Malhare - Blog Posts
Just a snippet of the next They're Just Children chapter
"Why am I here?" Rebecca hesitantly raised a shaky hand, her eyes flickering between the Keeper of 'the Mega Pizzaplex' and Wolf Pup.
The Marionette quickly changed her tune and turned her porcelain head down to the shelving unit she poorly hid behind. "Because I didn't want you running off into the city without a plan or anywhere to go."
Then the Puppet returned her attention to Cassie. "You, however, have a family and home to go back to until this half-baked plan inevitably goes horribly wrong and you become another mark on his wall."
"Then you won't mind me getting him out of your hair." Cassandra crossed her arms with a pout. She doesn't have hair?
"Chica says we might not have a choice." Somebody, Roxanne, finally cut in. "Nothing's stopping Vanessa from just going back to her apartment. No point in getting her Dad his promotion faster, she lives at the top of the apartment tower. Once they're inside, she'll just cut the cameras and get rid of them when everyone's asleep. With our luck, that Malhare thing's in there as well."
GLITCHTRAP NOW RAHH
this one i like but not as much as the Vanny one shes so fun to draw , this one was kinda quick to do, tbh might do ref sheets for Glitchtrap and Vanny eventually
[song i listened to that made me come up with this idea is ‘your face-wisp’]
I love this but the other songs on that album FIT HER(and Glitchtrap too) EVEN MOOOORE. YALL DONT EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH THEY FIT. THE ABUSE AND MANIPULATION SHE WENT THROUGH </3
My faves are Eternal Nausea, Runner, Go Inside, Legacy, Dreaming, Wiggle, Tell Me How U Feel, Thoughts and Prayers, AND Wound AND THEY ALL FIT VANESSA SO AMAZINGLY WELLLLL
lyrics typed under the cut: (Big warning for suicidal themes and suggestive lyrics)
Eternal Nausea
I live in sickness, I live in spinning The whole wide world is a carousel I stood in line, and now the ride's beginning I could still do so much more if I don't kill myself I live in nausea, eternal nausea In a spotlight shaped like a spiral I'm in the bible God's favorite (secret) idol 'Cause the whole sick world loves to smile
Smile like a rainbow (Smile like a) Smile like a crescent moon Just keep doing what you're doing (Okay) Just keep doing what you're doing (What am I supposed to do?) Smile like a crack in the earth Like a curse, like a corpse, like a wound Smile like a rainbow Just keep doing what you're doing (What am I supposed to do?)
Grey soul and static in my eyes Try to see the future, but I'm not sure if it applies Feels kinda like my soul is burnt Too late, too late, if only, uh We're not like the other girls This sh!t's too evil to be stylish Don't tell me this is too dramatic, 'cause I live inside it
I feel sick (Just f#cking try it) (I tried it) I still feel sick, I still feel sick I feel sick I still feel sick, I still feel sick I feel sick
Go Inside
You'll never find a way out (Someday you won't recognize me) You'll never find a way out (Someday you won't even know who I am) You'll never find a way out (I live for that day)
Yeah, I eat the ashes, yeah, I eat the bones Yeah, I know the people, yeah, I know the ones Why? 'cause God tells me Yeah, I eat the ashes, yeah, I chew the bones Yeah, I know the people, yeah, I know the ones Why? 'cause God tells me, it could be whatever It doesn't matter even if I get it wrong Sometimes I think that I'm dreaming Sometimes I know that I'm not Sometimes I think it's a matter of fact Sometimes I think it's just tied up in a knot It could really be whatever
It can go inside you, it can unwind you It can rewire you You'll never be who you thought you were, true "Everything's see through", trust me, I feel you Memories steal you, present tense, weird too Who is this geared to? nobody near you I think I fear you, I think I fear you I know you're scared of me, so I'm scared too The difference is... I don't want to kill
It could, it could It could wear your skin It could dig right in It could go inside of you
Tell Me How U Feel
Tell me how you feel I don't know what's real Tell me how to feel Tell me what's really you Tell me how to feel I will feel it too
I want to replace myself With the best parts of you I don't want to be anything Close to what I knew
Tell me how you feel I don't know what's real Tell me how to feel What's really you? Tell me what to feel I will feel it too
I want to empty out my mind And make it something I can use I want to burn away my childhood And scatter something new It doesn't matter if I die I'm going to become something true Tell me how you feel So I can take your soul from you
Thoughts And Prayers
Is there any truth To what you tell me you know about me? I don't wanna underestimate your intellect But something tells me there is something more to this Go ahead and escape, a couple times a day Will do you good but don't forget to bring yourself Back to what you're terrified of every single day Yeah she's okay
I am not like you I wanna forget myself and be lied to I don't know if anything is right I'm just a girl who can't look herself in the eye
And in my dreams I am somewhere where I can fall apart I can think nothing and only Feel what I need to
Leave us alone We dont wanna f#cking hurt anyone We just wanna feel anything Before we're done Leave us alone We just wanna have control of our lives We just wanna get off And feel safe and die
Everything is movement, everything is hypochondriac And pieced together from the fragments of losing Sight of what I thought you wanted me to be Though I've tried and it almost killed me You cannot know this. You cannot pretend to be close with me Psychosis batters at your worldview and gnosis Whoa, it's only been a minute and a moment And you're already done
This is praxis. Do you have anything to fight back with? No, you lack it Am I making you worry? Is your vision getting blurry? Yeah, you're gonna need glasses I burn so f#cking bright but your eyesight only sees ashes I am long past this Post-traumatic, manic Consciousness blasted Look in my eyes and see the person you damaged
Pick yourself off the floor And look yourself in the eye
Wiggle
I couldn't go, I couldn't stay I couldn't
They tried to push me down But I just wiggled around until they couldn't hold me Years and years, they couldn't hold me If you turn the light on, I'll just run away I know I don't belong but I have nowhere else to stay I'm so sorry I'm here, I'm so sorry I'm here Please don't kill me, please don't kill me I'm so sorry I'm here Right into the heart of my dreams Someone else is just trying to crush me But it's okay, it's okay If I was you If I was a killer, I'd just kill me too
I keep myself together somehow (I don't want anything, I just want to survive) Stepped on too many times to count (I know I'm nothing to you, I know I'm not even alive) I hope one day my broken frame (I'm sorry that I scare you, I'll find a better place to hide) Can get away, can find a place (I'll crawl into the corner, stay out of the light) That's safe
Is it really like you say? Does it really come in waves? Does it really work that way? I know you're something different You can't hide it You can't miss it
I keep myself together somehow (I don't want anything, I just want to survive) Stepped on too many times to count (I know I'm a target for you, I know you don't even think twice) I hope one day my broken frame (I'm sorry that I scare you, I promise that I'll make it right) Can get away, can find a place (Some perfect day I know I'll no longer be part of your life) That's safe
Dreaming
Sometimes I think that I'm dreaming Sometimes I think that I'm dead Sometimes I think that I'm dreaming In your head
Sometimes I don't understand How I can see reality As anything but something far away From what I think is me I try to touch the surface But I cannot touch, only see The picture is distorted With the static noise of sleep "But I'm awake" I don't believe myself Not really, I feel someone else Deciding what to do and feel and speak Cause I can't touch what's right in front of me Wake her up she's stuck inside a dream Wake me up I'm stuck inside a dream
It feels like reaching up through a mirror world It feels like reaching through liquid glass I don't know where I am at all Oh no I don't know where I've been and I'm scared to ask But that's ok That's ok I don't need to know anything I don't need to be anywhere at all It's ok Oh, it's so ok It's just a dream It's not real
Legacy
Is this how you wanna spend the last few years of your life? Of your life? The last few years Your legacy Your legacy Your legacy Your
You can hide out in your tiny little lair You can be the f#cking evil monster Terror Scared You can be the evil monster It was always you It was always you It was always you It was always you It was always you
It was always something I couldn't be That was just outside reality It was always something I couldn't know That I didn't know that I shouldn't show Because everything around me Felt just like a bad dream It was all or nothing Be the kind of person you hate or be
Hated for the things that you thought were common sense Just a little further, one day it will make sense Hold yourself a little tighter, your innocence
Preyed upon and vilified by your blood and friends
Who am I if I can't assign a name and place to what this is? Everything that's mine feels rotten from the touch of it Everything all the time is a message that I shouldn't be Who the f#ck are you? Stay the f#ck away from me
I want to love myself but memories are killing me I want to live but all the years that came before won't let me be I want to love myself but memories are killing me Memories are killing me It hurts
Runner
I could be anything I want I could be somewhere far away I could make peace with what I'm not I could be real again someday HAHAHAHAHAHA Real again someday
I don't really know myself, I don't really believe myself I don't really know why I see rotten things inside myself I don't really understand a single thing that's said to me "I don't really care who you are or what you think of me!" But that's so f#cking untrue when no one's listening
Put me under I want to get away I wonder if I could make it She's a runner I hear she f#cks with something other You don't know the half of it
I'm just a pain that hurts too much Inverted shadow time delay Mirror image of something that I never really even was Heterosanity able-bodied LCD display
But I'm Lost in the world So different, so unsuited for it So sick, so f#cked up in it So doomed So dead So...
I'll get away and I'll be all that I dreamed of I'll become everything that you were so scared I would be I'll push the limits of what you thought I was capable of You'll never see me again I know what you did to me
Put me under I want to get away
This anger burns out too quick to hold I wanna be engulfed but I'm out in the cold Am I a character in some sick fantasy that's getting old? What happens from now on if it turns out I never told you?
I want to start again, I want this hurt to die I want it to destroy me so I'll have a reason not to lie I want to hear your voice and tell you it's the last time ever I want to cut away, I want to separate and sever
I'm going to start again
Wound
Listen, I don't want to go here This is almost as bad as going back there Listen, I can't, I can't go here This is a wound and it's closing This is a wound, please let it There is a wound called knowing What it's like to feel this
Please don't open it up again Please don't f#cking touch me Please don't talk to me that way
Someone opened it up again Someone f#cking touched me Someone scared me out of my mind Tore the wound right open and shoved me in
Every time it happens I don't think that I can get off the floor I don't even feel like those memories are mine anymore I don't know your motive but I just want to get out of this mess Please just get your voice out of my head
I remember trusting, I remember trusting you Now that's something I don't think that I could ever do
The truth is I don't want to know what happened to me Just wanna kill all the memories of those years Dig out grey matter, bleed out everything that is left From when I had to stop believing in safety
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As a bonus for getting to the end, here's my vanny playlist <3
The first two songs are actually from the same singer who's in the album above! Yep she sung other ones that fit vanny too, even had an album cover that looks exactly like vanny:
IN MY MOUTH- BLACK DRESSES
This song is sooo vanny you can’t tell me otherwise! I wish I could edit but this is what you get for now!
LET ME OUT
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Anyways I always wanted to doodle this specific pose from Toyless' animation why because I can :]
Extras under the cut :
This was the specific screenshot I based the pose off I love hands grabbing head!!! :
The original video ^ (I'll be real with yall I was shocked the original song was poppy playtime because my only experience with it was that all my baby cousins loved that franchise. And they would show me vids off it at family gatherings because I was the babysitter. One of em even debated me abt fnaf like chill out bro you weren't even born when it came out!!!!!)
Glitchtrap rambling time woohoo let's go!!!!
-I redrew em again because I think I'm almost 100% happy with its design!!!! Like I don't wanna change their face so much because the way his face is shaped is my fave!!! Like they have the same style of muzzle as sonic characters!!!!!! I just made it rounder cuz its their early days before this au lore
-I just wanna achieve the unnaturalness with their design. Like they don't belong here. They want to get out. LET HIM OUT. type vibe basically like that's why it has like those kind off teeth instead off the rabbit ones. They get those later in the au.
-I fucking love Glitchtrap so much you don't understand they're so peak!!!!!! I jokingly hate him because I despise what it did to Vanny.
-I was a fan since day 1 bro is just so unique like woah a non animatronic for a change?!?!? STRAIGHT UP A FURSUIT!??!?! Color me impressed!!! I love zooming on it its model and seeing everyy little detail!!! Like omg bro is crying and drooling on the suit!!!!! There's also a patch of uneven stitching pattern on the top of their head compared to their mostly symmetrical design!!!
-I was so fixated on em like my level of obsession for him was bad bad!!!! Like yeah it was still there when Vanny came around during the curse of Dreadbear DLC but you don't understand it surpassed all my Foxy art!!! The first fnaf character I fixated on!?!?? Like what and yall can ask my IRLS bro had lots n lots of art!!!!! I have so much trad art of glitchy it's embarassing!!! Atleast I improved tbh!!
-I just really really loved the fan animations were bro got to time travel to the older fnaf animations and fuck em up!!!! Causing them all to glitch out like hello PEAK!?!?!?! No im not biased to rabbit characters with whiskers shhhhh... SHHH...
-Because I know all those animations already and it's like omg omg OMG Glitchtrap kinda expanded my music taste imma be fr... Fnaf autism is so bad I omfg I only listened to fnaf songs and the only time I listened to other franchises songs is because someone animated fnaf over it... like yeah I was an animation meme kid but even then I only remember the lyrics and titles to songs if I saw fnaf on them (cringe!!!!) So yeah thank u Glitchtrap <33333
-I think Malhare is the cooler name but the Glitchtrap name is cool too because when the names end in trap like this it makes me think they're like warrior cats adjacent. So in this one they just fluctuate between either Malhare or Glitchtrap
-Also another reason he's my super fave is because my brain predicted it's gloop form!!!!
-Like no joke literally the same character I dreamt about during the early days before Princess Quest.
-Except mine was a shadow like the shadow animatronics. More wispy than gloopy. I think the reason I dreamt it was because Shadow Toy Chica and fan made shadow animatronics were getting popular!! But legit same character and colors!!!!!!!
-Just a big dark mass with purple eyes surrounding it like literally the same character my brain came up with and I'm just wow <3333 minus the fact my design had really big giant swirly white eyebrows
-However my Shadow Glitchtrap was kinda more wack to say the least. Like heheheh cuz Glitchtraps a fursuit there's no denying that I changed the dream design a bit. In my old Glitchtrap designs they'd have a zipper and so what would happen was they'd unzip and flip their insides into outsides to reveal the Shadow Glitchtrap thing which was hiding inside them.
-Like those plushies that you can unzip to reveal a different plushie design basically!!!!
-TBH I prefer Glooptrap because yeah!!!!! Amalgamation of hate let's go!!!!!! I think with how gloopy he is its just fun to draw I love the fact that the weird Glitchtrap blockers look like that it fits too much with my own preestablished AU lore.
-I feel like Glitchtrap turns into Glooptrap from like the seams of their suit. Like you see that each part the suit got stitched just turn black as black liquid pours out like ohhh that shit haunted!!!! Bursting outta the seams like oh this guy has no one inside they're all just black sludge!!!!
-In this AU specifically (The one with my millions of Vanny designs) is actually a spoof fnaf AU where everyone lives!!! Like I have 3 AUs technically one of them being the fnaf cast in my oc world where they become my ocs basically called Rabbit City. My other one which is my more serious canon adjacent fnaf AU where no silly stuff or shipping happens, and it's just more overall following my own formed understanding of the canonicity and the series of events with me trying to keep the animatronics more game accurate (I dont think ive posted any of that here due to me feeling like my style limits the nit and grit I wanna go with it). And this one I mainly post on here where everything is just silly and bends to my command and everyone lives because I love everyone <333333 Literally playing with my toys type AU where I do what I want which is why a million vanny designs are in this AU specifically. I usually tag it as this 🦭🩷🐇🐰🐇🐰🐇🐰🐯 because the original name of this au is self indulgent and I'm embarrassed but it's too iconic to change it.
-Glitchtrap in this AU is just much more goofy and silly infecting people like a zombie virus and possessing them for his own gain. Weird eldritch horror that came out of a fnaf fangame. Anything goes in this AU so if I wanna make Glitchtrap a mind controlling zombie warlock wizard so be it!!!! Sorry I love zombies soo much you will have to take this trope out of my cold dead hands!!!!! I love rot!!!
-That's why it's wrinkly because they too me are like a rotten banana (Even though his associated smell to me is lemongrass). Imagine squeezing a banana still with it's skin on. That's how I imagine bro turns into glooptrap if they didn't open the zipper in time. Also because I love the design trope of rotting and withering sue me. I love when the flesh sags across the body. Wrinkles are great bro theyre so real!!!!! Also because back then people kept drawing him as skinny as a twig??? Even though they have fat??? So I made them fatter mostly because like I love the gloop part of it hiding inside <3333
-They're more green pink and purple because imma be real my fave color combo ever <33333
-I wanna do an xray piece with them soon to show their insides but I'm still uncertain if I have the art prowess to concoct it exactly like how I envision it yet. Like I need to squash and scretch them more. They need to look more decrepit and horrible!!!!! something like the unknown from dbd!!!!
-They can't actually emote properly stuck in a permanent smile
-Glithctrap and Vanny’s dynamic is like Lord Hater and Commander Peepers in this one. There's more character adjacent to the dynamic between them concocted in my head but I wanna draw a comic abt it :]
-Like yeah one second they're besties and the next they're at each other's throats ready to strangle eachother. Vanny reluctantly trying to help him at first like how she was first called.
-Oh also in this specific AU Glitchtrap isn't connected to William in the slightest more just it's own thing!!!!
-He's like an AI that wants to be human. It believes it is human. They've mimicked people too much that they don't know what they are anymore. Or what it wants anymore. What do they want.
Finished Help Wanted 1! Now to get to the Dreadbear DLC-
Here's a clip of the mortal terror this game puts into me and also my friends peer pressuring me to be goofy
I think it's actually going to drive me crazy if I don't find out who voices the bunny abomination thing at the end of Princess Quest in FNAF: Help Wanted
PLEASE I NEED TO KNOWWW I know it's only in a freaking mobile version of the game and it's a distorted voice clip but it's still original and I need to know who SAID IT
I'm so desperate, if anybody knows how to find out pls tell me 🙏
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BÜT Y0U D0NT G3T 0N3!!!!1!1!1!1!1!1!1!!1!1!1!1
He’s my favorite
I didn’t feel like doing line art lol