পৃথিবীতে হয়তো দেখবার যোগ্য লোক পাওয়া যায়,

Today, as I was browsing YouTube, I stumbled upon a video uploaded by SVF clips featuring scenes from the Bengali movie "Villain." Intrigued by the snippets, I promptly logged into Hoichoi to watch the full film.

However, the experience turned out to be quite disappointing. The storyline, plot, music, and dialogues were all incredibly cringeworthy. I find myself regretting my decision to watch it.

It makes me wonder why the Bengali film industry seems preoccupied with producing such films. Movies like "Bindass," "Herogiri," and others of their ilk — are they even worthy of being called movies?

I forgot to add the beautiful lyrics of the song present in the movie "chokhe legeche dhoya tor angul choyar nesha legeche bedon (ki egulo???) nei thik thikana bhule giye bahana, sudhu thote thot khujbe norom, doze doze doze chade pyaar ki yeh doze"

I'm feeling deeply unsettled at the moment. Once a year, Koushik Ganguly and Srijit Mukherji return with their thought-provoking films, which truly stand out as gems. I find myself longing for the era of Satyajit Ray and Rituparno Ghosh, whose films defined Bangla cinema.

Ajke ei tuku, pore ashchi ekta chotto biroti niye songe thakun shusto thakun.

Some students in my school are writing poems. how can someone write poems everyday?? like- anyways the poetry's are quite dumb. not kidding but poems should contain some twist or some topsy turvyness. Metaphors, personifications, oxymorons, similes, hyperboles, ironys are missing. Those poems won't make you think twice. It won't just touch your heart. Simple and flat writing. For example "you are my guy and you are the only one I love, can't forget you" blah blah blah...

Poems should contain :- (purely my opinion)

"evening sky made thoughts run through my idle brain, drowning me, bewitching me and what isn't. It made me think what in the world am I doing? competition on its highest peak, humans running like as if hypnotized by the pied piper of hamlin to enter into a hole full of darkness, however, dark success, which, covering our mouths with some bitter currency which won't reach to the siren heaven after human expiry"

Love, is their only topic. Poems should contain some heart burning emotions. Might be love, might be betrayal, might be the economy, even a broken glass or a tulip so white, so sad, so pure, so happy, so DEADLY. Sylvia Plath wrote about tulips. In our current world, people are making love so playful that they are making dumb poems about it. Love isn't filthy. Love is like getting into harvard, writing a book, clicking photos, looking deep into the sky and a person. love is not always romantic. Sadism isn't always sad.

(No hatred to them)

This much is all. Leave to be granted.

I know I have good judgment, I know I have good taste

It's funny and it's ironic that only I feel that way

I promise 'em that you're different and everyone makes mistakes

But just don't

I heard that you're an actor, so act like a stand-up guy

Whatever devil's inside you, don't let him out tonight

I tell them it's just your culture and everyone rolls their eyes

Yeah, I know

All I'm asking, baby

Please, please, please

Don't prove I'm right

And please, pleasе, please

Don't bring me to tеars when I just did my makeup so nice

Heartbreak is one thing, my ego's another

I beg you, don't embarrass me, like the others, oh

Please, please, please

🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀🎀

Deepika Padukone, Ram Leela, 2013.

Today is the last day of my life to collect books from school. My school life is going to have a "যবনিকা পতন" next year.

Yesterday I gave a call to my best friend and she was shouting like "why are we growing up so fast?? Class eleven came to an end so fast. I still can't get over the fact that we went to Jayanti Cinema Hall in Panchami to watch a movie and in Saptami we went to momo I am and only had a frappé which we shared. We had so much fun. Hiya, oi hangover ta seriously katchena, how all these got over so fast?". I realized that class 12 will also fly away pretty fast and I will enter college next year. I will be an adult.

Life won't be easy anymore. Life will give "me" the lemon instead of my parents and I have to make a delicious lemonade in order to give my parents the best life which they deserve.

Depression? I know how to fight. I am only 17 years old alot of time is left to be depressed but not now. My parents work so hard and I will give them my depression, no that is not going to happen.

~Wishing for something like this🍁~

(I love you, you idiot~)

(Courtesy-YouTube)

Manipulation is when they disturb your peace, provoke you, trigger your mental health, and then blame you for your negative reactions.

I am in my art class now, my forth year written examination of art got over.. After two weeks I came to my art class.. It is my happy place... Here I do the thing which I love. I have never said no to my art classes just because it is my comfort place...

A cute little girl is sitting in front of me, scribbling in her drawing pad which made me think of me when I used to do such things.. Some other kids are shouting and talking which made me think of me as a kid who used to talk continuously and disturb my sir... Sir is nice, cool too.. Happy place I told you...

Some kids have become grown ups.. They are taking advice from me regarding art works.... Made me feel proud..

Some kids are running around and playing with their drawing.... (Sir is not in the room so critical scenario) They will get scolding for sure...

This current situation made me think of this song.. (Not relatable at all... don't blame me, blame my brain...)

'মানুষ যখন কারও প্রেমে পড়ে, তখন তার ভালোবাসার মানুষটিকে ঘিরে এক ধরনের প্রবল মুগ্ধতা তৈরি হয়। সেই মুগ্ধতার বেশিরভাগই বিভ্রম। কিন্তু তখন সে তা বুঝতে পারে না। ফলে, তার চরিত্রের অমাবস্যার মতো নিকষ কালো অন্ধকার দিকটাকেও জোছনার স্নিগ্ধ মায়াময় আলো বলে ভ্রম হয়। ওই ভ্রম আর সহজে কাটে না। কিংবা কাটলেও তা বিশ্বাস করতে ইচ্ছে হয় না। মনে হয়, কোথাও না কোথাও নিশ্চয়ই কোনো ভুল হচ্ছে। সেই ভুল কাটে প্রেম ভেঙে গেলে। অবশ্য তখন আবার জোছনার স্নিগ্ধ আলোতেও অশুভ অমাবস্যার অসীম অন্ধকার খুঁজে পাওয়া যায়।'

📚'তোমার জন্য দাঁড়িয়ে ছিলাম বলে'

—সাদাত হোসাইন

thank you for the tag - @hashi-thatta

last song - Nadiyon sa (Mitraz)

favorite color - red, white and blue

last movie - jaatiswar (the reincarnate)

last series - tungkulung e Eken Babu

sweet/savory/spicy - I like sweet things spice tolerance is very low

last thing I googled - give sums on final accounts and solve them (lol)

current obssession - Dunki and Dwitiyo Purush

last book - chokher bali by Rabindranath Thakur

looking forward - to be a better human being, to pass my exams nicely, to have a boyfriend (no issues it will never happen), to sleep and get rid of my exams quickly...

tagging people

@kabhi-kabhi-aditya @hum-aapke-koi-nahi @nainachoudhary @rajashreeghoshh @shyam-kariya @ok-jaanu

thx @ghiblilesb for that tag!!

last song: and one - dancing in the factory

favorite color: pastel lavender

last movie/tv show: I started watching journey to bethlehem last year but couldn't finish bc of my workload tsk tsk....

sweet/savory/spicy but at this moment im craving croissants тот

last thing I googled: kalpalata farm route... i hate genshin for this

current obsession: yuzuru hanyu

last book: reread phantom of the opera for my course paper 100/10 experience

looking forward to: finally relaxing after this semester whaddahell my 9 days break starts tomorrow yippee!!

tagging with no pressure obvi: @slavic-roots-western-mind @dinosaurguts @osondu-imafidon @desmoonl @khalixvitae and anyone else who wants to join in