June 27th, 2023 The moon is in its Waxing Gibbous phase, illumination 62%. I meditated for a few minutes before making myself comfortable and laying down. I had a Pandora Background Noise audio on in the background. I did my best to clear my mind. I started my attempt at 18:33. I eventually settled for getting comfortable in the Starfish position. Many times I felt my body tingling, and a pinkish / magenta light became the forefront and center of my mind's eye, however just as I could feel myself ascend, I snapped out of the trance. That feeling of ascension is significantly more intense than I thought it would be initially. I did not get used to it with each time I reached it- and in fact, it was almost the same as plunging into icy cold waters. I felt a wave of Shock, and had to restart each time. Remedy: Brace for that feeling and prepare to push forward in the future.
As I fell asleep, my body relaxed, and once more I tried to pass through the Eye of Eywa. I was not welcomed, though- I was rejected in my resting phase just as I was in my waking phase. She knows I am not ready. I rewoke at 22:27, from an average human dream. Though it was more like nightmares, I knew these had nothing to do with my shifting attempt. I am awake, and rested, but my attempt leaves me tired.
I will assume my normal routine. Until next time, friends- I See You. May you shift tonight. -Rey