Thoughts - Blog Posts
People always say how studious I am. But they never get that I love reading, not studying. There is a major difference. I study for exams. But I read because it's soothing. I love learning though. But to mug up the syllabus for grades is something that I hate. Although I'm still compelled to do that. Why? 'Cause this goddamn world doesn't give a shit unless you're a straight A student. It's disgusting.
The Recent Realization That Completely Took Me By Surprise
“I’ve made the decision. I’m giving up on dating.”
I made this proclamation to a friend sometime in the very early 2000s. I was tired of everything that went with dating, or trying to get dates, and had gotten to a point where I, quite frankly, just didn’t give a damn anymore. I was happier being alone, relationship wise.
My friend scoffed at me, and as I told others, they did too. But for the past (approximately) 14 years, that’s been the story. There really was no one I actively wanted to date.
So it came as quite a shock to me when one night a couple of months ago, as I was out at a bar with a group of friends, it became clear to me that I really wanted to ask one of them out on a date.
[This, BTW, is not the realization this blog post is about.]
I did not react well to this. Remember a few months ago when I was making Vaugebook posts about frustration and falling into old mental traps? Well, now you know why. I had so many questions I couldn’t answer. Where did this come from? Why was this suddenly happening? I was happy not being in the dating scene, why would I suddenly want to screw that up? Why her? I didn’t really consider how she would feel. I was 99% sure she wasn’t interested. In fact, I think I would’ve been more worried if I asked her out and she actually said yes!
A week later, I travelled to New York City to visit a couple of friends of mine. While there, I discussed my recent revealation. They had become engaged a couple of weeks before, so I took their view of my situation with a huge grain of salt.
But as I spent the day with them, and watched them together, I became aware that I wanted exactly what they had.
That connection. That emotional bonding. That love.
[This, also, is not the realization this blog post is about. Stay with me here.]
I got on the train home and began thinking about everything and every emotion, past and present; what had led me to where I had been and to where I was now. And somewhere between Harlem and Greenwich, I discovered the truth.
The truth was that, during all those years, I had wanted to date.
I had wanted that connection. That bonding. That love.
The problem was, during that time and up until recently, I didn’t love myself. Truth be told, I down right loathed myself for most of that time. And because of that, I didn’t think I deserved to be loved by anyone.
So when I would meet a woman who I thought was special, I would think to myself, “Too bad I don’t want to date anyone”, and put it out of my mind.
This is the revelation this blog post is about. The revelation that, “I don’t want to date anyone”, was really my brain’s way of saying, “You don’t deserve anyone’s love.”
And once I realized that, everything going on fell into place.
I love myself now. I’m ready to date. I’m ready to love someone else now.
But, most of all, I’m ready to accept that someone can love me the same way.
although im wearing lolita day to day (abt 70% more now) I've been really lazy with my makeup lately. not wearing false lashes an blush. I feel hella basic an meh.
I want to get super cute an dolled up tmrw~
lets hope I still feel this encouraged :> hehee
best edit ever
hey dude, idk how much you remember from the party last night but- yeah, everyone saw your want. yeah no it was pretty late and winding down so it was quiet enough that every single person there saw it throbbing and twitching in your chest and so wet with hunger it was glistening under the kitchen light. they said it looked like it was reaching for something
one.
I loved them like I loved the sky- with starry eyes, real smiles and a beating heart.
Hellooo all of you lovely people!! So, I've been thinking about writing short stuff like this for a while (fun fact: I actually used to write more spontaneously, like just write out my thoughts/random pieces of writing that are born from them before I came here) And I can't believe how much this blog and all of you lovely people have helped me grow with all of your amazing love and support (and I've been having so much fun with storytelling here thanks to you all) so this is just me trying to live up to all of that love by giving you guys some new style and content to keep reading <3333 (I know it's not heroxvillain, but the bonus is you're always welcome to imagine these lines with whomsoever you wish to do so, so I hope you all will enjoy this regardless ^^) This style would also help me post more often (when story building becomes a bit too much) so yaaay<3
Once again, thank you all so much for 300 followers!!! I love you all❤
Note: As far as I'm aware among my mutuals, @literally-just-kirby also writes some amazing creative writing content!! It's not heroxvillain (so the stuff I said above applies to this as well), but their writing is such a treat to read!! So please check those out^^ (also if there's anyone else among my mutuals or followers or people I haven't met yet who writes/is planning to write some creative writing content that is not primarily heroxvillain, please feel free to tag them /tag yourselves in the comments below)
The main goal of writeblr on the whole is to promote writing so let's give some love to all the different kinds of writing out there (because words are awesome 🤚💖)
And yet we don't take them.....we still live the same day everyday....procrastinating eating and repeating
it’s awesome how we have unlimited chances to become a better version of ourselves
If only my mom could understand this....she needs to stop comparing my worth according to my marks
“you were supposed to be loved in your being, not in your performance.”
I don't know what — I..,,well
I think ultimately you become whoever would have saved you the time no one did
My rant on Yuri after watching amnse
I absolutely loved this series so much I am waiting for the next season. I just finished watching the 16th episode and I'm just so angry at Yuri. I just HATE him, like you don't deserve to be sad during the countdown because Jay Jay wasn't there. You literally forced her into a marriage without even asking for her consent, you don't even care about her feelings because in your mind you think you're saving her from Keifer but the only person she needs saving is YOU.
I mean she even confessed to you that she likes Keifer but you're still putting her in a difficult position by again and again mentioning you love her (I don't think you do .....cuz you're discarding her feelings). Yuri is trying to play it of as if he gave up Ella for Keifer but honey I bet you probably weren't even an option for her.
And to me it just looks like a competition, like he's desperate to have Jay Jay so that he doesn't loses the girl to Keifer AGAIN. I mean he literally compared Keifer to his father in his face so that he could make him back off. YURI, YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE A LOVER OR A FRIEND.
It's easier for my parents to say, speak up more in class, ask more, stop acting dumb but it's just sad that they never thought why I have turned into a very quiet person when once I was known as a chatterbox..... as a kid during PTM, the teacher used to complain that I talk too much but now my teachers say that I don't talk at all. It's sad that my parents never questioned me on this 180 change in behavior
We are Icarus, hurtling towards our fiery demise at speeds unknown, melted wax sloughing off our weary wings. We are Icarus, warned by our forefathers not to reach out of our range yet we stretch as if we know better. We are Icarus, reaching ever closer to the sun, too high on beams of light to know our own burns. And such is our fate.
Rebel against something today. Not to feel cheesy, but maybe , just maybe , it’ll be the beginning of something you.
And no, this isn’t motivation. This is a battle note.
The kids want to be writers and painters, but by 22, as they pass car dealerships, watch movies with perfect, slim women, and step over men picking up scrap metal just to buy a cup of coffee, things change.
All they want now is to survive, to sit in cars with models from the movies they watched last night .
They choose that kind of win and it's understandable.
She was covered in flowers, blooms of every scent and hue. Yet, she was so alone— the kind of loneliness that could kill. Imagine tombstones, not of the forgotten, but of the murdered, adorned with flowers of all sorts. People had spoiled her with flowers.
3:19 AM What’s around me is sleep. What’s within me are thoughts dancing on songs I hate to hear.
3:20 AM now And I’m done with this prose— or to put it right, I’m done with this observation.
I am this. Now, you should know that I won't push you to a wall I haven't pushed myself to first.
I'd rather get there first, then wait, if you’ve got the guts to join me there.
I am this, understand— I don’t desire to be loved unconditionally unless I first love without conditions.
This is love, baby, and all it means is for us to be a little bit more fair to each other.
Maybe all that we want is already taken— no matter how much we cry, yearn, lament, we never seem to get what we seek.
To just do it,
even when the thoughts
form a barricade.
The mothers
only pray
to get
Lawyers
Doctors
Presidents
and
Engineers
then
the world
stares on,
finding it hard
to give us all our daily havocs,
for the rest
of our lives.
Some are whores
and
gigolos
so you
marry them at
your own
risk
that when you
find them
extramarital
you know that
this was it,
the destiny thing.
How I love the beer company ads of non drinkers. They fully mirror the kind of world we are in, how it fucks us up and then advertises itself as a better place to live in.
Maybe the only lesson life has for us is love for what we were, for what we are, and for what waits, even as we slip into whatever comes after.
brain: hey sweetie. lets stop this, okay? its not working out. maybe this isnt your cup of tea. a smart person knows when to stop.
me: okay.. *considers stopping and quitting the thing*
brain: you fucking coward. you are giving up in between and running away. you idiot, you moron- you just dont wanna see through it. you fucking dumbfuck.
me: .....
I know I'm not alone in the dark, the trees keep me company.
he helps you clear the farm of leaves during fall but what he doesn’t tell you is that he hides those leaves in the back to burn when you set up the bonfire later
you best believe sam is throwing random shit into the bonfire to watch it burn
you best believe sam is throwing random shit into the bonfire to watch it burn
Sam who gets sent by his mom to go and pick up some produce from the farm while she brings Vincent for a check-up but ends up getting distracted by the farmer themselves
now that stardew valley is trending it’s the perfect time to remind you guys that MERMAIDS are canonically in game
22nd April, 2025
The entire world comes together to celebrate our home. Mother Earth. This year, the theme for Earth Day is Our Power, Our Planet. This urges us to realise the importance of sustainable and renewable energy to build a healthy future for the coming generations.
Energy powers the world. From homes to industries to global economies. Historically, natural resources like wood and sunlight powered life on Earth. But after the Industrial Revolution, the dependence on fossil fuels like coal and petroleum has increased significantly. Today, as the field of technology gets more advanced, the energy demands have gone up, pushing us to explore much safer, sustainable options to meet our growing needs.
So what are our sustainable options?
Renewable Energy
Renewable Energy is derived from natural sources that replenish themselves. For instance, sunlight, potential energy from wind or flowing water. They’re sustainable, do not release any greenhouse gases upon being harnessed and decrease our dependence on fossil fuels. However, they come with their own set of challenges. Initial costs for infrastructure can be high, and some renewable sources, like solar and wind, can be intermittent, depending on weather conditions. Despite these challenges, investing in renewable energy is crucial for a cleaner, more sustainable future.
It is essential to switch to renewable energy for a sustainable future. It reduces our dependence on fossil fuels, enhancing geopolitical stability by decreasing energy-related conflicts. Moreover, renewable energy offers social and health benefits. Cleaner air, cleaner water, and cleaner soil lead to healthier communities. Investing in sustainable energy also drives innovations, creates jobs in multiple sectors, and promotes long-term growth of not just the environmental sector, but many other sectors too. And through this, we don’t just protect our planet but also build a stable and healthy society for future generations to come.
So this Earth Day, let’s come together and make our future sustainable.
To Science is to innovate.
To Science is to inspire.
To Science is to develop.
While science seeks the truth, leadership converts that truth into action. The role of a leader in science would be that of a catalyst, accelerating the process of bringing together theoretical ideas and practical reality.
Science cultivates essential skills like analytical thinking, problem solving and creativity - traits that shape individuals and the world around them.
But what is leadership in science?
At its roots, it begins with teachers — the school faculty who ignite curiosity and instil scientific thinking in young minds. They lay the foundation for all future innovation.
At a community level, leadership is manifested in colleges, innovation hubs, policy making bodies that work relentlessly on bridging the gap between talent and opportunity. They work on empowering the students to share, refine and realise their ideas.
At the national and international levels, we see leaders like Dr. A.P.J. Abdul Kalam, Gro Harlem Brundtland, Benjamin Franklin — figures who have left their mark in both science and governance. They not only lead by example but also uplift and inspire the public, proving that science and leadership together have the power to shape history.
So, no. Leadership in science is not merely about holding a powerful position while carrying a science degree. It is about innovating - and using that innovation for the greater good. For the self. For society.