I Want To Commit Suicide.

Am I disabled if I have to be homeschooled because of my chronic illness? Asking out of curiosity.

Yippee! Finally day off !

DAMN, I WANNA TELL TO SOMEONE ABOUT MY AU SO HARD LIKE... PROJECT SEKAI × VITA CARNIS!! This is actually the first project I've been working on enthusiastically...

I have no ideas what to post, I'm sorry

I absolutely despise how scientists are represented in the media. Like no bro, I don't wanna read another story of a violent scientist with syringes, who's mad and cruel, THAT'S BORING! At least try to make it interesting, giving them something unique. Because, there's already enough just violent and cruel scientists, to the point where I reject almost all my universes that contain a bad lab. Like hell, I don't want to make another cliche... Plus it's boring to write.

It's always "we will represent disabilities!" Until it comes to dystonia/atethosis/chorea/etc. Until they see a REAL seizure, not when a person just shakes on the ground. Until when they see how a person can't get up to go to the toilet due to fatigue. Until they see how a person suffers from pain all over their body, although they ate BUNCH of pain killers. Until disability ISN'T aesthetically lay in bed and sit on the internet. Until they see how a person can't go out on the street without someone who could help them, so they are forced to bed rotting all the time. Just please, if you speak about disabilities, talk about REAL disabilities, not "aesthetically" laying in the bed while everyone is pampering you.

The only things that help me these days it's Tumblr and Character AI... I wish bots from C.AI were real

Changing an icon/the whole profile/phone decor feels like making a new self

Not accept by "a friend".

Few weeks ago, I was obsessed with idea of finding new friends to chat in discord with, so I started to try to find friends. And I found one. He was good, and funny, we liked talk together, so we kept chatting.

Yesterday, I did a coming out to him, and he started to mock me, but I didn't say anything. Then he started to say something like "Not think/associate yourself with any gender isn't normal", "There's only two genders", "I'll block you if you keep doing it" and etc.

In the end our friendship ended, cuz I don't wanna listen that I'm insane just because I'm being myself. I don't and won't understand people like him.

I talked with my parents about that I wanna die, but they started to judge me. Today I understood that nobody needs me, and I'm not need to stay here in this world. I want to commit suicide, and I will commit suicide, maybe on my funerals they will understand that I wasn't okay?:)