Sorry I haven’t posted much art in a while… I’ve kinda gotten wrapped around it and I’m trying to improve by a certain margin before posting again…
For some reason i have a habit of setting arbitrary limits on myself before i do something… such as reaching a certain skill level in drawing before sharing it or 100% a game before i move on to play something else… But more than that… with art in particular, i feel a deep yearning to improve… to reach some kind of gold standard… I know it’s not healthy but… sometimes i feel like i can only value myself by my skills and accomplishments rather than anything inherent to myself… it feels like i have to EARN any respect from myself or others because it’s not free… and right now I haven’t earned it yet cause nothing I’ve made is good enough yet…