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Dairy Blog: Family
I don't think people realises how precious one's family is to them. For me family is home, home is where I can come back and be myself around my family, it's where I cry the most also where I feel the happiest! But most of the time I took them for granted believing they will be there for me forever & ever to forgive my past, my mistakes and my ignorance. So when I see people disrespecting my persons, i get so angry, so angry! I believe any relationship begins or more clearly to say the foundation of every relationship is faith and respect & love. But why we always disrespect our family, home so much? I put things down in disappointment when the people to whom I look up to, disrespect the humanity in me.Then the only thing i believe that all i can do is to break & burn things down. So, always treat your family, your home the way you would like to be treated with love & respect. I got nowhere to hide, to lick my wounds, please put my name on top of your list, handle my heart with care. Don't let it go! This is the last time.
Little Tit-Bits of thoughts -Diary blog post
Do you wonder about how mundane things are everyday but when you look back there’s so many things that reminds of you each and everyday. Do you say to your mind or under your breath” this day sucks” but when you think, you realize they are different. I do this a lot, looking back I mean however that doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy my present. But I look back a lot, and most of the time I go through my pages of old diary. It’s the end of 2021 and when I read my old entries, I wondered and always became astonished how different I am compared to my previous self and sometimes I wish I could go back at that time and say to myself you are doing great love, stop the self loathing thoughts. I am completing my Master this year. When I went to my campus for the very last time, I stood for a long time in front of my class building and my mind went through so many flashbacks. One of the most prominent thought was I will never be able to go through those simple times. I am an adult now and can never go back to those carefree days. I wish to enjoy and live my present more lively so that I look back to my life and can say it was a great life. New year and new situations. Hope my 2022 be brighter and full of everything.
Diary Blog post 1:
The Garden of the evening mists:
Life is always chaotic and we always try to find balance in it but why we can't swim through it. Life is a great teacher and it is trying to teach us something new, something hard, something that will expand our boundary once again. This movie makes us ponder over our life, time, and the regrets we face. I always thought WAR means heroism, patriotism but it also the history of thousands of people's pain, sacrifice and how much lucky I am. This is such an underrated movie and I accidentally stumbled over it. Such a great opportunity for people to watch this movie and absorb a mesmerizing story. It has love, pain, and also closure. I just wanna end my post saying that time may not heal it but time makes you wiser.
march 8, 2025
i will close your door but i refuse to lock it.
march 7, 2025
i am terrified of failure. yet right now it is all i can produce.
march 6, 2025
i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy. i am not crazy.
march 5, 2025
someone asked me today if i had ever been in love. i shook my head no because what we had can’t fit under one four letter word.
march 4, 2025
with my luck, i’m sure you’ve gotten everything you wanted. i’m sure the seas part at your will and the birds chirp when you order it. with my luck you’re happy.
march 3, 2025
i am argumentative. i am opinionated. that does not make me loud.
march 2, 2025
all my ghosts laugh at how i live my life now. and it doesn’t bother me even the slightest bit.
march 1, 2025
i feel like myself again. i don’t know if i should be proud or terrified.
february 28, 2025
cold air hits my lungs and i finally feel alive again.
february 26, 2025
i have bookshelves of dreams. all dying to be the one i choose to live out.
february 25, 2025
am i giving my life away to a dream that may never happen?
february 24, 2025
i stopped pretending you were mine today. or that you ever were.
february 23, 2025
my biggest dreams couldn’t match the life we’re going to build together.
february 22, 2025
i feel safe and soft in your arms.
february 21, 2025
you at mine. and if the sun sets for the last time today, i will be happy knowing you are mine.
february 20, 2025
i long to be simple minded.
february 7, 2025
what would’ve happend, if i didn’t walk into that bar? if i didn’t see your face? if you didn’t steal glances from across the room all night? if you didn’t walk up to me with your crooked smirk? if you didnt leave to get a rose from the convenience store 3 blocks down? if you didn’t ruin my life?
february 6, 2025
if the hunger games were real, i would’ve eaten those berries without you. i would’ve let you win.
february 5, 2025
happiness is running away from me. and i am letting it happen.
february 4, 2025
i was born with half a soul. the other half is nestled in your chest.
february 3, 2025
if you died, they may as well pronounce me dead too.
january 2, 2025
my worst nightmare is being stuck in this terribly boring town doing something mediocre.