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Master list: Updated as of 5/12/20

Hello, everyone. I decided to organize my stories by creating a masterlist with links for easier and more convenient access. I’ll update this list whenever I post new stories. :)

BloodBound:

Kamilah Sayeed x MC

The Brightest Light

Fears, Doubts, and Apprehensions

Mistakes (Part 1)

Mistakes (Part 2)

A Moment Alone

The Promise

Reunited

Glad that I Have You (NSFW)

Making Every Moment Count 

Confessions [Latest addition to the list]

So, in the finale of BloodBound, Kamilah finally got her garden and the peace that she always wanted.

And she also gets an eternity of happiness and married bliss with the MC, her greatest love.

My Kamilah x MC shipping heart is happy!

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Following the BloodBound saga was a journey. Admittedly, I expected something else (and more) from the finale, but nonetheless, I still enjoyed the series!

And now we have to bid goodbye to the vampire gang and the Vampire Queen known as Kamilah Sayeed. Thanks for all the adventures, BB crew!

In this scene, Kamilah confronts Gaius for all of his evil acts and makes it clear that she does not in any way forgive him.

And in this scene, Kamilah makes it clear that she no longer has any feelings for Gaius and that she loves the MC and is completely devoted to her.

In conclusion: Kamilah Sayeed and the MC belong with each other. Kamilah stans rejoice!

Confessions

Hello, everyone! I mentioned in a previous post of mine that I planned to post a new Kamilah x MC story before the new BloodBound chapter is released. So, here it is! I hope that you all like it! :)

The setting of this story takes place after the meeting with the Five of Japan.

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Amy’s POV

You sit on the bed of your chosen room at Takeshi’s penthouse suite. You absentmindedly clutch the soft comforter as your mind begins to wander.

You think of the Rheya and the impending doom that will surely come should you fail to stop her. You involuntarily swallow as you imagine the drastic consequences of such failure.

You then think of Gaius and automatically shudder as your mind relives the memory of your death at his hands. But you also can’t help but wonder at the vulnerability hidden behind his monstrous surface.

You then think of Kamilah… of how you and she went through so much together. And of how deep your feeling for her ran…

You also think of Aiko Nakamura and how Kamilah openly admitted to having a fling with her so carelessly. You then think of Gaius again and then of Serafine….

As an agitated feeling makes your chest ache, you force yourself to stop your train of thought. It’s not until you hear the tearing of fabric that you realize that your fingers actually ripped through the fabric of the comforter.

You sigh wearily and let go of the punctured cloth.

The sound of a knock then reaches your ears.

“Amy?” You hear Kamilah.

Upon hearing her voice, you automatically straighten your back and stare directly at the night sky beyond the floor-to-ceiling window.

You clear your throat before responding. “Yeah?”

The door opens and closes before you sense Kamilah approaching you. She stands at the foot of the bed - as if waiting for you turn your head to greet her.

You don’t.

After a silent second, the older vampire moves to sit beside you. Yet, you keep your eyes trained on the starry sky.

“Amy?” She calls out to you softly.

“What?”

From the corner of your eye, you notice Kamilah’s eyes widen almost imperceptibly at the curtness of your voice.

“I… just wanted to see how you’re feeling.”

“I’m fine. Thanks for asking.” You say a little too quickly. You internally wince and curse yourself for being too obvious.

As expected, Kamilah is clearly unconvinced. “Amy…” she lifts one hand to touch your cheek.

But before she can, you immediately stand to move to the window. Although your back is turned to her, you can sense her shock at your abruptness.

“I said that I’m fine.” You say again, hoping that she’ll take the hint.

It’s clear that she has no plans of doing so when she moves towards you. “You’re clearly not okay.” She steps to the window so that you’re standing side-by-side. You still refuse to look at her even though her head is turned to yours.

Kamilah lets a few silent moments pass until she speaks again. “Will you tell me what’s wrong?” She prompts, her tone concerned.

You mentally debate whether or not this is the right time to bring it up. You eventually decide that now is as good as any considering the circumstances.

You sigh as you continue to stare at the dark horizon. "You said that vampires have flings every century or so because they get bored..." You begin, still looking forward.

You pause. And you can sense that Kamilah is waiting for you to finish. A minute lapses before you speak again. "So, what does that make me? Another... fling?" Your voice cracks at the last moment. 

As you silently pull yourself together, you sense her stiffen momentarily. A few seconds later, you feel her fully turn toward you. You crane your head and see her looking at you with completely widened eyes.

"No..." she starts to say, her voice colored with subdued shock. "... of course not. You are much more to me than that, Amy." She starts to reach for your hand... but you move it away from her grasp.

Both Kamilah's outstretched arm and expression fall at your rejection.

You bite your lip to calm yourself. "Oh, really?" You manage to straighten your tone again. You exhale before continuing. "Do you remember before I left for Paris? We went to your office together. And on the way, you told me that I'm the first person you've been within a century. And that I should know that that means something..."

You then cross your arms in front of your chest. "When you said that, I felt... special." You clench your own biceps even more tightly. "I felt like I meant something to you. But literally, just about an hour ago, you said that vampires have flings every century because of boredom. And then we both just met another ex of yours - a pretty, rich and powerful ex who may or may not still have the hots for you. And well ..." You finally look at her as you wave one hand around aimlessly as if to wrap up your statement.

A pained look settles on Kamilah's face. She bows her head as she takes a breath. She keeps her head down for a moment before raising it to look at you.

You train your eyes away from her again.

"Amy..." she steps towards you. As she raises her hands and hovers them tentatively over your shoulders, you take a step back. "Don't. Just don't right now." You mumble.

Kamilah's arms fall down back to her sides.

"I --"she struggles with her words for a brief second before clearing her throat. "I'm sorry." She finally manages. "I'm sorry for what I said. It was thoughtless and careless of me. I should've been more considerate of you."

You smirk sardonically. "Hmph. Maybe you should have. But then again, when we first met, you admitted to having had a lot of lovers. So that doesn't make what you said about vampire flings any less true, does it?”

From your periphery, you see the older vampire flinch at your remark. A tense silence fills the air. "... No. It doesn't." She finally admits.

You give a derisive laugh at your ironic victory. "Ha. I thought so."

The agitated feeling in your chest begins to grow, and you breathe in an attempt to quell it. But it eventually grows into a raging storm of emotions – you feel as if it's threatening to shatter you. You try to choke back a sob and roughly press your hand against your mouth.

Tears eventually fall from eyes as you try to take a breath. “After everything we went through together…. All the personal and intimate moments. The fact that you Turned me because you said that you didn't want to lose me…” you try to wipe away the tears as they come.

“… All of those things should be enough to give me a sense of security about our relationship. But… they…they aren't!” You start to cry freely. “For some reason, they aren't! And… now I'm feeling upset and jealous because you and your ex have a vibe going!” You rub at your tear-streaked eyes in frustration.

You then finally look at Kamilah and see shock and hurt on her features. “I… don’t know about this anymore, Kamilah!” You hastily rub your wet cheeks. “You can make me feel as if I’m the only one you see. But at the same time, both your past and your actions give me mixed signals!”

You sniffle and sob at the same time. “I accept your past, Kamilah. But somehow, it always manages to bite me in the ass!”

A tense silence fills the room. For what seems like an agonizing eternity, Kamilah can only stare and gape at you. A myriad of emotions flashes in her eyes as the gravity of your outburst settles. Your frustrated sobbing soon calms down to silent weeping.

The older vampire finally moves – she closes her eyes as if to reflect, before taking a deep breath. When she opens them, her gaze is anxious and uncertain.

“A…amy.” She calls to you, her voice a soft whisper.

Without a word, you move to sit on the bed and bow your head – too tired and numb to even give her a response.

Kamilah approaches you tentatively. When you show no signs of wanting to move away, she sits down next to you.

"I..." She hesitates and pauses. From the corner of your eye, you see her rubbing her thumb against her palm – a telling sign of nervousness. “I… I want to explain." She stops as if waiting for you to retort. When you remain quiet, she continues.

"Let me explain, Amy... Please."

Your raise your head at the last word and finally look at her – unable to believe it. You see the vulnerability you just heard in her usually calm voice clearly reflected in her eyes. The shock stills you for a long moment.

The older vampire seems unsettled by your lack of response. “Please.” She says again, her tone pleading.

Kamilah is actually begging you to listen.

You thought that you would never hear that word from her outside the bedroom.

You continue to look at her in surprise, unsure of what to say or do. You take in the weakness she allowed to break through her walls. A fragile and sad woman stands in place of the fearsome and proud warrior you’ve come to know.

“Fine.” You finally say.

Kamilah sighs, relieved. She clenches her hands together as if to brace herself for what she’s about to say.

Moments pass by before she speaks. “I thought that I loved Gaius.” She begins, her voice just above a whisper. “But I realized that I was merely manipulated by him. He turned me into the worst version of myself.”

She shuts her eyes tightly as she continues. “But that doesn't change the fact that at one point in time, I was a monster. And that I was devoted to him, in a sick and twisted way.

“We had... what you would call an 'open relationship.' We had no qualms about each other seeking out the company of others. And... I was actually thankful for that. I sometimes sought out other people for amusement. But over the course of several centuries, I found myself yearning for something else. Something that he couldn't give me. So, I had lovers.”

When she opens her eyes again, she immediately looks away, as if ashamed. “But I always went back to him. I think it's because I felt tied to him and that I'll always be tied to him no matter what. And he always went back to me.”

“But after nearly two millennia of bloodshed, I started to become disillusioned with the life I had been living. I slowly stopped enjoying needless violence. Eventually, I grew tired and sick of it. I guess I have Adrian and his goodness to thank for that.” The corners of her mouth quirk upwards at the mention of her blood-brother. “Somehow, someway, I resonated with his compassion.”

“When we moved to America, I felt like it was a chance for me to be a better person. But I was still with Gaius during that time, so for the sake of keeping up appearances, I played along. But in reality, I no longer enjoyed partaking in his monstrous activities.

“A part of me wanted to leave Gaius back then. But another part of me told me to stay with him for two reasons: the first was because of the history we had together… and the second was because…” She trails off, and you notice the slight tremble of her hands. “…he would probably execute me for even thinking of leaving him.”

Suddenly, her voice hardens. “But in the 1920s, Gaius went too far.” You see her hands close into fists. “He planned to virtually eliminate all humans save for a few thousand who would be drugged to serve as bloodstock for us. I could no longer just stand by. So, I decided to help the other Council members take him down and imprison him.”

Her fists then unclench as she sighs wearily, the burdens of the past obviously weighing heavily on her mind. “When we succeeded, I... didn't know what to feel. I felt relief, sadness, and anger all at the same time. I was relieved because Gaius was stopped. I was sad because, despite everything, the fact remains that Gaius and I still had a history together. I was angry because I hadn't acted sooner and because I had been blind for so long.”

The Egyptian vampire raises her hands to rub her face tiredly. “I eventually realized that I hated myself. I hated how evil I was. How I caused so much pain and suffering.

“So, I decided to try to atone for my sins. From that day and onwards, I denied myself any true happiness because I deserved none of it. How could I? I was a monster.”

She pauses as if to let the weight of her words of reflection sink in.

“For an entire century, I had been leading an isolated existence – devoid of any true happiness.” She speaks with an air of resignation while looking at the polished floor of the room. “My relationship with Adrian was a small piece of salvation. But at the end of each day, I was alone.”

She then raises her eyes to meet yours. “… until I met you.”

You feel your heart thump almost painfully against your chest as Kamilah looks at you with amazement, tenderness, and yearning.

“Before I met you, I thought that I would live the rest of my existence alone and without any kind of happiness until the end of time. I was trapped in a darkness of my own making… But you came into my life and lit the way to a better and brighter path." Her voice, which was weighed down with anguish, is now uplifted with a quiet joy.

“You are a kind, beautiful, and brave soul who drew me in. You saw me for who I am and accepted all of me. You showed me that there's still hope in this world. I meant what I said before, Amy. You are the most remarkable person that I know. You are my greatest miracle.”

Kamilah slowly reaches for your hands. This time, you don’t pull away.

She grasps them in hers, and you feel the warmth of her gentle touch. "… And the greatest love of my life.”

Your heart soars at her declaration, and you feel as if you're flying. You feel tears form in your eyes again.

“It's true that I've had lovers. But none of them could ever compare to you, my firefly. I love you, Amy. With all that I am and all that I have.” Kamilah’s voice is raw with solemn devotion and passion.

You gasp as she moves from the bed to kneel in front of you – all the while keeping your gaze.

“I told you back at Elias's vineyard that if you would accept me, I'm ready to be yours. So... the question is... will you have me?”

You take in the sight of her – kneeling and bearing her heart out. The tears start to stream down your cheeks freely. You feel as if you’re dreaming.

"Ka... Kamilah..." you begin shakily.

You slowly kneel down to meet her eyes. The earnestness and vulnerability in them are as clear as day.

You take an unsteady breath. "You... you have no idea how badly I wanted to hear that." You sniffle. "How badly I needed to hear that."

Kamilah's lips curve into a sad and remorseful smile. "I... I should have told you sooner."

Amidst your tears, you manage a small laugh. You frame her face with your hands, and she leans into the touch. You stroke the sides of her face with your thumbs. "Of course, I'll have you." You lean closer. "I love you too." Your voice is heavy and thick with emotion. "I love you so much."

A bright and beautiful smile graces Kamilah's features. "I love you, my firefly. And I vow to always stand by you and protect you."

You feel warmth and happiness bloom inside of you – the joy rejuvenates your entire being. You giggle uncontrollably and lean in even closer until your forehead is resting against hers.

"Kiss me, Kamilah." You whisper against her lips.

She gladly obliges, and you meet together in a soft and heated kiss. You wrap your arms around her, and she pulls you closer by your waist. Your tongues brush together sensually, and you moan into her mouth. You eagerly press yourself against her – wanting your every sense to be engulfed with her. Kamilah slides one hand down from your side and down your thigh until it reaches behind your knee. 

You break away momentarily to look at each other - you're both breathless from the intensity of your shared kiss. Kamilah's gaze is smoldering, but at the same time, her eyes are alight with love and devotion. You feel your already flushed face become warmer at her potent gaze.

"I love you, Amy." She declares once again, her voice gentle and solemn. "I am so sorry for not saying so sooner. And for making you think and feel otherwise."

You move one hand from her neck to hold the side of her face. "Hey. Better late than never, right?" You jest to lighten the mood. Your effort is rewarded with a light chuckle from the older vampire.

"But all jokes aside," you say while caressing the side of her chin, "I'm just glad to finally hear that you feel the same way."

Kamilah turns her head to press a kiss to the side of your hand. "I do feel the same way. And I always will. No matter what."

Your smile widens as your chest flutters again. "I'm going to hold you to that."

End.

Hello, everyone. After I played the most recent chapter of BloodBound and saw what Kamilah would have replied if players had chosen the 'vampire flings' dialogue choice, I did some thinking and I eventually became inspired to write a new story. I haven't completed it yet, but I'd like to share a small preview of what I have so far. Here it is:

"I'm sorry." She finally manages. "I'm sorry for what I said. It was thoughtless and careless of me. I should've been more considerate of you."

You smirk sardonically. "Hmph. Maybe you should have. But then again, when we first met, you admitted to having had a lot of lovers. So that doesn't make what you said about vampire flings any less true, does it?

From the corner of your eye, you see the older vampire flinch at your remark.

A tense silence fills the air. "... No. It doesn't." She finally admits.

You give a derisive laugh at your ironic victory. "Ha. I thought so."

I'll probably post the story within the week, but I'll make sure to post it before the new chapter of BloodBound is released. I hope that you'll enjoy the story once it's posted!

Scene no. 1: Accepting the offer to go on a holiday-tradition-themed date.

Scene no. 2: Trying eggnog which was made with love.

Scene no. 3: Decorating cookies.

Scene no. 4: Curling-up together before a (digital) fire.

I love how Kamilah not only indulges the MC in her interests, but also makes an effort to appreciate and enjoy them with her. All of this proves just how much she loves her.

In the tapestry fragment scene of Chapter 5 of Bloodbound Book 3, the group mourns and remembers the MC who had seemingly died after it appeared that the Turning process had failed.

IN THIS SCENE, KAMILAH SAYEED FINALLY ADMITTED AND DECLARED THAT SHE LOVES THE MC!

I'm kinda disappointed that she hasn't said it directly to the MC in person yet, but the fact remains that she loves her!

This is so adorable!

Some BloodBound Book II and III Parallels

On the left: Chapter 10: The Plan, Book 2 - Kamilah tells the MC that she doesn't think that she could bear to lose her mortal lover.

On the right: Chapter 1: The Hunger, Book 3 - Kamilah tells the MC that she refused to accept that she had lost the latter.

On the left: Chapter 16: The End, Book 2 - Kamilah laments that they didn't have enough time.

On the right: Chapter 1: The Hunger, Book 3 - Kamilah expresses that having more time with the MC feels like a miracle.

I was honestly pissed that the writers didn't have her say 'I love you' directly, but it's obvious that Kamilah's love for the MC is reflected in both her words and actions.

I love these two together and I'm excited to see more tender and loving scenes featuring that two of them.

Since it's going to be a few months until we get to see our favorite vampire queen, I'm reblogging my master list of Kamilah x MC stories. Hehe. ✌

Master list: Updated as of 8/12/19

Hello, everyone. I decided to organize my stories by creating a masterlist with links for easier and more convenient access.

BloodBound:

Kamilah Sayeed x MC

The Brightest Light

Fears, Doubts, and Apprehensions

Mistakes (Part 1)

Mistakes (Part 2)

A Moment Alone

The Promise

Reunited

Glad that I Have You (NSFW) 

Making Every Moment Count [Latest addition to the list]

Note: I will update this masterlist whenever I post new stories. :)

So, in the final chapter of BloodBound II, Kamilah explicitly declared that she was manipulated and used by Gaius for centuries. She also said that she was done with him.

More importantly...

She told him that she is the MC's Queen. And that she's hers.

So, in conclusion: Kamilah essentially made things official between her and the MC in front of her evil ex.

I have no choice but to stan.

Even though it's probably their last night together, the MC steadfastly remains to be a constant source of understanding, comfort, and support for Kamilah.

I absolutely adore their relationship dynamics.

Please let this be a foreshadowing of their future together.

Master list: Updated as of 8/12/19

Hello, everyone. I decided to organize my stories by creating a masterlist with links for easier and more convenient access.

BloodBound:

Kamilah Sayeed x MC

The Brightest Light

Fears, Doubts, and Apprehensions

Mistakes (Part 1)

Mistakes (Part 2)

A Moment Alone

The Promise

Reunited

Glad that I Have You (NSFW) 

Making Every Moment Count [Latest addition to the list]

Note: I will update this masterlist whenever I post new stories. :)

Making Every Moment Count

Note: So, I saw some comments on Tumblr that Kamilah acting more affectionately in the most recent chapters seems a bit abrupt considering how she acted in the first few chapters. On this, I've had the idea for this story for some time now. This story is about Kamilah and the MC talking about the former’s noticeable change in demeanor. So, without further ado, here’s the story! I hope that you all like it. Hehe.

Amy's POV

After you fled Prague to escape the Order, you landed in one of Greece's major cities and made your way to yet another one of Kamilah's offices around the world.

It was agreed that you would leave for Mydeia tomorrow night and that you would use your first day to recuperate and prepare for the journey. And Kamilah, being concerned about your safety, insisted on using the time to give you more combat training lessons.

After two hours of intense training with Kamilah, you make your way to one of her office's bedroom suites to take a shower. Once you get into the shower, your mind starts to think about the Egyptian vampire and how she’s been more openly affectionate – a sharp contrast to the usually cold demeanor that you’ve become accustomed to.

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After a 15-minute shower, you're now dressed and are about to lie down when you hear a knock.

You open the door to see Kamilah with a tray of food.

"Is that for me?" You ask, pointing at the variety of food items.

"Well, I wouldn't have brought it to you if it weren't, would I?" She quips with a half-smile. "Anyway, I thought that you might be hungry after our session."

As if on cue, your stomach growls. "Does being a vampire come with a sixth hunger sense?" You jest.

Kamilah simply smiles before holding out the tray to you. "Here."

"Thanks."

"Of course."

As you take the tray, Kamilah turns to leave, but you call out to her.

"Kamilah. Wait."

She turns back to face you. "Yes?"

You hesitate, wondering if this is the right time to bring it up. "Uhmm... can we talk?"

"About?"

You bite your lip before answering. "… us."

The vampire's eyes widen for a moment. Eventually, she nods. "Alright."

You step aside to let her in your room. Kamilah sits on the edge of the bed while you place the tray on the bedside table. You grab a few apple pieces before sitting next to her.

"Is there a problem between us, Amy?" She asks, with quiet worry in her eyes.

You shake your head while munching on the pieces. "No, there's no problem. I just noticed something different... about you."

Kamilah raises an eyebrow. "Oh?"

"It's a good kind of different, though!" You raise your hands up, and she chuckles at the gesture. "Lately, you've been... more affectionate. More expressive. I mean, you're even doing PDA now." You explain.

Kamilah's eyes widen in concern. "Oh. Are you uncomfortable with public displays of affection? If you are ---"

You cut her off by taking her hands in yours. "No! Not at all." To emphasize your point, you lace your fingers together. "I actually like it when you hold my hand in public. I especially like it when you... kiss me in front of other people." You blush at the last statement.

The vampire's eyebrows scrunch up with confusion. "Then what's the matter?"

You peer into her questioning brown eyes before taking a moment to collect your thoughts. You let out a breath before continuing. "It's just that when we first learned that Gaius returned, you focused all of your attention on stopping him at all costs. You had little time for anything else... including me." You look down at your lap as you mention the last statement.

"Amy... I'm so sorry about that." You hear the guilt in her voice.

You raise your eyes to meet hers. "No. It's okay. I get that stopping him is everyone's main priority. Up until now, it's still our main priority. So, I understand why you were so tense and busy back then.”

You pause for a moment. "But even before the whole Gaius-returning thing, you were already so quiet and reserved. Even during our... private moments back then. Well, you were usually more expressive during those times. But not as much as you are now.

"And I understand why you were so reserved and closed-off. You've been through a lot. And I can't even begin to imagine the things that you went through. So, I knew that I had to be patient – that I had to wait for you to be more open with me.”

You squeeze her hands. “And I was okay with it. Because you're worth waiting for."

Kamilah looks moved by your words. "Oh, Amy..." you feel her thumbs gently stroking the backs of your hands.

"Kamilah." You meet her gaze. "I'm glad that you're more affectionate and open now. It's just that I'm… surprised. Before I left for Paris, you asked me to go with you to your office. And you held my hand the entire time. And when we met again at the Prague airport, we kissed in front of so many people. We also kissed in front of all those vampires at Dracula’s castle. And well..." you trail off, not knowing what to say next.

Kamilah hums. "Hmm. I see what you mean."

She untangles one of her hands from yours to tuck your hair behind your ear. "Amy..." she says your name as she trails her knuckles down your cheek.

"You're right. I have been through a lot. I've been alive for more than 2000 years. And I've learned that if I let every loss and every pain consume me, then I wouldn't be able to go on. That's one of the reasons why I closed myself off. Why I didn't want to feel."

She takes your hand into hers again. "But when I met you, I started to feel again. I began to feel things that I haven't felt in such a long time. But at the same time, I knew that I had to tread carefully with my newfound emotions. One of the many things that my years as a vampire have taught me is that one should always err on the side of caution lest they wish to be ruined. So, I... held myself back, so to speak.

"But now that Gaius has returned, no one is safe. And now we also have the Order to worry about." She lets out a weary sigh. "All things considered, I came to realize that we have to accept the possibility that not all of us might survive. That our time might be limited."

She gently tugs at your arms, motioning for you to move closer. You edge closer to her, and she wraps an arm around your waist, pulling you to her side.

"When you had to leave for Paris, I knew that I was going to miss you. And after you left, I felt your absence... Spending time away from you made me realize just how much I want to be with you. And considering that the future is uncertain…” She pauses to cup your chin with two of her fingers. “…I want to make every moment that we have count.”

You take in her earnest and gentle gaze. "Kamilah…"

You meet her half-way as she leans down to close the distance between you. Her lips brush against yours, and you open your mouth to give her tongue access. As you continue to kiss deeply, Kamilah pulls you to her lap, and you move to straddle her. You pull her closer as she begins to trail kisses down your neck.

After a long minute, you eventually pull away. "I want us to make every moment count too." You rest your forehead against hers. "And I want us to have more moments like this, which is why I'm going to work twice as hard to beat Gaius and the Order."

Kamilah can’t help but smile at your declaration. You jab your index finger to her cheek. "And it goes without saying that you're going to have to work harder too, Miss Sayeed." You say in your best authoritative voice.

She laughs at the mock-command. "Yes, Ma'am." She jests before nuzzling your neck.

She places one final kiss on your neck before raising her head to meet your eyes again. "But all jokes aside, thinking of you does make me want to strive harder."

You smile at her. "The future may be uncertain, but that doesn't mean that we're not going to give it our best shot."

The vampire returns your smile. "You're right about that. Now, finish your food before it expires."

You laugh before placing a kiss on her forehead. "Yes, Ma'am."

End.

Reblogging my updated Masterlist. Hehe.

Masterlist: Updated as of 8/3/19

Hello, everyone. I decided to organize my stories by creating a masterlist with links for easier and more convenient access.

BloodBound:

Kamilah Sayeed x MC

The Brightest Light

Fears, Doubts, and Apprehensions

Mistakes (Part 1)

Mistakes (Part 2)

A Moment Alone

The Promise

Reunited

Glad that I Have You (NSFW) [Latest addition to the list]

Note: I will update this masterlist whenever I post new stories. :)

Masterlist: Updated as of 8/3/19

Hello, everyone. I decided to organize my stories by creating a masterlist with links for easier and more convenient access.

BloodBound:

Kamilah Sayeed x MC

The Brightest Light

Fears, Doubts, and Apprehensions

Mistakes (Part 1)

Mistakes (Part 2)

A Moment Alone

The Promise

Reunited

Glad that I Have You (NSFW) [Latest addition to the list]

Note: I will update this masterlist whenever I post new stories. :)

On Kamilah and the MC’s Beach Conversation

I know that some fans and Kamilah stans felt disappointed or perhaps even angry when the vampire queen talked to the MC about Gaius in the diamond scene. And I understand. But personally, I think that this particular scene is important because it portrays a significant turning point in Kamilah and the MC's relationship. It also showcases development and growth on Kamilah's part as a character.

But before I delve into the analysis proper, I would just like to say that I think that it’s important for Kamilah and the MC to properly address the former's past relationship with Gaius. This is because I believe that if she and the MC are ever going to have a serious relationship, they both must be open and honest with each other. In addition, I think that they also need to accept hard-to-swallow facts about one another for them to have a stable, healthy, and trusting relationship.

So, with that being said, I will now proceed to my analysis of the scene:

Gaius's return has obviously shaken Kamilah. She expressed that his return also brought back memories of her violent past – memories of her past deeds, which she eventually came to regret.

Kamilah is haunted not just by her former lover's return, but also by feelings of regret and guilt over her past actions. She described her past self as a monster that thrived on bloodlust. On this, Kamilah stated that after several centuries of being such a monster, she eventually came to realize the error of her ways. As such, she decided to reinvent herself by changing for the better. 

And as a way of doing so, Kamilah chose to deny herself any form of meaningful pleasure or joy as a form of penance and atonement. Having committed so many atrocities in her long life, Kamilah had come to think that she does not deserve true happiness.

The above-mentioned established facts show that in the present storyline, Kamilah is internally struggling with her past and her feelings of guilt and self-resentment. Gaius's return painfully reminded her of what she used to be and how she actually enjoyed committing terrible things. She also seems troubled and horrified at the fact that she genuinely loved Gaius even though she's always known of his dark and monstrous nature. Such an internal struggle is exceedingly burdensome, and to keep it to oneself is damaging - both emotionally and mentally, in the long run.

This is why it is essential to express one's problems and struggles to others who they can trust. On this, Kamilah opening up to the MC was a significant defining point in their relationship. The act of sharing and unloading her inner turmoil to the latter must have taken great courage on Kamilah's part. This is because, for a very, very long time, Kamilah has shut herself away from most people. She admitted that her coldness and flippancy serve both as forms of atonement and as shields to protect her from getting hurt. But by sharing her internal struggles, Kamilah let her guard down and allowed herself to become exposed and vulnerable to the MC. This is an indicator that she feels comfortable with and that she trusts the other woman. After all, people, in general, do not share their deepest and most difficult troubles with just anyone.

This scene illustrates Kamilah's growth as a character. She no longer feels the constant need to shut everyone out. She also no longer feels that she must bear her burdens alone. She is slowly but surely starting to reach out to others and to form meaningful relationships again. And she is currently establishing such a relationship with the MC. Additionally, she has also started to allow herself to feel joy whenever she is with the latter.

On the MC's part, in the story, she has tried and continues to try her best to understand and support Kamilah. In this particular diamond scene, she helped the vampire process her feelings and struggles so that the latter can feel more at peace with herself. She also expressed that she understands that the vampire is now an entirely different and better person compared to who she was before. On this, it's worth noting that the MC has never shown fear or resentment towards Kamilah despite having already seen some of her darker memories. This indicates that the MC honestly does acknowledge that the vampire has genuinely changed.

All in all, their relationship is a slow and steady burn. In the storyline, Kamilah is slowly starting to become more open, and she is also gradually allowing the MC to see more of her vulnerable side. She has also already started to become more expressive about her concern and feelings for the mortal woman. And on her part, the MC has been and continues to be patient. While she occasionally tries to coax Kamilah into sharing her feelings, she doesn't push the vampire into doing so if the latter does not feel comfortable. This shows that she respects Kamilah's boundaries. And whenever Kamilah is willing to share, the MC has demonstrated that she is always ready to listen and to offer words of comfort and encouragement.

Glad that I Have You

Warning labels: Smut, NSFW

Hello, everyone. I got the idea for this NSFW fic and wanted to write it out. I don’t usually write smut stories, so please bear with me. Hehe.

This story takes place after the MC delivered Council summonses to the Baron, Lester, and Priya. In this storyline, the MC did not sleep with Priya and immediately went to Kamilah's apartment afterward. I hope that you all like it. 😊

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Amy’s POV

You had just finished delivering summonses to the remaining Council members and are now sitting on one of the soft couches in Kamilah’s apartment.

You watch as Kamilah pours two glasses of wine at her private bar.

“How was your day?” You ask as she makes her way towards you with the two glasses.

“Stressful.” She replies while handing you a glass and taking a seat next to you.

You both sip your drinks in silence for a while. Once your glass is completely empty, you look at its clear bottom, pondering on what to say next. You sneak a sideways glance at Kamilah and see that she seems to be completely lost in her own thoughts.

Knowing that she's probably troubled about the vial and Gaius, you try to talk to her. "Kamilah ---," you begin.

She places her hand on top of yours, and you immediately stop. "Don't." She says.

She turns to look at you – her eyes are troubled and weary. "I know that you want to help me ease my mind, Amy." She takes your glass and sets it on the table before holding your hand. "And I appreciate it. But just for tonight, I want to forget about everything."

She places her own glass on the table and stands up. With her hand still gripping yours, she tugs at your arm, beckoning for you to stand as well. “Join me in bed?”

You smile at her. “Of course.”

You make your way to her bedroom and lie on the soft bed together. You lean against her, and she wraps an arm around you.

You stay like that for a few moments.

Kamilah eventually breaks the silence. "Are you feeling alright?" She asks, holding you close to her side.

You snuggle closer to her. "Not really." You reply honestly. "I mean, a lot has happened."

She sighs and begins to slowly run her hand up and down your back. "I can understand what you mean."

You take a deep breath. "So many things happened so quickly that I barely had time to process anything. A few days ago, we were captured by some crazy billionaire. And just earlier, I served summonses to the most elite vampires in New York for a top-secret meeting. I mean, what is my life even?”

The rhetorical question prompts Kamilah to chuckle.

You can’t help but smile at her reaction. “I feel stressed. And it doesn’t help that the other Council members are either creepy or mean. Or both.”

Kamilah's hand immediately stops moving. The amusement on her face disappears, and her eyes narrow. "Did they give you any trouble?"

You shake your head. “Not really. The Baron was just his nasty and grouchy old-self. Lester acted like a big creep, as usual. And Priya was… well… Priya.”

Kamilah’s eyes narrow even further. "Did she do anything to you?”

You shake your head again. “Not really. She just placed her hand on my thigh. But that’s about it.”

The vampire visibly relaxes. “Oh, good.” She then starts to stroke your back again.

You take note of her reactions, and suddenly, an idea comes to your mind.

You bury your face into the crook of Kamilah’s shoulder. "Yeah. Priya can be rather intense…" you say casually, "...and to think that I once had a crush on her before."

Her hand abruptly stops moving again.

"What did you say?"

You allow yourself a small smile before raising your head to look at her. You’re immediately met with an unreadable expression.

"Uhh... I... sorta ... had a crush on her?"

Kamilah raises an eyebrow. "Oh, really?"

Your plan appears to be working. "Yeah. Well, Priya is a famous fashion designer, so her face is pretty well-known. But it was a long time ago. It was before I knew about... well... before I knew about everything."

The vampire looks at you intently. "I see."

You then give a hint of a smile. "Yeah. But I did think that Priya was pretty hot before."

You see Kamilah’s brown eyes flash red for a brief second. And then in the blink of an eye, you're suddenly pinned against the mattress.

"Huh?!" You blurt out in response to the sudden movement.

Kamilah presses her body to yours, causing you to groan softly. "Both Adrian and Lily told me that Priya always makes advances towards you whenever she gets the chance.”

She raises herself slightly before placing her knees on either side of your waist.

You bite your lip as she slides her hands up and down your still clothed sides. "Tell me, Amy..." she trails off to slip her hands beneath the fabric of your shirt. "Do you enjoy it when your crush flirts with you?"

Your breath hitches as Kamilah slowly slides her hands up your front – pushing your shirt upwards in the process. "I... ah..." you're unable to form a coherent answer.

"Lift your arms." She whispers against your lips.

You do as she says, and she pulls your shirt over your head. After tossing the piece of fabric to the side, she pins your wrists over your head with one hand.

You then watch as Kamilah slowly unbuttons her blouse with her free hand. Your eyes hungrily take in every bit of soft flesh that becomes exposed with her every movement.

Once her blouse is entirely open, she crooks her fingers underneath your chin. "Now answer the question." She commands, her voice low.

"I... I..." you struggle to respond intelligently as Kamilah's hand starts to wander down your now-exposed torso. You tremble as it trails across your skin.

"Oh." You involuntarily moan as Kamilah finally settles her hand on the front of your jeans.

"Yes?" She presses her palm against you, and you gasp.

"... no.." You finally manage to say.

"What was that?" She deftly unhooks the button of your jeans and slides the zipper down.

"I said no." You say firmly.

She glides two fingers over the fabric of your underwear, and you shiver. "What?"

She then slips her entire hand underneath your waistband. You gasp as your hips move upward to meet her hand.

"I don't enjoy it!" You breathe out as she teases you with the tips of her fingers.

Kamilah smirks. "Good to know."

She leans down to nuzzle your neck, and you can feel her purring against the soft of your throat.

Your breathing starts to become ragged as you strain against her hold. "Kamilah..."

Hearing you say her name causes her to purr even more loudly. She starts to nibble across your jawline until her lips arrive at the shell of your ear. "So, tell me, darling..." you close your eyes at the sensation of her hot breath on your skin, "...what do you enjoy? What do you want?"

The question sends pleasurable chills down your spine. "You."

She chuckles as she presses herself flush against you while pushing her hips into yours. "I thought so."

Kamilah’s mouth is suddenly on yours. Her kiss – ravenous and fervent, translates her desire, hunger, and passion in ways that words can never accomplish. You moan into her mouth as you insistently roll your hips against hers, hungry for more.

She growls against your lips and presses herself even closer against your body. You wrap your legs around her waist, desperately needing to feel more of her.

When she breaks away, you start panting heavily, breathless from the intensity of your shared kiss.

Kamilah looks at your flushed face with red eyes. "Say my name."

You feel your cheeks become even warmer as you take in her potent gaze. "Ka... Kamilah." You whisper her name in an almost worship-like manner.

She finally releases your wrists, and you entangle your fingers into her hair as she trails hot kisses down from your chin and towards your chest.

She nibbles at the area between your breasts, and you groan in approval. As she teases the sensitive flesh, she removes her slacks and her blouse.

She then lifts her head to look at you with hunger in her eyes. "Listen to me, Amy."

She unwraps your legs from around her waist and sets them on the mattress.

She then slides her hands across your thighs until they're on either side of your jeans.

"Whenever anyone else flirts with you..."

She pulls your jeans down until they're entirely discarded.

"I want you to remember..."

Kamilah slowly spreads your legs apart before she tears your underwear away.

"...that I'm..." she begins to kiss her way towards your center. You gasp as her kisses edge closer and closer.

"...the only one..." her lips are now on one of your inner thighs, and you groan in anticipation.

"... who can make you feel like this." She maintains eye contact with you until she dips her head between your legs.

You immediately arch your back as pleasure courses through every nerve in your body. "Oh, Kamilah!"

With your fingers still entangled in her hair strands, you draw her in closer. And she responds by sending you deeper and deeper into bliss with each passing minute.

Loud and uninhibited moans escape from your throat as your entire body trembles with ecstasy. You forget about everything else as you take in the feeling Kamilah is giving you.

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A long while later, you're lying flat on your back with Kamilah still on top of you. You pant with effort – your throat is hoarse from all the groans that had escaped from your lips during your intimate session.

Kamilah trails a path of gentle kisses across your neck, cheeks, and shoulders.

"Still think that Priya is 'hot'?"

"Who?"

Kamilah laughs as she hovers over your face. "Good girl." She smirks before kissing you.

You kiss deeply for a long while before Kamilah rolls over to lie down beside you. She pulls you close, and you snuggle against her.

“You did that on purpose, didn’t you?” She whispers in your ear after a few seconds.

You smirk against her skin. “Maybe.”

She laughs and places a hand underneath your chin, causing you to look at her. "Clever girl."

You smile ruefully before giving her a tiny kiss. “Well, you did say that you wanted to get your mind off of things.”

Kamilah laughs again. “That wasn’t how I planned to do it, but to be fair, it still worked.”

She pulls you even closer. “But all jokes and… schemes aside…” She pauses to brush some of your hair away from your face. “…I’m glad that I have you, Amy.”

You smile gently and place a hand on her cheek. "I'll always be here whenever you need me, Kamilah."

She returns your smile and places a soft kiss on your forehead.

End.