Tw Depressing Stuff - Blog Posts
just did a Sh aftercare fór the first time damn I deserve a price😭umm i went too far this time ehhhhhh
im so damn tired
I haven't been to school for three weeks because my mental health got really bad..i just feel so shitty will I ever feel better?
i just live in my head and daydream
my therapist said it would be a good idea to send me to a mental hospital..my mom talked about it too...idk leave me alone
Do i even want to get better? do i deserve it?
I was born to suffer.
The worst is when you want to write, know what to work on, have time to write, and are too depressed to move. That’s the hell I’m burning in.
Writer wants to write, but writer’s depression doesn’t care. Writer isn’t blocked, so much as they are drained. Countless words and ideas on the top of their tongue and they can’t speak. Their pen rests on their desk, useless. If writer does not write, are they useless? Was writer wrong to allow depression to be a thief, to steal their love, their job, and their joy? Should writer try to fight, reclaim their humanity, even if it’s just to finish a sentence, or should they concede?
i am such a sad person. everything i feel is sadness. everything that isn’t sad, i make it sad. i love being sad and despise it at the same time. i cant help but be overly empathetic and emotional because everything is sad to me. everything. i am always sad. my soul is sad.
everything is sad.