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Do I Not Disgust You?
It is okay if my existence is so vile?
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The portrayal of gender dysphoria is typically limited to a surface level, physical sense, so I wanted to explore a possible social/emotional aspect to it through Mizuki
Mizuki sees their inherent (transgender) existence as a curse through what can be implied through Bake No Hana through lyrics such as “My punishment for having been born” or “it’s cute but it tastes like sin.”
The song itself just reeks of disgust and self-hatred; in combination with Mizuki’s comment about what others would think of Ena and Mizuki just existing together, I couldn’t help but ponder the thoughts possibly fueled by dysphoria/society’s views on their identity that Mizuki would have racing through their mind.
It is a common experience for trans people feel as if they are disgusting, vile, even “sinful” just for existing and while piecing together lyrics and dialogue with Mizuki, I don’t believe she is excluded from this feeling.