Currently Watching This Very Cliche (but Still Decently Enjoyable) Christmas Movie And It Has This Horse

So I have a tradition that on the eve of opening night for any show I’m in, I reblog something related to the show. In this case, we aren’t actually opening tomorrow (because, well, you know. Pandemic and all.) but we would’ve, so... here, have a Crucible meme to celebrate our scheduled opening night eve, in hopes that we will have a real opening night... some time in the future. 

Anyways, back when we were still doing rehearsals, I showed this to my friend who plays Mary Warren and we had a long hard laugh over it :) 

I have another new obsession

Wearing a Texas t-shirt that I bought at a Bucee's in Houston and eating stuffed crust Hawaiian pizza with extra pineapple: this one's for you, Doug Eiffel <3

I currently follow 40; most of them are Gotham and I’m trying to diversify, though. I want to follow more Doctor Who blogs and maybe even some Once Upon a Time ones, but the trouble is that I’m behind on both of those shows and tumblr blogs tend to focus on the most current stuff. (If anyone knows good ones, feel free to recommend them!)

Also, quite a few of those 40 are art blogs that update pretty rarely, but when they do, the art is great. So, it’s not like I’m seeing 40 blogs’ worth of stuff in my dashboard every day; only like 5 of the blogs I follow update daily. 

how many people do y’all follow? it’s for science

Shoot I'm running out of time! I’ve had like four different versions of this saved in my drafts and I never get it posted before the time stamp is no longer relevant so I better get this one out now. 

Also holly poofarts, 2020 starts in less than a month!!! When did I stumble into the mythical FUTURE?? 

This is literally the last month you can reblog this joke

I completely agree, this is the best happily ever after for them. Like “get married, have kids” doesn’t have to be everyone’s happy ending always, but I do think it would’ve been the best fit for these particular characters (and it’s certainly a darn sight better than Ben winding up dead). 

After all, as a lot of people have been saying, Rey has always been looking for a family, and as great as her friend group is, I still think she would have loved this life. It’s the opportunity both characters need to do better with their own family than what they had in the past (no offense to Han and Leia’s parenting, but just things obviously went awry). Also this would be a perfect setup for future movies if they wanted them, with another next generation.

Anyways, mini-rant aside, this is simply gorgeous art; I love the coloring and the depth of it. And, of course, it fills the heart with much-needed warmth. 

This is how it should have ended

Credit to jabberwockyface

I'm in a musical (Bright Star) and the first show is in literally two minutes so I made a blinkie in my terror

Okay, so I'm finally catching up on Dracula Daily (I got like a month behind somehow, which I know sort of defeats the "daily" of it, but I'm working on it) and anyways I'm just now reading Jonathan's June 29 entry, and--

"The last I saw of Count Dracula was his kissing his hand to me"

Did Dracula just blow our boy Jonathan a kiss??

I suppose it's likely some other old-fashioned gesture that I'm not familiar with, but then again, it could well be the blowing-you-a-kiss gesture in a mocking way ("with a red light of triumph in his eyes, and with a smile that Judas in hell might be proud of." I do love that description.) I feel like there's something I might be missing here but right now I'm definitely picturing Dracula blowing Jonathan a wicked little kiss.

So I’ve been thinking I’ll probably do sharpie tatts again for my MCR show next week, and it’s a little soon yet to be drawing the ones I’ll actually have on for the show, but it’s gotten me yearning to draw on myself again, and with all the excitement about Badflower tonight (or last night now I’m posting it, but they open again tonight too), I thought, what if I just... gave myself a Badflower sharpie tattoo. For funsies?

So if you’re unfamiliar with their band logo, it looks like this:

So I started by attempting to draw their signature flower on my wrist. I decided to do it in blue rather than black just because I prefer to have some color in my sharpie tatts, even if they’re monochrome. It didn’t exactly turn out super accurately, but, well... the band’s not called Goodflower now are they? Lol. Then it just worked out that I put their name underneath rather than attempting to go on top of the flower, which would’ve required more planning and less coloring in the center. So then it looked like this:

but I wanted to do a little bit more, and incorporate some lyrics into it too. I started looking through some of the lyrics of my favorite Badflower songs, at which point I remembered, oh yeah, a lot of these are really quite grim, lol; I did come up with a few potential selections, but none of them were Vibing just right. But then I was looking at 30 and I saw “so raise up your glasses to going out of fashion!” and it just clicked into place. I mean, one of the great things about doing sharpie tatts instead of real permanent tattoos is that the things one draws on don’t have to be your only all-time favorite absolute best picks from all possible options; I considered going through more options after that, but I felt good about that line, so I went ahead and added it in. 

It felt energizing and defiant, full of weird-and-proud energy; it also seemed a bit appropriate after the night’s twitter dramas. Of course, I have trouble planning spacing and I’m just freehanding this (all the more reason I’m glad this isn’t a ‘real’ tattoo), so the “to going out of fashion” part wound up on two lines, and my script is kind of funky and hard to read in places, but you know, it’s probably not going to last a full week, and I like it. Actually I fell asleep while writing this earlier and I just woke up at like 5:30 and looked at my arm and went “what the-- oh yeah I did do that,” but this is another good thing about sharpie tattoos, that it’s okay when they just sort of appear on your arm in the morning, lol. The text in a circle around the roughly circular logo also reminds me of the Red Hot Chili Peppers logo, come to think of it, but that’s not a bad thing I suppose. Anyways, I am really quite fond of it, so I wanted to go ahead and show off my pics while it’s fresh. “Raise up your glasses to going out of fashion” indeed! I love Badflower, I love their music, it’s 6am now and I want to get back to sleep and this post is probably messy and in need of editing, but I’m going to go ahead and post about my funky little Badflower tattoo now because it’s weird and I like it. 

beatrice 6 + 10 thx!

When Violet is born, she’s so perfect and fragile that Beatrice is petrified of her. How can she have been responsible for this soft, unblemished little creature? This creature that needs her - really needs her. And grows up to be so sweet and solemn and clever. Violet doesn’t care what her classmates think of her. This trait amazes Beatrice, she’s enthralled with it. Violet is happy to sit with her mother in the library and look at blueprints quietly for hours, grinning at her when Beatrice brings her green tea. Violet makes her bold enough to start a family.

Klaus is more emotional and excitable, and a grizzlier baby, too. He won’t feed as easily as Violet did, but Beatrice relishes the banality of the challenge. The mundanity of these sleepless nights, the safety of a grumpy baby, it comforts her. Bertrand is better at settling Klaus than she is, and for once, that doesn’t feel like inadequacy. He needs glasses by the time he’s four and he’s got so much to say. Her little conversationalist.

Sunny is still so new, happy and gummy and teething. Surprisingly cheerful, for a teething baby. She doesn’t whine, just chomps on Beatrice’s finger. Rejects the baby food Beatrice lovingly made for her elder two but adores the wooden teething peg that Bertrand whittles her. She crawls so fast that her mother has to skitter across the carpet to keep up with her before the crazy little perfect angel tumbles down the staircase. She’s still so afraid for her children. She never stopped being afraid for them. 

The day Beatrice dies, she sent the three of them to the beach. They’ve always been good at entertaining themselves. She needed them out of the house because she’s so scared for them, and old associates visited, didn’t stay long. She’s waiting for them to return, swaning around upstairs, when Olaf slips in through the unlocked front door. He doesn’t make a sound as he pours out lighter fluid, fumbles with his box of matches. If Beatrice had seen it, she would have been impressed at how quiet this loud, brash man, this boy of hers, could manage to be. Given the right motivation.

She only sees him later, the figure of him, while she’s struggling in the drapery. The smoke is thick, but his tall silhouette is unmistakable. How rude of him, not to even come to say hello, before he did this, finally. It outrages her, the indecency of it. Does the past mean nothing to him? Could he not have throttled her to death, to make it personal? Right for them, befitting of their history. Olaf sets fires when he’s angry with people who have hurt him. Beatrice isn’t just people, is she?

Then everything is dimmer and easier, and breathing seems to matter less. 

“I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture.... I will love you as a dagger loves a certain person’s back.” ~Lemony Snicket

I was just rereading the Beatrice Letters and I must say, taken out of context especially, some of Mr. Snicket’s love poetry is really dark and intense. 

Also, as a southerner, 

“I will love you as kudzu loves trees”

 is similarly ominous.