Sad Thoughts - Blog Posts
Spending Friday evening with my family because I don’t have friends :c
“Do what you can, but nothing will take your pain away when you realize you're not truly loved by anyone.”
Fr 😕
being a beatles fan in 2024 is a fucking curse what do you mean i’ll never get to see them live what the fuck
fuck you for abandoning me when i needed you the most. fuck you for throwing me away like an old toy you got tired of. fuck you for throwing away years of my loyalty and love. fuck you for destroying me mentally and making me suicidal and not wanting to live anymore. fuck you for trying to immediately replace me with someone else to feed your ego. fuck you for being heartless. fuck you for never even checking if i was still alive. fuck you.
Legend would probably listen to Mitski and that thought makes me sad. He would totally listen to I Bet On Loosing Dogs *cries*
what do you mean i can’t meet Alexander the great.
Hey to whoever sees this um what do I do to get over a disgusted feeling about myself??? I did something I did not want to do but said I wanted to anyway and I can't stop thinking about it and I feel terrible. Some advice would help a lot ❤️
Oppressed minds concentrate,
Trying to see through the hate,
At all fronts we stand still,
We’re taught that words cannot kill.
They stab our back and strike our face,
But the bruises left had no physical trace.
Feelings forced down deep within,
This time we might just give in-
-kalika
A. Scarlet Heart
my heart’s now made of darkness,
I’ll play your game.
on my chest; draw a scarlet A;
I’ll take all the blame.
if you’re gonna brand me a villain,
I’ll light up this flame.
I’ll spark a match just to watch the
world burn in your name.
speak of the mighty devil, and she shall appear.
she’ll take everything from ya since you volunteered.
they say money’s the root of all evil,
but they’ve never met me.
I play with the devil’s advocate;
don’t dare bet against me.
get ready and heed my warning;
you ought to expect me.
a necessary evil, I had to become;
you will never forget me.
I will take you down with me to face hellish frontiers.
we’ll go to hell in a hand-basket to find what you fear.
I’ll summon my rebellious hellions,
and zip up my Reaper jacket.
I’ll melt and mix up magic to place
poison in your brass cup.
with threads of molten hot malevolence,
I’ll weave a flower basket.
rafflesias, wolfsbane, and monkey orchids,
I’ll lay them in your casket.
speak of the mighty devil, and I shall appear.
I’ll take everything from ya; for you volunteered.
you’ll go to hell in a hand-basket; I’ll learn what you fear.
you’re coming down with me to face hellish frontiers.
-kalika
Sea Me
-kalika
Labyrinth
songs with no closure;
regret beats a solemn drum.
alice enchained paths to nowhere:
a house of reflections I can’t outrun.
confined by hatred’s vanity,
reliving terror, an R.I.P. rewind.
straight off the edge of insanity,
diving deeper, cornered in my mind.
cobwebs quiver, bounce in worry,
calling forth torture’s reprimand.
I strangle slowly, absent mercy
imprisoned in a twisted wasteland.
eternal silence oozes nightmares,
and ghost drown my daydreams.
darkness devours hope’s light flares;
my mind wanders playing schemes.
shrouded by the devil’s dealings
and wrapped in ruined rhymes.
swallowed by mixed feelings,
I’m trapped between two minds.
a graveyard of tortured ruins,
plagued by memories forsaking,
I’m lost in my head’s labyrinth,
a marred maze of my own making.
tortured by a noxious decision,
a soul made by its own mirage.
I’m cornered by a conscious collision
by hollow haunting of self-sabotage.
“this is not a place of honor;”
poisoned ivy creeps into my thoughts;
I’m my most formidable monster;
to flames of chaos, I’m the moth.
-kalika
Dirty Bath Water
Laying in the bathtub trying to forget what I can't change. The sins of yesterday still taint what's supposed to be cleansing me.
Soaking, I wonder if tomorrow will be better, if tomorrow will be different.
Maybe tomorrow I'll be cleaner.
The bubbles are made of your choices, & your desires are the soap that slides along my scarred & tired body.
Tonight. I lay in the swirling bath of the life you've poured for us.
I try to wash away your sins, scrubbing harder so that somehow I may leave room for the potential I know you have.
Maybe tomorrow I'll be cleaner.
I dream of days where the bubbles may pop & fill the air with wonder, & the soap may be sensual instead of some kind of cleansing ritual.
Scrubbing scrubbing, scrub a little harder, scrub a little longer:
Maybe if you can't change, I'll become someone new.
Tonight, I wash you off of me, watching as our lives swirl down the drain. The stain of your lies rings the rim of my tub like maybe they're stuck here instead of to me this time. If I make this water deeper, will I still feel so blue?
Maybe tomorrow I'll be cleaner; maybe I'll be someone new.
-kalika
Never have I seen myself in such a powerful piece like this
Some may say I died of a broken heart that day….
I waited for a true love that never came
I waited as days turned into weeks as weeks turned into almost 2 months with nothing but the sound of my heart breaking
Everyday I woke up and I wish for your texts or your calls something…. But I think deep down I know you are never coming home gone are the days of watching movies together gone are the days of planning our future together gone are the days of pure love together…
Not yet gone are the days for winter for the princess… Spring may not ever arrive for the princess
I will never forget
the story of the faunus princess
nobody really talks about separation anxiety in adults. it's always the dogs or kids.
It's really debilitating.
When my friend’s mom is mutuals with me so I can’t repost the muppet joker anymore
My dad wanted me aborted. Sometimes I'm sad he failed at that.
Run all you want your past and shadows never leave
Your friends never last
The villains believes the hero demands
In the end the hero has blood on they hands
Fear will overcome the will
death will overcome power
The weak will overcome the strong
Darkness will overcome light
Hate will overcome love
Might will overcome right
The diamond is purer than the heart
The world feels the pain and suffering
Because humans make up rules
Sorry about the clothes on my back being in the way when you stabbed me
