A Harmony of Heartbreak
SuA x GN! Reader | Angst | Warnings: None
As SuA slept on Siyeon's shoulder, Y/N couldn't help but admire their long-time friend. Y/N had known her for all their life and, in the process, fell for her. She was a force to be reckoned with. You couldn't stop her soul; you couldn't stop her determination; you just couldn't stop her.
To say Y/N liked her would be an understatement. Y/N loved her. Y/N loved SuA with all their heart.
Y/N remembered when they had met the girl.
It was a normal day at school; they were with their friends, enjoying their time together, when suddenly…
"Hi! I'm SuA!" Were the first words ever spoken to them. Y/N and SuA got along well; not once did they ever fall out. Sure, there were arguments here and there, but Y/N and SuA would always find their way back to each other.
"Yah, what are you looking at?" said Siyeon, having caught Y/N staring at SuA.
"She really does look like a crow-tit, huh?" Y/N covered. No one knew how in love Y/N was with SuA.
"You just realized that now?" said Siyeon as she looked at SuA with a smile.
"Yeah." Wrong, Y/N had always noticed. Despite her endearingly chaotic nature, whenever she was more toned down, Y/N always had the chance to admire her, as these instances were mostly when she was focused on completing a task. This is where Y/N noticed how she looked like one. Down to the height, the eyes, and when she puckered up her lips, she was an adorable crow-tit.
"I'll let you move; here, let me." Y/N sat on SuA's other side and placed her head on their shoulder.
Siyeon gave Y/N a look they couldn't read, then looked at SuA before getting up to go talk with JiU. Y/N smiled, feeling warmth in their chest as SuA snuggled up to them. Y/N placed their arm around SuA, and it was then that they decided. SuA had to know how much she had affected them.
How much Y/N had paid attention to her, how much Y/N cared for her, loved her, and wanted to give her everything. Y/N wanted SuA to have the finest things in life, and while Y/N may not be able to afford everything that SuA desired, Y/N made a promise to themselves long ago, when they realized their love for SuA was to be the cause of SuA's smile, never her tears.
If Y/N had caused SuA an ounce of heartbreak, it too would have broken them. It was as if they shared one soul; whatever the other felt, the other would feel it too. But does SuA even feel the same way? Y/N didn't know, but they hoped she did.
As of now, it was night.
It was no surprise that SuA had attracted a fair amount of admirers, who would all leave notes for SuA to meet them at a certain place at a certain time. Of course, SuA had always asked Y/N to stand guard in case anything happened, and Y/N always did so. Thankfully, none of her admirers got aggressive, but some made her so uncomfortable that she had to use their sign to signal Y/N over. She would simply put her hand behind her back and make a peace sign at Y/N, and Y/N would come over, pulling her away from the situation.
Now, Y/N did not want to make the girl they loved uncomfortable, so they made sure the note had a little hint that it was from someone she knew. Of course, SuA had found the note and still asked Y/N to come and guard. Y/N said yes.
Usually, they'd meet before the confession, and Y/N would find a secure spot before letting SuA go over. That didn't happen this time, as Y/N simply took a picture of their "hiding place" and sent it to SuA. SuA, still being skeptical, asked for a selfie, and Y/N did so. Now convinced, SuA was on her way.
Y/N was nervous. Who wouldn't be nervous when they're about to confess to their first love? Whose first love was this intense and managed to have a connection with them for years? What comes to mind when mentioning a first love was either someone who genuinely was an angel or someone who you couldn't help but fall for because of the way they were. They were sweet, kind, caring, and attentive, and no one could truly compare to them. However, you both were young, and it also ended in two ways: you had a messy breakup, or you lost them as you never had the chance to truly confess.
On the other hand, you had a love for someone that confused you; you would constantly ask for clarification on what you two were, but they'd always respond playfully, so you would never know if what they were saying was true or not. Soon, you find yourself hurt over their actions towards you or others you care about; however, you still love them despite the hurt. They didn't care. They would never notice you or your love, as they were too preoccupied with themselves to even care about returning the love you had for them.
However, this was different. You two had managed to last all those years without ever falling apart or hurting each other so badly to the point where your friendship would never be the same. Who is to say you two wouldn't work out in a relationship?
And so, SuA arrived. She looked beautiful as ever. Although it was dark, SuA was glowing under the moonlight. Oh, how beautiful she was on this moon night.
Now was Y/N's chance. It was time for the moon night.
"Siyeon? What are you doing here?" SuA asked. Y/N stopped in their tracks.
"I came to see you," Siyeon responded.
"Oh? Were you the one who left that-" Siyeon cut SuA off.
"I'm in love with you, SuA. I don't expect for these feelings to be returned, but I love you so much that I start seeing you in my dreams. I dream of us, together, in front of all our somnias, not being afraid to show our love for one another, while everyone cheers whenever we show an ounce of affection to one another. You're crazy, to say the least, but I love your crazy. I love the way your laugh sounds, that's why I imitate it a lot. I love that you're touchy, and though I may yell "NO" sometimes, the truth is that I wish to stay in your arms forever. I love your random kisses, even if most of them are fake kisses where the angle covers us up, making it seem like we kissed, but we didn't, I had wished feel your lips on mine. I just love you, SuA. I couldn't keep these feeling hidden any longer. They were threatening to burst earlier today, but now, I found the right time to tell you all this..." Siyeon looked down to her shoes immediately after she spoke.
Suddenly, she heard a little giggle. She looked up and saw SuA too, looking down at the ground with a wide smile on her face. Suddenly, Siyeon was knocked backwards by SuA rushing towards her and burying her head in Siyeon's chest. Siyeon had to steady herself by taking one step backward as she held SuA in her arms as a smile began to grow.
"Yah! What is this?" SuA whined as she buried her head further into Siyeon's chest. "I love you too!"
Siyeon could not have been happier as she tightened her arms around SuA.
After a moment, SuA asked "Does that mean you'll let me touch your butt without you yelling "no"?"
"SUA!"
However, as the two new lovers basked in happiness at the fact they both shared that deep love they harbored for each other for a long time, there was one whose heart was broken.
Y/N watched from afar as the two laughed, kissed, hugged, and, in the end, left hand in hand.
It was too late.
It was amazing how two similar situations have different endings.
Both loves lasted years; however, one was successful, and their love was fulfilled, for the other shared their feelings. Now, they aren't afraid to kiss and hug this person, to tell this person shamelessly that they love them, and to experience the joy of the person telling them they love them back.
One was heartbroken. All those years spent with them—staying there with them, caring for them, loving them—all come crashing down when the person they love doesn't notice their love. On the bright side, you know they don't love you back, and on the dark side, that is a fact you have to live with for the rest of your life. Your love may have been longer; you may have loved that person first, yes, but it wasn't enough as the person you love ended up with someone else.
Perhaps you both were soulmates in another life, just not soulmates here. Heck, who says soulmates exist? Why do I suddenly not believe in love anymore? Why do I feel resentment towards the other person, even though they have been nothing but kind to me? Why do I feel water trickling down my face? Why is everything suddenly blurry?
It was a quiet night, but it would soon be disturbed by the sounds of a melancholic tone playing in Y/N's house. The song used to sound happier, as it was a song meant for SuA and only meant for ears. However, she won't be able to hear that once-happy tune anymore.
Y/N continued playing the piano, acknowledging that what was once a Harmonious Serenade, is now A Harmony of Heartbreak.