Sucks having zero friends, "cliques", "squads", etc. To where you consider seeing a person you know for less than a min. Hanging out with someone. Literally having no ability to do anything "normally" enjoyable in life...feeling bad because you know feeling bad makes others feel bad for not being there, which makes endless guilt on all sides possibly. My daily entertainment and feeling of purpose is Litterally me just sitting at my desk all day drawing or art-ing in general. Other than that....youtube and Steven Universe, sleep, avoidance.