I kind of hate the internet so much sometimes, like I continue to try and look for other people’s experiences that resonate with me (specifically with body dysmorphic disorder right now) and literally nothing. Just nothing. Everyone who i try to see if they have a relating experience on maybe Reddit or quora all happen to be conventionally attractive and just in a bad state of mind. What about me? I’m fat, black, and ugly. People don’t find me attractive. I don’t find myself attractive. So now I’m here trying to figure out if it actually counts as body dysmorphia because what the hell is this.