you know what else is so heartbreaking about orv tonight? 1863, its so painful that the arc that kim dokja almost leaves "his" han sooyoung and yoo joonghyuk for is the arc that they are at their worst. Han sooyoung is sacrificing the entire line for a chance at a better version and yoo joonghyuk has no one and is so deep in his depression that he actually is making steps to permanently kill himself.
Imagine being either of them from 1864 and learning that he almost left you for the parts of yourself that you've been trying to get rid of, Imagine learning that it is all of you that he is dedicated to and maybe the ways that you've split yourself makes you less than what he wants.
Imagine looking at less of him and realizing the same is true for you.