But I Loved Her!

Did you ever just feel so lucky for knowing someone you met online? Like.. I was one click away from not following you. I was one second away from never even knowing of your existence.I would never have been this happy!!!...

It amazes me how he still carry two pen at the left corner of his front pocket thou he could not write anymore...

And then I whispered softly "but I love her"

“O Allah, send your grace, honour and mercy upon Prophet Muhammad ﷺ ”

“I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.”

— Jack Kerouac

All over again

I wanna be nervous

With the nervous you

All over again

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I wanna feel

That innocence

Those first times

That fear

Those magical times

I wanna be

So sure

Of that unsurety

I wanna be

Trembling

To breathe around you

To look into your eyes

To not smile from my heart

Around you

All over again

.

I wanna feel

Your nervousness

To touch my hand

To look at my lips

I wanna see

Your heart pound

I wanna feel you

So close

From so far

All over again

.

I wanna feel

So sure

To let go

Of myself

Yet so scared

Of letting go

Of myself

I wanna take

That leap of faith

To loose everything

To just be with you

To find my whole self

All over again

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I wanna be nervous

With the nervous you

All over again

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I think we are more than what I ever expected us to be

But still not enough for me😩🥺

I still love her despite the fact I know she have another one...

There’s peace in knowing that nothing happens without Allah’s knowledge or permission.