Low Cal Restriction - Blog Posts

some mealsp0 from pinterest

some recipes may be inaccurate and make multiple servings, so be sure to calculate the calories of your own ingredients too!

not enough people realize fasting is easier than restricting. if you're also an all or nothing type of person like me it will be easier to just not eat at all instead of obsessing over food and edging a binge the whole time you're restricting lol

~Wieiad~

10•20•24

Breakfast:

• 27g Mini Blueberry Protein Bar - 104c

• 3 Unsalted Rice Cakes - ~125c

• 12g Chopped Dates - 39c

• 31g Caramel Rice Cakes - 119c

• Vitamins - 100c

Total: 487c

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I broke my fast right before I went to sleep.. I feel like maybe I could’ve lasted until this morning but my family has a history of heart attacks and my heart wasn’t acting like it’s usual self so I didn’t want to risk anything. Once I’m on my own it won’t matter but while I’m with my parents I’d prefer not to traumatize them if they even care enough lol.. I didn’t do too bad with the cal intake though, so ig there’s something kind of positive to think about? - and I’ve started another fast but I’m hanging out with a friend tomorrow and food might be around * . * Hopefully I can completely avoid eating but idk if I’ll be able to fast for as long as I’d like to :c I’ll l bring a can of green beans or something else low cal just in case so I hopefully don’t cause any suspicion. My friend used to have an 3d so she’s already pretty aware of some issues I have but I don’t want her to know the full extent of much I’m restricting myself.. but besides the food stuff- tomorrow should be fun. I’m going to help her move some plants and other stuff to her new house and we haven’t seen each other in a few weeks so we’ll have a decent amount to catch each other up on✨

(Side note: Caramel rice cakes are pretty good. I avoided them for a while but I got some a few days ago and they might be a new safe food for me now, I haven’t decided yet.. Cals aren’t great but it’s the lowest it can possibly be so I have to deal with it or avoid it again)

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~(Late)Wieiad~

10•16•24

Breakfast:

• 2 rice cakes - 80c

• Pork cutlet - ~450c

Dinner:

• 22g pitted date - 67c

• 5g LS peanut butter - 16c

• 1.5g unsweetened coconut chips - 10c

• 3g dark chocolate chips - 16c

Total: 639c

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Went over 500c and I’m not happy about it but I’m gonna fast until Saturday so that’ll be fun at least

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~Wieiad~

10•15•24

Breakfast:

• 146g ZS Vanilla Greek yogurt - 60c

• 8g Chia seeds - 40c

• 50ml Coconut milk - 10c

• 80g Pumpkin Puree - 40c

• Ground Cinnamon - 8c

• 68g Frozen Strawberries - 24c

• 33g Frozen Raspberries - 17c

• 30g Frozen Blueberries - 16c

• 45g Frozen Blackberries - 29c

Snack:

• 5g CB whole wheat tortilla - 7c

Total: 251c

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Went mia for a little while because my mental health was complete shit and I had no energy to post on here but I should be back now✨

~Wieiad~(lazy because I’m tired af)

10•3•24

Breakfast:

30g carb balance wheat tortilla - 43c

14g FF mozzarella cheese - 22c

31g LF cottage cheese - 23c

10g Guacamole salsa - 19c

40g Dates - 133c

54.2 g Choc mint protein bar - 195c

1 Fiber brownie - 70c

Total Cal: 505

Water Intake: 34 FLOZ

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•Macros•

Carbs - 87g

Protein - 35g

Fat - 15g

Fiber - 22g

Sodium - 897mg

Calcium - 378mg

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I broke my fast at 3:50pm and started a new one at like 6pm..not too terrible ig but I’m gonna fast every other day for about a week to hopefully speed things up a bit.

~Fast~

42.5 hours in and I just got sick * . * I feel a lot better now so I’m not breaking my fast quite yet, but I’m doubting I’ll complete all 93h.. I set it as that many hrs because it’s the most ideal fast I’d like to do, but I haven’t done a fast longer than 3 days in wayyy too long, and sadly I’m struggling a bit physically.. not even 48hrs in T . T but at the VERY least I’ll make it to the 48h mark, anything less is pathetic and I’ll be even more of a disappointment.(I would never talk to anyone else like that btw, only to myself lol)

Starting a fast :3

~Wieiad~

9•30•24

Breakfast:

2 Iron gummies - 10c

2 Zinc gummies - 20c

2 Vitamin D gummies - 15c

2 Vitamin 3 gummies - 20c

2 Biotin gummies - 10c

2 Omega-3 gummies - 25c

T: 100c

Lunch:

6g seaweed w/ sea salt - 30c

High key sandwich cookie - 25c

?g peppercorn ranch chip - 13c

Pure Protein chocolate mint bar - 180c

T: 248c

Dinner:

50g egg whites - 27c

FF shredded mozzarella - 10c

T: 37c

Snack:

324g Cucumber with peel - 49c

159g Carrots - 65c

T: 114c

Total Cal: 499c

Water intake: 51 FLOZ

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I hung out with a friend today and I brought all of the snacks I have atm in hopes that she’d eat some, I haven’t binged while I’ve had them but I’m worried I will and I want them gone asap * . * and she did eat some but I ate a little too so she wouldn’t suspect anything..she gave me half of one of her chips to try as well and usually 1 chip is around 10c-15c but I counted it as 13c to be safe. But I’m going to bed soon and I’m definitely not eating again tonight so Im just glad I didn’t go over my cal limit and can sleep peacefully😌…kind of lol

~Wieiad~

9•29•24

Breakfast:

2 Iron gummies - 10c

2 Zinc gummies - 20c

2 Vitamin D gummies - 15c

2 Vitamin 3 gummies - 20c

2 Biotin gummies - 10c

2 Omega-3 gummies - 25c

T: 100c

Lunch:

125g Chicken breasts - 134c

43g Sweet potato hash brown - 65c

T: 199c

Dinner:

85g Oikos TZ Vanilla Greek yogurt - 50c

8g Highkey choc mini cookies - 37c

8g Highkey double choc brownie mini cookies - 40c

3 Highkey sandwich cookies - 70c (I forgot to weigh them T . T)

T: 197c

Total: 500

Water Intake: 51 FLOZ

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~Macros~

Carbs - 63g

Protein - 40g

Fat - 18g

Fiber - 13g

Sodium - 1,008mg

Calcium - 143mg

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I lightly seasoned the chicken and put pepper on the hash brown, and I weighed the seasoning but my scale stayed at 0 so I can’t track it as easily. I’m just gonna add it as a few calories and consider my total intake to be 500…Not too bad of a day tho. Sodium is high but there’s days when it’s really low so I’m not too concerned; I drank a couple diet cokes and that’s what pushed it so high.

~Wieiad~

9•28•24

Breakfast:

2 Iron gummies - 10c

2 Zinc gummies - 20c

2 Vitamin D gummies- 15c

2 Vitamin C gummies - 20c

2 Biotin gummies - 10c

2 Omega 3 gummies - 25c

Lunch:

14g FF Fig Newton - 42c

11g Highkey mini choc chip cookies - 51c

11g Highkey double choc brownie cookies - 55c

.58 Milano raspberry&choc cookie - 38c

Dinner:

46.7g Brownie batter Protien puff bar - 163c

Snacks:

119g Cucumber with peel - 18c

49g Red grapes - 34c

Total - 502c

Water Intake - 51FLOZ

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Macros:

Carbs - 76g

Protein - 24g

Fat - 16g

Fiber - 3g

Sodium - 482mg

Calcium - 168mg

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No pictures because I was lazy today, but I ate the cucumber and grapes early in the afternoon after cleaning the dishes and kitchen, and my sweet tooth was screaming so I ate some not so great things and I’m not feeling good about it…..I could’ve had some homemade air fried chicken nuggets and gotten more protein, but I kind of stayed in my cal limit so I won’t beat myself up too much about it..The protein bar weighed more than what the nutrients label said and that’s what made it go over 500 :c I’m giving my body 2 hours to digest the food a bit then I’m going to bed 🥱

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~Wieiad~

9•27•24

Breakfast:

111g Carrot slices - 46c

84g Celery slices - 12c

19g Small tomatoes - 6c

48g Red grapes - 33c

80g Plums - 37c

Lunch:

54g Peanut butter chocolate protein bar - 208c

Dinner:

43g Brownie batter puff protein bar - 151c

Total Cals - 493

Water Intake - 68floz

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~Macros~

Carbs: 71g

Protein: 33g

Fat: 12g

Fiber: 11g

Sodium: 820mg

Calcium: 218mg

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~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Decent day, it could’ve been better. Tomorrow I’m gonna start taking some vitamins, but the bad thing is that all of them combined are 100 cals * . * I got gummies so maybe that’s why it’s so much. I just have a really hard time swallowing pills so I thought gummies would be better for me, but idk…the only thing I can do is wait and see how it goes but I’m a bit concerned lol

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~Breakfast~

9•27•24

•Details•

111g Carrot Slices - 46c

84g Celery Slices - 12c

19g Small Tomatoes - 6c

48g Red Grapes - 33c

80g Plum - 37c

Total: 143c

•Macros•

Carbs - 32g

Protein - 3g

Fat - 0g

Fiber - 6g

Sodium - 146mg

Calcium - 81mg

I’m not really a tomato fan so I only ate 1 and half instead of 3… and the amount of protein is pathetic, but I’m nearly out of fresh fruits and veggies so soon I can focus more on macros. I’m not using my own hard earned money to buy groceries rn so the least I waste the better.

I’ve felt my heart beat being crazy for the past few hours so I ended my fast before I really wanted to :c

Side note: These protein bars are amazing! A bit pricey and 180c… * . * -but very good! And not only did it kind of help my heart beat issue but now I’m definitely not hungry lol 10/10, do recommend✨ I have another flavor by the same brand that I’m going to try tomorrow :)

yk what, fuck the Ana lifestyle I don’t wanna panic every time I see my weight go up. I’m healthy at 114 pounds and that’s completely fine, all that weight is muscle mass from sports. I think it’s time for me to go into recovery

current mood

coloring in my colleges library while trying not to cry 👍

stupid rant

I feel like all my friends are pulling away from me and I don’t know why.

no one responds to my texts yet they don’t text me without me doing so first, or they say that they didn’t see my message when I can see when they read it. Everyone has time to hang together, but when I ask to join they have too many people even though it’s just my roommate and our two friends. Suddenly everything that we all used to do gets pushed to the side only for me to see them posting about how fun their day was, but they told me it was canceled.

I feel like I’m being excluded from my own friend group, and I hate this feeling of abandonment. I don’t like being lonely. And I might be overreacting but if you were in my place, you’d probably feel the same way!

when i actually do get “included” it’s like im not even there, i got talked over and brushed past, it’s like im a ghost. I thought part of college would be better then high school, but turns out it’s the exact same, full of fake friends and people that only want to use you for their own gain. Fuck this place and fuck my friends

life update

over the past few weeks a lot has happened that I haven't talked about on here. to sum it up there's this man that's been stalking me since November and my college is doing next to nothing about it.

ive been to a fuck ton of meetings about it and I had one today where someone finally took me seriously about how this guy is not a student but instead a guy that's old enough to be my father. he knows where I live and just stands across the Road or paces by the door waiting.

its creepy as fuck and has left me feeling unsafe and like im being watched all the time. im terrified of walking by myself and im jumpy no matter what.

my friends are mostly being people that I can lean on but just today a close friend of mine has told be to not keep them updated and that they don't care. it might be an extreme reaction, but when things like this happen I block their number for a bit to give people space and to take a step back.

I want to continue being active on Tumblr but everything is getting to me and im honestly this close to deleting all of my socials and not talking to anyone on my campus. this on top of my eating disorder is not going well at all. im In a constant state of binging and then purging it all from worry and then I starve for 3 days and then I repeat the fucking cycle all while going to classes and meetings with the head of our campus security. it wasn't until today that I fully told my boyfriend what's been going on because I didn't want to admit that im being stalked as that would make it seem more real.

this on top of the state of the us is making me really debate why im still here. I might have stopped being super suicidal, but the urge to slit my wrists is coming back super strong. ive even started writing in my old journal about it while also drawing out how I have been feeling in it.

everything is getting to be too much for me and I want it all to end immediately. I NEED it to end before I end it all once and for all guys.

I got kinda bored while waiting for my meeting time, so enjoy the avatar I made of myself. depending on how much I like it, I might make it my profile!

1/28 day

on Tuesdays I have an early start to my day as my first class starts at 8:15, im one of the first people to get there however so that I can review any notes from the class before and so that I can answer my emails. my class went by soooo slow today, it ended early though so that's a nice change. normally we end at 9:20. I had time to go and grab a small breakfast, and as much as id like to skip breakfast ive got a busy day ahead of me so I needed some calories this morning to keep my blood sugar up.

the only downside about going to my colleges cafe is that they don't say how many calories are in what they serve :(

anyway, I had a quick FaceTime with my mom while she was a work to talk about my finical aid since that fuckface of a president that we have now decided to freeze all federal aid to colleges. we think that I should be ok for this semester but next year will probably be a struggle. this summer to hopefully save some money im going to be working full time, and even then I won't have enough saved up.

after breakfast I'll be having a meeting with student success to talk about how the start of my semester is going and to chat about possibly starting tutoring. I'm struggling in my history class since all the professor does is talk and doesn't give us anything to study/ take notes on.

after that meeting I don't have class until 2, which gives me time to work on some reading for another class.

1/27 work out

I decided to record my workouts from PE today and these were the stats

Badminton: open goal

total time: 1 hour and 17 min

Active cal: 374cal

total cal: 447cal

Average hr: 146BPM range: 95-187bpm

I walked a total of 3,612 steps and closed two of rings. my goal was to burn 300 cals and went a total go 142 over that. And I try to work out for 30 minutes each day.

I feel like I did pretty great today, I feel well accomplished in my workout today. I do badminton for my college PE credit and Im honestly debating on joining the schools team, my coach seems to think I would do pretty well on it.

today we worked on improving our aim as well as our swing range and boy was it a lot of squatting, my thighs feel like their going to melt off- but in a good way-. i'm getting pretty close to having a healthy thigh gap. like Im getting to my goal weight by working out and turning the fat into muscle instead of starving myself to get there, and i'm proud of myself for it.

idk

sometimes it’s nice to have an equally disorders roommate, we understand each other’s struggles. Tn we decided to go on a night drive and to stay up all night to cope with everything going on in the world. I think we will be out till about 1 ish

psa- Ana/ED coaches

hey guys, I just wanted to post a little psa about Ana coaches. you really need to be careful about who you talk to on here, especially those under the age of 18. just today I got a dm about someone wanting to be my coach, however due to be being in a lecture hall I didn't want someone to read over my shoulder to I didn't look at their profile. this is something that you should do before responding.

honestly their username should have given it away, and that's something to keep an eye out for. they started the dm very kind and asked me what weight I wanted to get down to and the first they I ask is if they were one of those creepy Ana coaches and they said "I am a little creepy" GUYs this is such a red flag! I should have stopped responding a blocked them immediately, but I wanted to get more information so that I can tell you all what to look out for.

there are some people on this site and on others, who might have a sexual liking for those who are dieting or are a part of the Ana/ ED community. they went on to asking me how I would like to start and I flat out said that I had no interest in being involved in any kind of sexual or kinky thing that they clearly wanted and that if they wanted that then to go elsewhere as I am not that kind of blog. and while they did eventually back off, there are some people on here that might be more persistent.

please, pleaseee be careful about who you interact to on here especially if you are a minor- even more so if your age is in your bio as that is what they look for.

if you see the blog name 'memeandom' in your dms and they are asking if you are looking for an Ana coach and you are A. under age, B. not a sexual or kinky blog block them and if they persist then report them.

first day of the new semester!

Y’all it’s fucking freezing rn

my first cross stitch

There’s really not much to this post, I just wanted to share the finished piece of the cross stitch I started. This is gonna get turned into a quilt pillow for my aunts birthday in March, I really hope she likes it. She’s obsessed with the beach and if she could would spend every day there- as I kid I used to think she was a mermaid in disguise lol-

I ended up not doing the little knot details because I couldn’t get it and was becoming a little bit frustrated, but I plan to try again at this on a future project

Ana Story

about halfway through my first semester of college I had a friend of mine that I spoke to about my ed, he never judged me and while I knew that he was worried he never tried to force me into recovery- at least at that time- sometimes he forgot that there were some things that triggered me. The time that I talking about was when I started bingeing quite a bit due to stress, anyway to see the scene I had a lot of food on my plate and as I sit down he looks over to me and says” are you gonna eat all that? Can you really handle it? If not I’ll finish it for you” I think he saw the look on my face of pure guilt and regret, because as I tried to take another bite I stopped and pushed the plate away and said “nvm I not hungry anymore”. It wasn’t until later that I got a text from him saying that he didn’t realize that what he said caused me to stop eating and that some of the other people at our table told him that what he said probably made me feel like shit- which it did and I ended up going on a 4 day fast that ended with me fainting in class-

I haven’t spoken to him in a while, mostly because of winter break. He’s a good friend but really wants me to recover eventually, he’s got a bit of a hero complex- which I don’t really mind- he’s super easy to talk to and is a safe space for me. There’s been times when we both couldn’t sleep so we go on hour long walks around campus just talking, then we sit somewhere on campus talking more long into the night. There was this one time that we laid on the concrete infront of the chapel just staring at the night sky, it was so peaceful. id like to experience that at least one more time in my life, just to hear him call me is angel again

This is us laying on the floor in one of the dorm halls kitchen while our friends make cookies, it’s sometime around 1 am at this point. We’re all tired but there’s too much on our minds to sleep, it was strangely peaceful and calming even though we all had so much going on.

craft update

yesterday after going to the dentists, my nana wanted to go to the craft store to look around since there was a big sale and I had a coupon. So we walk around and I offhandly mentioned that I wanted to try doing cross stitch, so she goes all in and gets me a starter kit and some of the fabric for it. I even have some embroidery floss that’s back at home.

anyway I wanted to show everyone my new hobby lol

I’ve spent a little over 5 hours on this guys, why is it so addictive!

winter photos

I’m officially going back to my college dorm this Saturday so you know what that means, fasting without my family pressuring me to eat every chance they get!

ngl I really was glad that I could visit my family for a while school way getting to be too much for me during finals so this was a great time to reset.

crochet blog

I haven’t had too much time to crochet, but i figured I show what I’ve got done lately

It’s honestly not a lot just because I haven’t been feeling too well, but I plan on doing more in the morning

update found out that it wasn’t just breaking my fast that fucked up my stomach, but also the norovirus so that was a great experience.

I’m doing better now, however my sister accidentally caught it from me so now she’s sick. I took a little bit of a break from posting so that I could recover as all I could do was drink water, sleep, drink more water, vomit, drink even more water then sleep for 10 hours and sleep be exhausted when I get up.

I will say it was nice to sleep so much as I have reallllly bad insomnia and rarely get to sleep more than 2-3 hours. Most of the time I might be able to get 3 hours of sleep but it’s with periods of wakefulness. I feel like every 10 minutes of sleep I get I can’t sleep for 20-30 minutes, I’ve been off of melatonin for a while now just to give my body a break from it as in high school I was taking waay more then the recommended amount for someone of my height and weight.

Yall I broke my fast/ diet restriction and I regret it soo much. Not just because of my weight loss goals, but mainly because everything that I had( which wasn’t much) fucked with my stomach so badly