as a kid people you draw and people tell you "omg youre such a great artist you should do it as a job" "youre literally an artist you can make money off of this" and then you grow up grinding learning STEM even though youre miserable and you barely understand any of it because youre afraid of being stuck in an artblock for years and have it affect your living and then you get into art again and then youre so happy and thriving and decide to pursue it as a career because you can and people will tell you "what the fuck you just wasted your entire life for drawing" "you shouldve just become a scientist" "you shouldve just went for a 9 to 5" like you just threw your entire life away and also youre 19 years old btw and youve been stuck in a social circle that only cares about being seen as smart and if youre not smart then you the outsider and the loser