do my hair.

I could do a face reveal but I don't know 🫣.

lesson N2 | the 100 Lessons to Change Your Life

forgive yourself

Why are you so hard on yourself ml ? Please, take a moment to breathe. I know you carry so much weight in your heart, constantly questioning every little thing you do, replaying moments in your mind as if you're not enough. But please read this "you are enough". You always have been. u don't need to hold yourself to impossible standards. Mistakes? they are simply part of your life not the definition of who you are.You are allowed to make mistakes, just like everyone else. You are allowed to be imperfect, to stumble, to fall, and still rise again. It's okay. You don't have to be so hard on yourself. Please be gentle with your heart , sometimes we forget that the most important relationship we have is the one with ourselves. Treat yourself with the same love, understanding, and care you would give to a dear friend who’s feeling lost.Please, let go of that guilt you’ve been carrying for so long. It’s weighing you down, but you don’t have to carry it anymore. It’s okay to release it. Your mistakes are not failures they’re the lessons that have shaped you into the wonderful person you are becoming. You’ve learned, you’ve grown, and that’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of.Take a deep breath ml u deserve this moment of peace, this moment of forgiveness. You don’t need to have it all figured out, and that’s okay. Please let yourself off the hook. Be kind to yourself. There is no need to carry around guilt, regret, or self-doubt. You are worthy of love, of compassion, and of patience, especially from yourself.I know it’s hard to be kind to yourself sometimes, but please remember you are worthy of every ounce of love and understanding you give to others. Be kind to yourself as you would to the softest, gentlest cloud passing by. Let yourself rest, forgive yourself, and breathe deeply in the knowledge that you are already enough, just as you are. You are allowed to begin again, to forgive, to heal, and to move forward with a heart full of kindness and grace.

@bloomzone