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4 years ago
Going To Therapy!!!! Every Tuesday I Look Forward For This!

Going to therapy!!!! Every Tuesday I look forward for this!


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1 month ago

dude i fucking hate being stuck with these people i cant do anything and we just keep squaring like give me time out... hosts are literally nonexistent and like i feel like i have no control over what i can do anymore in the meat world because of these strict ass control freak mfs and it pisses me off.


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3 months ago

that feel when you lock in to eat some food you enjoy and some BITCH comes in and makes it taste like dog shit……


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1 week ago

not endo myself but these questions are cool and i want to talk about my system so weeeee here we go

🦴 - thatss a good question honestly... as far back as i remember? i know i discovered DID by watching some youtube videos at like 11 and relating to them, but didnt think much more of it until my diagnosis at 15

🪽 - around the time of my diagnosis, i realized i couldnt ignore it anymore, so instead decided to learn to function together

🪐 - uhhh i believe luci? or maybe lexa... luci is one of our gatekeepers, and lexa is the primary protector. they were the most active in communication when we first discovered the DID

🔭 - roughlyy around the time of first discovery?? we had a list of names in notes app, we later swapped to simplyplural around the time of diagnosis (it had just been released, i think?)

🕸️ - nonee, we dont intentionally create alters, but we do have TBMC trauma if that counts ?? like yes they were created kind of on purpose but not by us lol

🫀 - we do! i honestly dont know if any of it is intentionally built or not but uhh it is pretty large and only some of us can access it

🌙 - wedont create alters, but our new splits like looking at ID packs and stuff! we dont use bah blogs though hinestly im not sure what those are

🦇 - gonna use "created" to mean split here, we recently did split but the new split doesnt have a solid identity yet

🍂 - ithinkk ᏩᏯ was the first host?? at least to my knowledge

🌿 - usually ID packs or just searching around, sometimes we ask friends for suggestions

🐚 - none of us really? unless you count kylo, he types like a myspace teenager lol so "to" = 2 and "for" = 4 sometimes, and many "xD" "lolz" and similar. he only types like that sometimes though

🪶 - yes! some of us have accents we picked up from media or people we grew up around

🪦 - a former therapist, i think? we would occasionally join system discord servers before that point, though

🕸️ - i usuallyyy dont, i generally only tell people i consider very close! for general strangers or not close friends, ijust say i have a disorder that impacts my memory, since thats the most noticeable symptom i have... for close people though i generally just tell them that i have a DID diagnosis, most people have been very understanding

🕷️ - not reallyy?? unless you count alters cutting off people lol, but generally anyone we have told has been understanding :)

🔪 - yes! my 3 closest friends all know (one is also a system), as well as my boyfriend (he is plural as well, i remember when i first told him his reaction was "oh my god... me too" it was really funny since i had been genuinely nervous to tell him LOL)

plurality ask game !

targeted to endos , but anyone can use ! post made by an endo :)

— start .

🦴 : when did you first start feeling plural ?

🪽 : when did you finally accept your plurality ?

🪐 : who was the first alter your system found that wasn't the host ?

🔭 : when did you start keeping track of your alters ?

— creation .

🕸️ : how many of your headmates are created ?

🫀 : do you have a headspace ? if so , how much was built ?

🌙 : do you use bah blogs to help create alters ?

🦇 : who's your most recently created alter ?

— general .

🍂 : who was your first host ?

🌿 : how do you find the names of your alters ?

🐚 : how many of you have typing quirks ?

🪶 : do any of you have an accent ?

— friends .

🪦 : who was the first person to know about your plurality ?

🕸 : how do you tell new people about your plurality ?

🕷 : have you lost friends over your plurality ?

🔪 : are you out to people irl with your plurality ?


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2 weeks ago

in addition to the last post (different anon here) claiming they're "invading THEIR spaces" is so funny to me.... no bb you saw a similarity within stereotypical tiktok DID and the concept of tulpamancy and the only thing related in these two posts is that they share the plural tag...

YEAH LOL "non-traumagenics are claiming to have DID!!! DID is caused by trauma!!!" no actually they just... claim to be multiple! they dont claim DID in like 99% of cases, the only times ive seen it is for mixed origin sys


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2 weeks ago

anti-endos worshipping the DSM and citing it as proof that plurality has to be caused by trauma / disordered: Rahhhh you're a liar because this book only used in america has it!!!!!

the helpful ICD, which apparently recognised non-disordered plurality in one of the iterations (not sure which one) and used across the entire world:

SORRY i am just now seeing this but YEAH i actually think i know what ur talking about. im pretty sure there is an ICD document / article about dissociation that mentions non-traumagenic plurality somewheree in it? but dont quote me on this because i saw it like... last year LOL

also the DSM never even says that plurality has to be disordered either? it just says that DID/OSDD-1 are not caused by spiritual or cultural practices, which honestly if anything validates non-disordered plurality? because like that means it acknowledges that identity alterations CAN be caused by things other than DID/OSDD-1


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2 weeks ago

"i love attention so much i might as well be an NPD symptom holder!! ..........wait a minute"

me when co-con alter has the NPD awakening


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3 weeks ago

spirituality as a system is so funny because now i have to worry about introjecting a random deity. like what do you mean i can just be minding my business and now loki is in mybrain like PLEASEEE


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1 month ago

very cheesed to see someone else acknowledging the pervasive hypocrisy in anti-endo spaces. another big one is how they claim their stance is to "protect the community from fakers" or some other insistence that endos/related are bad actors, and proceed to.. you know. exclude other disordered systems from osddid spaces on the basis of supporting endos. a la the very blatant implication of "you're fake if you believe in them because a Real System wouldnt believe in them". like dude. seriously? where am i

yeah, also like... claiming endos are "fakers" is always so weird to me because... in order to fake DID or OSDD-1, wouldnt you kind of need to claim that you HAVE the disorder??? endos dont claim DID or OSDD-1 to begin with LMFAOO so how would they be faking it


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1 month ago

omg lol i wws just explaining the same thing to my partner, that it’s hypocritical how they understand didosdd is more than just alter disorder and then turn around and claim alter = didosdd? every time i argue with antiendos it devolves into the most basic argument

“endos are faking having didosdd! theyre invading our spaces!”

“okay but the majority of endos dont claim to have didosdd, that’s like the entire point of the label”

“but by claiming to have alters you’re just roleplaying didosdd!”

“but you agree that didosdd is more than just alter disorder, right? if you can have hallucinations or depression by itself, as a symptom of a disorder or even as a struggle alone, who’s to say you cannot have alters by themself? that’s even barring the hundreds of other ways people claim to have headmates, which are not things that you have authority on if it is real or not since you don’t live in their brain”

“…YOU’RE FAKING!”

“i am diagnosed with did, i just do more critical thinking than you do”

“YOU’RE STILL FAKING FOR BEING PROENDO LFMEBFKWJFNWKJSJAK”

like it’s tiring seeing all of these people listen to whatever lie gets told to them and then base their entire personalities off hating some group or other just because the internet told them to. and anything less than hatred is somehow unacceptable as well

YEAH exactly!! like... its kind of just gatekeeping the term "system" at this point, because the DSM-5 actually acknowledges cultural practices that cause identity alteration in the diagnostic criteria of DID. there is a specific note saying it isnt a cultural practice lol


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1 month ago

gonna get a bit syscourse-y here, but... recently noticed kind of a weird hypocrisy in anti-endo arguments and wanted to point it out to see if others agree

for extra context, i have DID and im pro-endo id say?? my mindset is basically just "i dont get it personally, but live ur life dude(s), its not my business and im not gonna tell u what u are / arent" because like. i find it super hard to believe that DID and OSDD-1 are the ONLY possible causes for systems LOL... also i will be using the terms endo / endogenic as umbrella terms for all plurality outside of DID / OSDD-1 throughout this post

ANYWAYS THOUGHH... most harshly anti-endo spaces (or at least those that are pro-recovery) really emphasise that DID and OSDD-1 are more than just "alter disorders", which i absolutely agree with! DID and OSDD-1 are both complex dissociative disorders that include identity alteration (alters) as a SYMPTOM, but the disorders both fundamentally involve dissociation and impairment in daily life to some extent

BUT... then they are also so quick to say that endos MUST have DID / OSDD-1 if they have alters... but what about all the other symptoms? most endos i have met do not experience dissociation or other DID / OSDD-1 symptoms. claiming someone MUST have DID / OSDD-1 because they have alters would kind of be reducing the disorders down to just "alter disorders", right?

plus, it seems to be entirely ignoring the fact that you can have a symptom of a disorder without having the disorder / being disordered... lets use ADHD as an example here since its the first thing to come to mind LOL, someone can have a short attention span or be distracted easily without inherently having ADHD. it would depend on the presence of other symptoms as well as degree of life impairment. this logic also applies to any other disorder ever... so why dont we apply the same logic to DID / OSDD-1?

most endos i see dont claim DID / OSDD-1, and the ones that do are generally mixed origins. if we apply the logic that symptom ≠ disorder and that DID / OSDD-1 are more than just "alter disorders", why would someone not be able to have alters without a dissociative disorder?

IDK i hope this makes sense. feel free to reblog with any comments or anything i want to see others opinionz


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2 months ago
✶ ﹒ Intro.

✶ ﹒ intro.

eight. 19 years old.

any pronouns. genderless.

mixed indigenous. disabled.

DID system. OEA survivor.

ASPD. NPD. schizospec.

blog will contain triggering content including posts relating to / showing weapons, posts about mental illness, posts about trauma, and more.

i plan to get started making NPT and BAH posts! might also coin xenogenders eventually, you can send requests in if you want, i may decline if i feel uncomfortable for whatever reason.

below is my tagging system and NPT + BAH request rules!

✶ ﹒ requests.

i will do any themes requested unless i find them too difficult for whatever reason, or feel uncomfortable with the theme.

my npts will include names, pronouns, and genders. i can add titles if requested but i am not too good at them! i can also include system names if requested.

all bah posts will come with some basic information, and any additional information can be requested with add-ons!

a basic bah will include names, pronouns, age, role, gender, orientation, and species. it will also include a personality overview, as well as any noteworthy traits or features, and a general aesthetic or style description.

add-ons include faceclaim, typing quirk, sign offs, image aesthetic / moodboard, music taste, source, kins, and anything else requested! please specify if you would like any of these included in your ask.

bah template will look something like this...

names:

pronouns:

age:

role:

genders:

orientation:

species:

personality overview:

notable traits:

general aesthetic:

add ons:

✶ ﹒ tagging.

system tag — ✶ ﹒ sys.

trauma tag — ✶ ﹒ trauma.

aesthetic tag — ✶ ﹒ aesthetic.

vent / rant tag — ✶ ﹒ vent.

music tag — ✶ ﹒ music.

media tag — ✶ ﹒ media.

disability tag — ✶ ﹒ disability.

mental illness tag — ✶ ﹒ mental.

coining tag — ✶ ﹒ coining.

bah tag — ✶ ﹒ bah.

npt tag — ✶ ﹒ npt.

witchy tag — ✶ ﹒ witchy.

misc tag — ✶ ﹒ misc.

reblog tag — ✶ ﹒ reblog.

asks tag — ✶ ﹒ asks.


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