it's okay not to have it all figured out, kin-wise. many of us start out as wolves only to realize we're coyotes or painted dogs or, hell, even tigers. some begin as dragons and end as spotted leopards. you might start out as an angel only to realize you're really a comic book supervillain. you might find out you're a kaleidoscope of things, a butterfly and a demon all caught up in one body.
if you had it all figured out at the start, the rest of your life would be boring.