If requests are still open can I request a fluffy Alex Chen from Life is Stange x Gender Neutral Reader oneshot or headcanons?
Alex Chen x Gn!Reader
Pronouns used: None, no gendered terms either.
Format used: Oneshot.
Of course! In this one shot, Alex has just arrived in town and the reader, a friend from the past, reunites with her and they put on music to dance around. Cause that stuff is cute
Tell me if you want anything changed, I haven't played the game since it was released, so I apologise if I've gotten something wrong here!
You glanced around the tavern which Gabe had previously told you about, opening the doors had greeted you with a one or two people at a few separate tables, barely enough to be considered busy or full. The bartender smiled and greeted you towards him.
"You're new here, I'm guessing you're Alex and Gabes friend? They're in their apartment, chatting, since you're clearly searching for them." He pointed you to the direction of the stairs, you stepped your way toward the stairs, anxiousness setting in.
You were so nervous, you held a fondness on Alex, for all the years you've known her, you couldn't get over the musician. And the thought of finally seeing her again? It filled you with so much joy. Determination, more like, to see her again, to rekindle your friendship.
You noticed that the closer you got to the top, a faint music got louder.
You finally reached the top, stepping into the apartment without warning, and making sure to close the door behind yourself. You had immediately noticed Alex and Gabe dancing to the music, once faint and now the loudest you were sure a speaker could go. After a few moments, Alex opened her eyes right when facing you in an air guiatr move, her furrowed brows, open mouth, and dancing quickly changed into a shocked expression.
It took her a few moments just to fully register what she was seeing, Alex's face was now a relieved, and almost familiar one. You two stared for a few more agonisingly slow seconds, fully taking the sight in after being separated for so long.
"(F/N), you made it!" Gabe spoke, noticing you after seeing Alex had gone still, butting in on your staring session.
Suddenly, a knock was heard from the door you'd previously closed. Alex looked awkwardly between you, Gabe, then the door, an unspoken conversation happening between her and her brother. Gabe pointed to the door.
"I'll... Uhh, go get that?" He changed his point to a thumbs up directed toward his sister and began walking toward the door to answer it. A few words were spoke before footsteps heading down the stairs started. Gabe and the mystery person took whatever was happening downstairs.
Alex turned to me.
"So... Uhm. You're here?" She smiled, swinging her hands forward and back, before realising how that could've sounded, and she quickly put her hands down, adding-
"I'm happy! That you're here, I've... I've missed you. A lot." You smiled happily at her words. Alex seemed to relax at your smile.
"What're you listening to?" You asked, the music which was blaring previously having changed by now. A new, more punk style song played.
"Oh! Right, just uh, listening to some music I like. Wanna 'jam out' with me?" She joked, doing jazz hands and expecting you to have something better to do, or to just deny it. But, instead of any of that, you walked closer and let out a small laugh, taking in Alex's offer seriously.
"Hell yeah! Let's jam!" You looked toward her hands, holding your own out. She grasped yours with only a moments hesitation, you pulled her toward you, moving along with the music in a clumsy and awkwardly fun way.
Alex's moves were slower and relied mostly on you to guide her, her awkwardness causing some missteps or stepping on your shoes. The wild moves you were doing may or may not be causing some damage to your shoes and feet, but so what? It was fun, and Alex was loosening up, making her own moved and letting go of your hands.
Halfway through, you held each others hands again, and felt yourself trip over each other almost a second later, stumbling around before falling on the floor. You laughed, feeling happy tears well in your eyes, both of you were unharmed from the fall, but Alex struggled getting up for a moment. Dizzy from the constant and excitable movement, wobbling and falling onto you again.
You both continued to shriek of laughter, her movements became more free when you both managed to stand. Her laughs were less shy, she finally spoke to you some more, telling you what had happened over her life while you were gone. And even if Alex became contained as she moved and danced along with you. Both of your movements slowed so she could explain everything better. It wasn't a long explanation, as she left out the bad parts.
But, even if Alex wasn't exposing her sensitive side, she was still feeling more open here than she ever had in her life. Both of you never wanting this wonderful moment to end, and feeling the most overjoyed either of you had ever felt in your entire lives.
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1. tonight, I went to go see the black phone in theaters again (one time showing only typa deal, at least where I live, for those curious ig lol) and y'know,,, I've always known this one thing about myself, which is that my brain LOVES the theater. she loves going, she loves the loudness, the atmosphere, she loves it all, even if (clearly) she's seen the movie already. because of this silly little fact, and because I went to go see this silly little movie tonight, as I lay in the comforts of my warm bed and drink my dr.pep and eat my vanilla ice cream...
my brain all the while had apparently been working overtime behind my back. just as my head hit the pillow, she practically punched me in the throat with a fic idea that I just can't pass up. but I fear I have trouble committing, so I cannot promise it'll even come into fruition, let alone get finished. but on the off chance it does and I do... I will leave anyone reading right now with these...
north denver, 1982 (or 3, idk)...
reader is new to town, dresses like a freak, and absolutely does witchy spiritual stuff...
ghost boys reach out to the reader...
something with finney and gwen, the grabber, idk maybe max, too, add in a bit of angst, love, hurt, comfort, allat junk *inahles*...
đâđźit's all a jumbled kerfuffle of thoughts from there, and I'd lowkey like it to be a full blown, multiple part/series/chapter FIC fr, yk? IDKIDK but I see a vision and...yeah. do y'all see the vision?
...am I crazyđ?
moving onđâđ˝...
2. sooner or later (hopefully sooner, though) I will be binging/rewatching life is strange 1 and 2 playthroughs, which will then allow me to add a masterlist for some of the characters I've been wanting to write about for a very long time now, which means requests for those characters will be open once I do (not yet, though lol) :D!!
I've done my fair share of fic reading back when wattpad was my main app, and while they were good for the time, lord knows I haven't touched that app in years and I'm NOT going back. but, unfortunately, there's not a lot of fics on here to read (my heart shattered into pieces when I looked up sean diaz's name and there was basically nothingđđ) and I don't like fooling around with other fic sites, so, as usual, I must be the one to fill the void left both on this app and in my heart.
you're welcomeđ¤â¨ď¸ (kidding, ish-).
anyways, that's about it for now (other than the 80+ requests I'm working on currently), thanks for reading whatever this is you wanna call it, byeeeee /á -С-ă/.
Rules:
no pedophilia or blood related incest (I dont mind step cest but it depends)
Be respectful in general especially if you want to critique my writing [please do give me advice, my goal is to be a decent writer :)]
No smut (yet), not experienced in writing smut or really comfortable with it (yet)
will add more if anything comes up
Last of us
Twisted wonderland
Arcane (mostly wlw)
Blue eye samurai
Deadpool & Wolverine
Spider-man
Danganronpa
Life is strange 1/before the storm
more will come once I play or watch it.
Nathan Prescott X Fem!Reader
masterlist
So i have a few conflicting emotions when it comes to this character. from when i found the game I hated this guy. Though like most people there is an ounce of remorse that we feel for this character. However, my love for him is so conflicting because as much as he is a victim, he is the reason for what happened to rachel. Anyways here is my little story with my conflicting feelings. ALSO YOU CAN SAY HE ISNâT AT FAULT BUT HE IS. just because he was lead to these decisions does not mean he still didnât do them.
âFuck off, Prescott!â Your voice snapped down the hall, sharp enough to make a freshman nearly drop his textbooks.
Nathan, slouched against the lockers like he owned the goddamn place, gave a slow, mocking clap. âWow. Real mature, (Y/L/N). You kiss your mommy with that mouth?â His tone was lazy, but his eyes pinned you like a bug to a wall.
You marched toward him, shoving your bag higher onto your shoulder. âIâd rather kiss a loaded shotgun than deal with your shit for the next two weeks.â
Nathan pushed off the locker with a sneer, standing tall. Taller than you, not that youâd ever admit it.
âNewsflash, bitch you think I wanna work with you?â he snapped, crumpling the project assignment sheet in his fist. âIâd rather fucking drown in a Porta Potty.â
You jabbed a finger into his chest a stupid move, because under all that overpriced denim and leather, he was solid muscle but you were way past giving a shit. âThen drop out, Prescott. No one would miss you.â
For a split second, something flickered in his eyes. You couldnât tell because just as fast, he leaned in closer, face twisted in a sneer. âYouâd miss me, sweetheart. You need someone to take your boring ass life up a notch.â His voice was low, practically a growl. âYouâre so desperate for excitement youâll probably fucking love having me around.â
âYouâre delusional,â you spat, shoving past him.
But Nathan wasnât done. He followed, keeping pace easily, his voice dropping into that dangerous, mocking tone he used when he wanted to pick someone apart. âFace it. Youâre just pissed because you have to finally realized youâre not better than me.â
You whirled around, nearly slamming into his chest. âI am better than you,â you hissed, close enough to see the fine scars nicking the side of his jaw, the ones most people didnât notice under the arrogant smirk. âI donât have to buy my friends, or bribe my teachers â
Nathan laughed, sharp and ugly. âYeah? Keep telling yourself that, bitch. Maybe one day youâll actually believe it.â
The tension between you vibrated like a taut wire, ready to snap. Across the hall, Mr. Jefferson poked his head out of his classroom door. âEverything okay over there?â
You both spoke at the same time:
âFine,â you said through gritted teeth.
âPeachy,â Nathan drawled with a fake grin.
Mr. Jefferson raised an eyebrow but disappeared back into the classroom without another word. Nathan turned back to you, the smile dropping immediately. âWeâre meeting at the library. Tomorrow. Four oâclock,â he said, his voice all business now, like he could barely stand to look at you.
âDonât be fucking late, (Y/L/N). I donât wanna waste more time than I have to babysitting your dumbass.â
You gave a mocking bow. âOh, your majesty. Should I bring you a goddamn throne too?â
Nathan just rolled his eyes, shoving his hands deep into his jacket pockets as he stalked off down the hall without another glance at you. You stood there, fists clenched, heart pounding. God, you hated Nathan Prescott.
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The library clock ticked past 4:00 PM. You drummed your fingers on the table, glaring at the empty seat across from you. Your notebook lay open, pen uncapped. Still no Nathan.
At 4:17, he finally strolled in with all the grace of someone who gave absolutely zero fucks sunglasses on indoors, slouched walk, earphones dangling. You didnât disappoint. âYouâre fucking late,â you snapped the second he dropped into the chair across from you with a loud, obnoxious scrape. Nathan didnât even look at you. Just threw his bag on the table, knocking your pen to the floor.
âCry harder.â
You scoffed. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âYeah? Soâs your face, but here we are.â
You clenched your jaw, grabbing your pen. âYou gonna actually contribute or just sit there throwing middle school insults?â
Nathan pulled out a crumpled folder and dropped it onto the table like it weighed ten pounds. âI already did my part. You can finish it. Youâre the one who actually gives a shit.â
âYou call this your part?â You flipped through the papers of barely legible answers. âThis looks like it was written by a brain damaged raccoon.â
He smirked. âWell you and the raccoon have something in common. Both canât shut the fuck up.â
You leaned in, voice low and furious. âIâm not doing this whole thing alone, Prescott. If I fail because of your lazy, coke snorting ass, Iâll make sure you regret it.â
Nathan leaned back in his chair, arms crossed, gaze dark and slow. âBlow me, princess.â
You didnât flinch. You just smiled. Sweet. Cold. âI donât do charity work.â
A few heads turned. You didnât care. Neither did he. Nathan barked out a laugh bitter, humorless and sat forward again, voice tighter. âYou think youâre tough?â
âNo,â you said, deadly calm. âI know Iâm better than you. You just hate that I donât suck up to your daddyâs money like everyone else in this school.â
His smile dropped like a stone. âYouâre right,â he said, quiet and sharp. âYouâre not like everyone else. Youâre just louder, bitchier, and a hell of a lot more annoying.â
âAt least I donât need pills and daddyâs lawyers to make it through the day.â
âFuck you,â he muttered, but he opened the book anyway. Slouched so low in his chair you wondered how he could even see the words.
You tried to focus on your own work, but the sound of Nathan tapping his pen against the table made your skin itch. Every two minutes he let out a sigh, a groan, or muttered some sarcastic shit under his breath.
Finally, you snapped.
âIf you hate this so much, maybe you shouldâve told Jefferson to pair you with someone who gives a shit about your trust fund problems.â Nathan slammed the book closed so hard it made a few nearby students jump.
âYeah, because youâre so fucking perfect, huh? Probably got your whole boring little life planned out already. Graduate, go to some shitty state school, get a lame job, marry some douchebag with a Prius â
âAt least Iâm not gonna OD in my daddyâs beach house!â you hissed back, the words out before you could stop them.
The library went deadly quiet. Even the air seemed to freeze. Nathanâs eyes darkened. His whole face twisted, raw and ugly, and for a terrifying second, you thought he might actually throw something at you. Instead, he stood up so fast his chair tipped over behind him.
âFuck this,â he snarled.
The librarian barked from the desk, âHey! shut up or get out!â
Nathan didnât even flinch. He grabbed his bag and stormed out, shoving the door open so hard it banged against the wall. You stayed frozen in your seat, chest heaving, throat tight. Some students stared. Others pretended not to notice. Slowly, you packed up your things, the shame burning hotter than your anger now.
You left the library with your jaw tight and your fists clenched so hard your nails bit into your palms. Screw him. Screw his smug face, his broken homework, and that goddamn mouth that never shut up unless he was about to say something even worse.
The cold air outside was a slap, but it helped. You headed toward the dorms, steps quick and angry. Until you heard footsteps behind you. You glanced over your shoulder and sure enough, Nathan Prescott was trailing you, jacket half zipped, jaw set like heâd been chewing on broken glass. You stopped. âAre you seriously following me now? What, storming out wasnât enough for you?â
Nathan didnât stop until he was right in front of you. Too close. âWhy the fuck are you always such a bitch to me?â he snapped.
You blinked. That⌠wasnât what you expected. âExcuse me?â
âDonât play dumb,â he bit, eyes narrowed. âWeâve barely spoken before this week, and you act like youâve got me all figured out. Youâre always ready to throw shit at me like you know me.â
Your mouth opened, but no words came. For once, he wasnât just being snide he was pissed, yeah, but there was something else under it. Something sharper. Real.
âWhat the hell did I do to you, huh?â he went on, voice rising. âWeâve never had a conversation before Jefferson paired us up, and you already decided Iâm the devil or some shit.â
âYouâve got a reputation, Prescott. Donât act surprised.â
He laughed. One dry, humorless breath. âYeah? So thatâs it? Some gossip, and suddenly you know who I am?â
You crossed your arms. âI donât need to know you. Iâve seen enough.â
âNo, youâve seen what you want to see.â He leaned in slightly, voice low. âYou think Iâm some rich junkie asshole with a fucked up temper and a silver spoon so far up my ass I choke on it, right?â You didnât answer. The silence said enough. Nathanâs tongue pressed against his cheek. He nodded slowly, like he was trying to swallow something bitter. âRight. Thought so.â
You shifted your weight. âLook, you act like a dick, Nathan. You treat people like theyâre beneath you.â
âAnd you treat me like Iâm already guilty of something I didnât even fucking do.â His tone turned colder. âSo what does that make you? If youâre throwing labels at someone without even trying to know them?â
You tried to shove past him, but he stepped in front of you again not touching you, but close enough to make your blood burn. âWhat? Canât handle hearing it? Youâre so sure youâre better than me?â
âI am better than you.â
âNo,â he said, voice like ice, âwhat kind of self righteous bullshit is thatâ
You stared at him. His eyes werenât glazed or cocky like usual, they were clear. You hated how it made your stomach twist. âJust stay the hell away from me,â you muttered.
He didnât move. âThen stop talking about me like you know me. Because you donât. And judging by today?â He tilted his head slightly, mouth curled in something bitter. âYouâre not half as perfect as you like to pretend.â Then he finally stepped aside, letting you pass. But his words followed you all the way down the sidewalk.
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You moved through the halls walking beside Max while she rambled about her latest photo concept. Her words blurred something about natural light, shadows, an abandoned greenhouse. You nodded here and there, but your attention wasnât really on her. Nathan Prescott stood across the hall, leaned casually against the lockers in that crimson red sweater he always wore like armor. His hands were shoved into his pockets, posture slouched, head tilted toward Victoria, who was perched beside him. She was talking fast probably gossiping and he was barely listening. His expression was eyes distant.
âHey, you good?â Max asked, her voice soft as she glanced sideways at you.
You blinked, pulled from your thoughts. âYeah. Just out of it.â
She smiled lightly. âBlackwellâll do that to you.â
Across the hall, Nathan looked up. His eyes met yours. You expected him to smirk. Or scoff. Or whisper something to Victoria that would piss you off all over again. He didnât. He just held your gaze. There was no fire in it this time.
Then Max nudged your shoulder. âCâmon, weâll be late.â
You turned, walking with her toward class, but the moment stuck with you like a thorn beneath skin. He wasnât just some cautionary tale wearing expensive clothes. you werenât as far above the mess as you liked to pretend.
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You werenât sure what possessed you to do it. Youâd barely knocked twice before the door to Nathanâs dorm creaked open, not wide, just enough for a glimpse of his sharp glare and the darkened room behind him. His eyes narrowed. âWhat the hell are you doing here?â
âI came to work on the project,â you replied, shifting your weight.âYou bailed on the library. I didnât have your number.â
Nathan blinked once. Then, without warning, he reached out, grabbed your wrist, and yanked you inside. âJesus!â The door slammed shut behind you. Before you could blink again, you were standing in the middle of his room dim, cluttered, with a faint smell of smoke and expensive cologne in the air. The only light came from a lamp on his desk, casting long shadows across the mess of camera equipment, crumpled notes, and an open bottle of water. He stood between you and the door, arms crossed, expression sharp.
âYou shouldnât be in the guysâ dorm.â
You rolled your eyes. âItâs not that deep, Prescott.â
âNo,â he said, stepping a little closer, âitâs pathetic. You that desperate to see me? You stalking me now? Perv.â
You stared at him. âAre you always this fucking dramatic?â you snapped. âI came to work. On the project. The thing thatâs due next week?â
He raised an eyebrow. âYou couldnât just ask for my number?â
âlike your ass would indulge me in any conversationâ
Nathan scoffed, running a hand through his hair. âAnd barging into my dorm was the better option?â
âYou ditched me. Again.â You crossed your arms, mirroring him. âIâm not playing chase the rich kid so you can pretend this group project doesnât exist. I showed up so we can finish the damn thing.â
He stared at you for a long beat.
Then, quietly, âYouâre a fucking pain in my ass.â
âIâm passing this class.â
He turned away, flopping onto the edge of his unmade bed, elbows on his knees. âFine,â he muttered. âIf youâre gonna stand there taking over my space, grab a chair. Letâs get it over with.â You hesitated. Just for a second. Then sat down across from him silently waiting for Nathan to open the shared project file. But your eyes kept drifting. His desk was cluttered High end camera bodies rested in velvet lined foam. Lenses of varying sizes were stacked in an open case like polished glass trophies. Film rolls peeked out of a drawer he hadnât shut properly. And on the wall above his bed, pinned with silver tacks, were photos.
Black and white. Grainy. Sharp.
Some were of strangers street shots, harsh shadows and sharp angles. Others were more abstract: empty chairs, cracked pavement, tree limbs twisting through fog. You didnât mean to stare so long. But the compositions were striking. Not what youâd expected from someone who talked like he didnât care about anything. Nathan sat on the edge of his bed, laptop open in front of him, fingers frozen over the keyboard. he wasnât looking at the screen. He was watching you. Eyes low beneath his lashes, The tension from earlier had settled into something quieter not calm, exactly, but less volatile. He noticed the way your head tilted slightly as you studied a particular photo on the wall, your brow furrowed in faint curiosity. You looked different when you werenât trying to bite back. He blinked, shook the thought away like an itch under his skin, and finally tapped the space bar.
âYou gonna drool or you wanna help?â he muttered, loud enough to snap your attention back.
You blinked, jerking your head toward him. âExcuse me?â
âYouâre staring at my shitâ
You scoffed. âI was just surprised youâre actually good at something other than being an asshole.â
A grin flickered across his lips. âWow. Touching praise from someone who broke into my dorm.â
âI didnât break in.â
âguys dorm remember? Thatâs trespassing.â
You opened your mouth to fire back then caught the way his voice softened just slightly on that last word. Not enough to call it kind. You leaned forward, finally dragging the chair toward his desk. âJust show me what youâve done so far. Weâre not gonna finish anything if you keep acting like I poisoned your coffee.â He exhaled slowly, shifting the laptop so you could both see the screen. But his gaze lingered on you a second longer before turning to the document. You didnât notice. He didnât say anything.
You didnât know how it happened but somewhere between reviewing the first slides and editing the captions, the two of you had stopped biting at each other. Nathan wasnât exactly friendly, but he was⌠tolerable. He made a sarcastic comment about your font choice, and you rolled your eyes but didnât snap. You pointed out a typo in his work, and he didnât bark back, just muttered âYeah, alright,â under his breath and fixed it.
life is strange isnt it?
The lamp on his desk cast a warm glow across the screen as the two of you leaned closer, arguing mildly about the placement of one of the images. You caught a soft twitch at the corner of his mouth not a smile, not quite but something quieter, like he wasnât entirely annoyed you were here anymore. You glanced at the photo on the slide. One of his shots: a boy sitting on a curb, face obscured by shadow, light cutting sharp across his shoulder. âThis oneâs your best,â you said before you could stop yourself. Nathanâs eyes flicked to yours, He didnât say anything. Just stared. Then, his phone buzzed.
Once.
Twice.
He glanced down, pulled it from his pocket lazily, still half focused on the screen. But the moment his eyes locked onto the message, something in him changed. Like a switch flipped. His shoulders tensed. Jaw tightened. Whatever softness had started to settle between you evaporated. He shoved the phone back into his pocket hard. You straightened, uncertain. âEverything okay?â
He didnât answer right away.
Then voice low, clipped âYou should go.â
The air dropped ten degrees.
You blinked. âWhat?â
âI said, you should leave.â He stood abruptly, already walking past you, pacing like the room had become too small to breathe in.
You stood, confused, watching him retreat toward the window without explanation.
âNathan â
âDonât,â he snapped, not turning around. âItâs fine. Projectâs fine. everything is fine. the world is fucking fine. Iâll send you the edits later.â
His voice was cold again. The weight was back in the room, that same heaviness youâd felt the first time he looked at you like you were just another person here to take something from him. You didnât know who had texted him. Or why he looked like the ground had just shifted beneath him. But you didnât ask. You grabbed your bag, slinging it over your shoulder slowly. âThanks for not being a total dick today,â you said quietly.
No response. You walked to the door, hesitating just a moment before opening it. Nathan still hadnât turned around. So you left quietly, without another word. The hallway light stung your eyes as the door clicked shut behind you.
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Nathan laid on his back, eyes wide open, blinking into the ceiling. He hadnât moved in hours not really. Heâd thrown on a hoodie sometime after you left, curled in on himself, and stared at nothing as the hours bled past midnight. His phone buzzed again. Another message. From the same number. He didnât read it. His chest felt tight. He could hear his own breathing too fast, too shallow. His hands twitched where they gripped the edge of his mattress, fingers white knuckled and cold. It wasnât the first time this had happened. But it felt worse tonight. Now shame thick in his throat, desperation louder than pride, he opened the school directory, found your name, and typed your number in. He stared at the digits for a long time. Then, he hit Call.
You woke up to the buzz of your phone on your nightstand, groggy and confused.
1:47 AM. Unknown Number.
You almost ignored it. Almost. Though you firmly believed doing stuff for the plot leads to funnier futures.
âHello?â
For a few seconds, there was only silence. Then a quiet breath. A small, almost inaudible noise. Then, âDonât hang up.â
Your heart stilled. âNathan?â
âUm⌠hi?â you said slowly. âWhy are you â
âI justâŚâ He sounded off. His voice was low, but shaky. Like he was trying to keep it together. âI canât sleep.â
You were quiet for a second. Not sure what to say. It was weird. You barely knew him. The guy who made it very clear he didnât want to work with you suddenly calling you in the middle of the night? The hell? âHow did you get my number?â
âSchool directory. Look, I know itâs fucking weird, okay? Just fuck just donât hang up yet.â
You leaned back in your bed, running a hand down your face. The annoyance faded just a little. There was something raw under his words, something fraying at the edges.
You exhaled. âAlright. Iâm not hanging up. Whatâs going on?â
He didnât answer right away. You heard him breathing though sharp inhales, shallow. Like he was pacing, or panicking.
âI just needed noise or something. I dunno. Itâs like my chestâs full of needles.â
Okay. That was more than you expected. You pushed your blanket off and sat up fully, rubbing your eyes awake.
âOkay,â you said softly. âSounds like a panic attack.â
He let out a laugh. It was bitter. Dry. âNo shit.â
You stayed quiet a second, then started talking. Not about anything important just things to fill the space. You told him about the way your floorboards creaked weirdly when it got cold. The dumb poster your roommate hung crooked. The vending machine that kept eating your dollar bills. You werenât sure why he stayed on the line. You werenât sure why you did, either. But the minutes passed, and you could hear his breathing start to even out.
At one point, he said, quieter this time, âI didnât know who else to call.â
You didnât know what to say to that. So you didnât say anything. He stayed on the line until you heard nothing but slow, steady breathing. Then the call ended. You thought that was it. Just a one time weird moment. But the next night, your phone buzzed again.
Unknown Number. 12:18 AM.
You stared at it for a second. Then picked up. âCouldnât sleep again?â
âFuck off,â Nathan muttered, but his voice didnât sound angry.
just like that, it became a thing. Not every night, but often enough. Heâd call, and youâd talk him through it. Or heâd just listen while you rambled about whatever was in your head. Sometimes he didnât even say much. Youâd just hear his breathing. Then, one night, a text.
[1:03 AM] âDormâs a pressure cooker tonight. Need to get out. You up?â
You blinked down at it, thumb hovering over the screen. Then replied. âok fuckboy, Where?â
[1:04 AM] âBack side of the art building. If youâre not scared of the dark or whatever.â
You pulled a hoodie over your head and slipped out the side door, keeping your steps light across the grass. You found him sitting on the low concrete wall, hoodie on, legs stretched out, a cigarette burning between his fingers. He didnât look at you when you walked up.
âSo⌠you make a habit of calling girls you donât like at 1 a.m.?â you asked, standing over him.
He smirked, flicking ash. âYouâre the only one dumb enough to answer.â
âLucky me.â
He scooted over slightly. You sat down next to him, knees brushing briefly. He smelled faintly like smoke and laundry detergent. For a minute, neither of you said anything. Then he muttered, âThanks. For not being a dick about the calls.â
You glanced at him. That was probably the closest thing to a thank you he was capable of. âYeah, well,â you said, nudging him with your shoulder, âIâm not completely heartless.â
He gave a dry little laugh and took another drag. And for the first time since youâd met him, Nathan didnât seem like he was pretending to be someone else.You hopped up beside him, the wall cold through your jeans. He handed you the cig wordlessly, and you took a drag, passing it back before pulling your phone from your hoodie pocket.
Three missed texts.
[1:52 AM Warren G.]
Where are you right now?
[1:53 AM Warren G.]
I just saw you from my window. Was that Nathan Prescott? Seriously??
[1:54 AM Warren G.]
[Y/N], what are you doing with him?
You stared at the screen for a long second, then locked it and shoved it deep into your pocket. You werenât answering that.Warren was probably the reason you hated him so much. Right now Instead, you pulled a small joint from the hem of your hoodie tucked right where your sleeve met the wristband.
Nathanâs eyes tracked the motion, brow raising. âSince when do you carry?â
âSince tonight, apparently.â You lit it with a flick of a borrowed lighter, watching the paper curl into orange.
Nathan smirked faintly, but there was a flash of something in his face, curiosity. Not judgment. Just⌠surprise. âRough night?â
You took a long pull, exhaled upward. âYou could say that.â
You didnât mention Warren. Didnât mention the way your phone buzzed in your pocket like it was desperate to ruin the quiet. Nathan didnât push. He just leaned back on his elbows, watching the smoke twist into the dark sky. What has been different from when you started interacting with Nathan more was not telling your friends everything. Warren might be the only reason you didnt like the guy that was sitting beside you. Though even hes such a stick in the mid sometimes.
âNot bad form,â he muttered.
âThanks.â
He gave a soft snort, and for a minute, the tension dropped. You passed the joint over, and he took it without a word. The smoke danced lazily in the air between you, catching in the wind and disappearing into nothing. You leaned back beside him, body loose from the hit, brain a little fogged like your thoughts were wearing fuzzy socks on a hardwood floor. Nathan took another drag, eyes half lidded, and passed it back to you. You didnât take it this time. Just stared forward, hands braced behind you, legs kicked out.
âYou know,â you started, voice a little slower than usual, like you had to fish the words from somewhere murky, âI think I like you more than I realized.â Silence. You looked over, then quickly back at the dark stretch of campus in front of you. âI mean maybe itâs the high talking. Or maybe Iâm just sleep deprived and having a brain glitch. Whatever.â You waved it off like it wasnât a big deal, even though it felt like one. âItâs not like I know you, know you, butâŚâ
You trailed off. The buzz of the joint mixed with the weight of that little truth hanging out in the open air now. Nathan blinked at you and then scoffed. âWow,â he muttered with a crooked smile. âYou catch feelings off one joint and a sad boy routine?.â
You turned to glare at him. âShut up.â
âNo, really. Should I light candles next time? Bring you flowers? Write you some poetry?â His grin stretched You went to snap back but then his hand brushed against yours on the concrete. Not accidental. He didnât look at you when he did it. He just let his fingers slide over yours, catching them loosely. His palm was warm. Steady. You didnât say anything. Didnât look at him. Just stared at the building lights across the quad and let your hand stay in his.
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You hadnât slept. Not really. Instead, youâd just laid there, reliving every second behind the art building Nathanâs hand in yours. he was warm. so warm. his eyes were glossy. the night ended later than any of you two could gather. Blackwell always felt a little gray in the morning, but today it there might have been a little pep in your step. Cold in the air, a small little nathan shaped warmth in your chest. You stepped into the hallway and spotted him before you were even fully through the door.
Nathan. Leaning against a locker laughing at something Victoria said, though it didnât look real. Nothing about him did anymore. You slowed for just a second. âShit,â he muttered, loud enough to carry. âShouldâve known the freak parade would show up early.â
Victoria snorted. âGod, can she not?â Her eyes flicked over your clothes like she was personally offended by the fabric. âEvery dayâs a fashion crime with her.â
You froze mid step. Max and Warren were behind you, chatting, not realizing what you were walking into. Your heart stung before your brain could even process what was happening. Nathan pushed off the locker, brushing past you with a smug little smile. âHope the janitors are getting paid extra,â he sneered, âcleaning up after your desperation.â
âWhat the hell, Prescott?â Warren stepped in fast, hand fisting at his side.
Nathan turned back, cocky, dangerous. âRelax, boy scout. Didnât realize you two were still sharing notes. Or maybe itâs more than that, huh?â His eyes swept to you again, slower this time, and colder. âFigures. Nobody else would.â
ok pause. because what the fuck happened. Like yes he was an ass. the whole school knew that. Though considering the amount of time he was crawling into your messages, where the hell did this come from?
âKeep walking,â Max said lowly, stepping up beside you.
Max didnât press. She never did. That was the nice thing about her. Since starting the school year, you both bonded on being new. well for you, relatively new and her coming back to her hometown.
Warren, though? At lunch, he was full of energy, waving you over like always. You sat down beside him and Max at your usual table under the half broken patio umbrella. He was in the middle of some rant about science fiction film logic when it happened.
âIâm just saying if a robot gains sentience, it doesnât automatically mean it wants to kill us. Thatâs lazy writing â
From across the quad, a loud snort cut him off.
âWow,â Victoria said, not even bothering to keep her voice down. âLook whoâs still wearing last seasonâs clearance rack.â
You blinked, confused, until you realized she was looking directly at you. Taylor giggled beside her, but it was Nathan who made your stomach drop. He pointed toward once at your table and leaned over to whisper something to Victoria. Then, loud enough for everyone near to hear âShe shouldâve stayed invisible. Worked better for her.â
Max stiffened beside you. âJesus. What is their problem today?â
Warren stood up, indignant. âHey. Why donât you back off, Prescott?â
Nathan didnât even look at him. His eyes were on you and they werenât blank. They were cold. Icy. âRelax,â he said, tone bored. âJust making an observation.â
âYou want me to make one too?â Warren snapped. âLike how youâre always hiding behind Victoriaâs designer knockoffs?â
Victoria gasped like sheâd been slapped. âExcuse me?â
Max grabbed Warrenâs arm. âNot worth it,â she said quietly. You sat disguted. Nathanâs stare found you again. And just before he turned away, he said it not loud, but loud enough. âBetter keep your pets on a leash.â
Then he walked off. Victoria followed, heels snapping against the pavement. The rest of the Vortex Club trailed behind them like spoiled royalty. You didnât finish your lunch. You barely tasted anything after that. Max rubbed your shoulder gently, concern in her eyes. âYou okay?â
You nodded. You lied. Because all you could hear was his voice, cold and clean and cutting a thousand miles from the one youâd heard whispering into the phone at 1 A.M. Like none of it had happened. Like you hadnât happened.
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His eyes met yours, and for the first time all day, he was actually looking at you in the eyes. âHey,â he said, voice soft.
You didnât say it back.Instead, you stepped past him and into the room like it was a business meeting. Camera bag down. Laptop open. The wall between you and him went up brick by brick with every breath. âLetâs just get this done,â you said.
He didnât argue. Just shut the door behind you quietly. You sat at his desk, the screen glow lighting your face. He hovered nearby, watching you scroll through edits like he didnât want to say the wrong thing. Or maybe like he didnât know how to say anything at all. âI fixed the lighting on the last three shots,â you said flatly. âYours were a little overexposed.â
He nodded. âYeah. Youâre better at that stuff anyway.â
You didnât respond. Just kept clicking. He moved to sit on the edge of his bed, quiet for a while before asking, âDid you still wanna use that photo by the fountain?â
âI already did.â
He rubbed the back of his neck, glanced at you, then away. âYou, uh⌠didnât answer my text this morning.â
You didnât look at him. âDidnât think it needed a reply.â
Nathan nodded, jaw tight. âRight.â
Back to silence. He didnât bring up what happened. Didnât ask how you were. And you didnât bring it up either not how heâd ignored you all day, not how the only time he seemed to be kind was when it was dark out and nobody else could see. Not how you were starting to wonder if this was all he had to give. Just this. Only at night. Only when no one else was looking. You highlighted a paragraph of text and rewrote it. He leaned closer, trying to peek at the screen.
âYouâre really good at this,â he said quietly.
You flinched. Not visibly but inside, your bones rattled. It felt like a visceral reaction. You kept your voice neutral. âWeâre almost done.â
He didnât say anything else. You sat there together for another half hour, finishing edits. His bed creaked once when he shifted. You didnât look. Eventually, you saved the file and stood up.
âThatâs everything,â you said. âIâll print it in the morning.â
Nathan watched you gather your things. âYou donât have to go yet,â he said, almost hesitant.
But you did. if he had just said something, you might understand. Though there isnt enough time in the world to be chasing after rich boy problems he doesnt want to address.
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She left.
Didnât even look back. Just walked out of the dorm like she couldnât get out fast enough. Yeah. That felt about right. Nathan stood there like an idiot, hands in his pockets, jaw tight, listening to the door click shut. it was some kind of final answer he didnât ask for. You donât have to go yet. Heâd said it like a damn loser. Like he didnât spend the entire day pretending she didnât exist. she looked at him like he was a goddamn stranger. He sat down on his bed, rubbed at his face, dragged his hands through his hair like it would help. It didnât. It never did. Everything just kept buzzing. Loud. In his ears, in his chest, like a swarm of flies under his skin. He shouldâve said something. Anything. Shouldâve told her why he was being weird. Why he was quiet. Why he didnât even look at her earlier. But how the hell do you say,
Hey, Iâm scared youâll end up in the basement of an abandoned barn if I like you too much?
He laughed. Or choked. One of the two. God, his hands were shaking again. He stood up fast, paced once, twice, kicked his desk chair just to feel something and regretted it immediately. His toe throbbed. Whatever.
He was sweating. Why was he sweating?
He pulled off the red zip up and threw it at the wall. Didnât stick. Just slumped down like everything else. Jeffersonâs voice. Crawling back in like it always did.
âSheâs interesting, isnât she?â
âGot a real⌠natural quality. Honest.â
âThe kind of face that looks good in contrast. You see it, right?â
âSheâs got potential.â
Nathan squeezed his eyes shut, gritting his teeth. âShut up, shut up, shut up.â
It didnât help. Jeffersonâs voice was calm. Already chosen.He didnât want that. He didnât want her anywhere near that world.But what the hell was he supposed to do? Jefferson noticed things. once he noticed, it was over. Nathan dropped back onto the floor, breathing fast now. heâd been running. someone was pressing down on his lungs and wouldnât stop. He clutched his shirt, pulled at the collar, trying to get air. Trying to slow his thoughts. His heart. Anything. But it wouldnât fucking slow down.
His vision blurred a little. Pressure in his head, behind his eyes. He bit down hard on the inside of his cheek just to stop himself from crying or screaming or both.
He felt like he was going to throw up. Or pass out. Or explode. or all of the above. it all might actually happen. He didnât know what was worse, the fact that he couldnât be normal with her⌠or the fact that when he was, it made him want to protect her more than anything. That protection came with a cost. A choice. A name on a folder.
She didnât know any of it. And she couldnât.
until there was a knock at the door.
Nathan didnât hear it the first time. Not really. Not over the ringing in his ears, or the ragged, frantic way he was trying to breathe. His back hit the wall. He didnât remember moving. His hands were white knuckled fists against his chest like maybe that would keep it from splitting open.
Another knock.
He blinked. Everything was too bright and too dark at the same time. His name was a whisper behind the door âNathan?â
Her voice. It hit him like ice water. He squeezed his eyes shut harder, digging his nails into his palms. Not now. Not like this. He couldnât let her see him like
The door creaked open.
She stepped in fast, muttering under her breath, âGod, of course I forgot my charger, thatâs just whatever, not like it even â
She stopped. Frozen. Nathan was on the floor. Slumped against the side of his bed, drenched in sweat, fists clenched so tight they shook. His chest heaved, erratic. Panicked. His face was pale, eyes red rimmed, wide and glassy. All that anger sheâd brought with her white hot and ready to crack across the room halted like someone slammed the brakes. Her words died in her throat.
ââŚNathan?â
He still didnât look at her. Just gasped, breath catching hard in his throat, jaw clenched like he was trying not to cry. Or scream. Or both.
Her fingers curled around the charger in her hand. For a second, she stayed rooted to the floor, her heart pounding in her ears. Part of her screamed to turn around and walk away. He deserved that. After everything. Nathan barely registered when she moved closer. He couldnât even look at her. Just pressed his fists against his temples like that would keep everything from collapsing.
She hovered there for a second, jaw tight, arms crossed. âYouâre an asshole,â she muttered. Quiet. Bitter.
He looked like he couldnât breathe. Cursing under her breath, she dropped the charger on his desk and stepped closer. Her knees hit the carpet slowly, hesitantly, right in front of him. She crouched down between his legs, biting her lip, watching him like he was whipped animal. She didnât say anything right away. Just reached out, unsure, and carefully took his shaking hand.
Nathan flinched. Then his eyes finally lifted, just a little. Glassy. Bloodshot. Like he didnât recognize her at first. But he didnât pull away.
âJesusâŚâ she whispered, trying to keep her voice steady. âNathan, youâre what the hell is going on with you?â
Still no answer. His fingers twitched in hers, breath still coming fast and shallow, but her hand grounded him. Little by little. Beat by beat. She wanted to yell. She really did. Wanted to scream at him for ignoring her. For looking through her like she didnât matter. For pushing her away with no reason, no explanation, no damn warning.
Nathanâs breath hitched. His fingers twitched under hers, unsure, but desperate for the anchor. He gripped her hand like it was the only thing keeping him tethered to the floor.
âBreathe,â she said, voice flat but steady. âIn. Out.â
He tried. God, he tried.
âAgain.â
His lungs caught on the exhale, but he followed her voice. One breath. Then another. Her thumb moved gently across his knuckles. She didnât look at him. He didnât look at her. They just sat there. Angry. Shaking. Breathing.
âIâm still mad at you,â she said quietly. Just the truth.
All she could do was sit there. Mad. Hurt. Holding onto his hand like it was the only way to keep him from falling apart.
âIâm still pissed at you,â she murmured, after a long, long silence. âBut Iâm not gonna leave you like this.â
Nathan blinked hard. A tear slipped down his cheek before he could stop it. He looked away.
And still, she didnât let go.