Infp Thoughts - Blog Posts
Me
i gave up, on me
im my only mine
and i gave up on me.
i have no value
and there's no worth to me
my efforts & my work
has proven nothing to me
stranger in the mirror
becoming more unappealing to me
i was my only mine
and i gave up on me
we were great together
for brief of time
it was a fun 'we'
i wasted our time
like gold but free
guess I'll never know myself
and whats holding me back
is this the voice of someone else?
or a deliberate devil inside of me?
well, i should not bother
and get used to things
as they are, maybe.
because, it's my ability
to not change, and waste my youth
probably.
its snowballing downwards
absorbing and destroying everything
the end won't be peaceful
the end won't be prettty
i owe my life to someone else
there is nothing in me
i was my only mine
and i give up, on me
Adulting to me involves the stuffy things I have to do to survive. Usually, somehow forcing myself to be a good little human by skirting around the outer edges of society.
This world forces people to suffer hours every day just so they can eat and live under a warm roof. What kind of world is this? Why isn’t food and safety a right? Why are people struggling with more than one job just to feed their children? This is a broken world.
So I have to pretend to be like the rest of the poor souls and adult my way through life. Push myself in ways I haven’t before. Pay a bill for something that makes no sense to me. Don’t even get me started on taxes. Why am I working just so some invisible entity can steal it all away?
Is that being an adult? Or a blind pushover?
“Adulting” only reminds me of what I dislike about this planet. There is so much more to living than being forced to sit in front of blinding screens and working our fingers raw for a mere nickel that will only be stolen away in the end.
I want people to see how beautiful life can be. That the pressures we face daily aren’t what being alive is about. Life is about expanding our minds and entwining our hearts with those we love. Everything else is an unnecessary burden to bury in an empty field, then covered over in blue wildflowers.
Forget this adulting business. It isn’t being an adult to take on these responsibilities. It just means a person is old enough to officially take on roles we’ve been trained for since we first stepped foot into school as children. All those long years of brainwashing just for these happy moments of being an adult. I’m not particularly proud of what humanity is doing to itself. *sighs and wanders off*
Things That I Needed To Hear But Never Did (Part Two):
- Someone loves you, somewhere. Even if you feel like they don't. They do. They do. I promise you, they do.
- You're important to someone. You're just as important to someone as they are you. To them, you are the first choice.
- Nothing is wrong with you. There is no coding that needs to be fixed.
- You are you, and that is so great and so important, and you are unique and original. No one could ever replace you.
- Someone will fall for you as much as you fall for them. Those sappy notes and letters you write? Someone will do the same for you.
- Hugs are important. Physical affection is important. Not everything results in you getting hurt.
- Someone would die for you as much as you would them.
- You matter in someone else's world. You are apart of their story as they are yours.
- You can and will be found.
- The darkness isn't forever.
- If you disappear, someone will go on a journey to find you.
- There will be someone that will never, ever leave you despite anything you say or go through.
Things I Needed To Hear But Never Did:
- You are enough. No matter what, you are enough.
- It's okay to not be okay.
- Never stay in toxic relationships. Run away as far as you can from them.
- People break your heart. And it's okay. And it's okay to feel like you will never live again. You'll survive. I promise.
- You deserve the love you give others too.
- You deserve to be protected.
- It's okay to be vulnerable.
- Opening up to others is beneficial. Not every person will be as untrustful as the first. You can trust some.
- You deserve love. You deserve affection. You deserve a personal connection.
- Someone misses you somewhere.
- You don't have to be perfect. Perfection isn't the key to everything.
- Apologies may fix it in words, but actions are what really matter.
- Love yourself before you try and love anyone else.
- They're not staring at you. They don't hate you. Breathe. It's okay. You're okay. Everything is okay. No need to panic.
Fun Facts About Me (Part Two):
- I fall for the shy and quiet nerds >:D watch out
- I also fall for the funny extroverts
- My favorite Pokémon is Ninetales
- I once ate a dandelion
- I once jumped down a whole flight of stairs
- Scaring me is incredibly easy if I trust you
- If I don't, I already expect it so beWARE
- Animals are drawn to me for some reason?
- I'm bad at convos
- I say 'y'all' when referencing people at my school
- I will say "I hate you" to your face if I mean it
- I have no regrets
- My family is actually super poor
- My house is always a mess except my room
- I am the only introvert surronded by extroverts in my family.
Fun Facts About Me (Part One):
- I am most certainly a heartbreaker, but I always feel bad about it
- I wear my heart on my sleeve
- Sometimes if you listen closely, I'm singing
- Catch me walking anywhere and I'm also singing
- I also randomly dance
- I drink a lot of water. A lot.
- I have a scar on my left hand from clawing myself with my own fingernail
- My fingernails are pointed upwards on purpose
- I have an iconic fashion style
- And by that I mean I only wear black, purple, and blue
- I have tiny arms
- I have tiny hands
- I'm really smol
- Smoller than most. It looks kinda unhealthy
- I have an awkward hunch
- My eyes are very intimidating
Where To Find Me If I've Disappeared:
-Sitting under a tree, reading a book
-Basking in moonlight
-Stargazing
-Wandering in a forest
-Sitting by an ocean/jumping in the ocean
-Looking up in the sky
-Getting lost in thought/daydreaming, anywhere
-Writing poems in the rain
-Jumping in puddles in the rain
-Writing during a storm
-Crying, anywhere
-Being captured by aliens
-Being locked up in my room, watching anime
-Spending time with any animal to exsist. Ever.
-Sketching at a coffee shop
-Spending time with the best people in the world, AKA my friends
-Tumblr
"How am I supposed to say I miss you and I love you when you ruined my life? How am I supposed to morn you when you were my monster, controlling me like a puppet that I wasn't. I'm free, and yet here I am, still confused. Are you family or a foe? Am I supposed to miss you or forget you? Am I even supposed to have these thoughts?"
- Dreaming of Wolves//Dark 3AM Thoughts
❀hєllσ 𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠👋 So happy news! I did my 𝗠𝗕𝗧𝗜 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘵𝘦𝘴𝘵. I’d always wanted to do it since I found out about it, but somehow stomped here and there without doing it. And now I’m 𝚐𝚕𝚊𝚍 that I did it.
So here’s my result ☟ I’m 𝐼𝑁𝐹𝑃-𝑇 [ 𝙼𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚊𝚝𝚘𝚛 - 𝙳𝚒𝚙𝚕𝚘𝚖𝚊𝚝] It’s a rare personality. Only 6.3% of the National population!! It’s really overwhelming to know who you really are. Me too doubted this , whether it’s true or not. But I 100% relate , no , that’s what 100% I am ! I really hope everyone do take this test🤗 #qotd : 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕗𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕕 𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣𝕤?
If not☟ ◈𝙷𝚎𝚛𝚎'𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚢 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚋𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝!◈
✯You get a clue about yourself. Not knowing who you are is really stressful. I know that . I always ponder ❝Why I’m not like them, What’s different about me and others❞. ✫Also people who don’t understand you now have a way ! (Eg: Tell them you are an introvert, if you’re!)
✯Identify what your preferences are and not pushing yourself to the edge to make “not your type decisions”.
✯Identify your own community. Yeah since a lot of people take this test now-a-days (I see in their bio’s 🙈), we could easily find them. We ask them our questions and discuss fav topics etc.
✯Recongnise our Highs and Downs ( I mean strengths and weakness , but I prefer these words). It also says in what field we shine the most. It doesn’t mean if you already have a field that you’re interested and that’s not given among them you shouldn’t do that , it means if you have no clue about what to do next it shows what your strength is and suggest the best options.
☞But remember it might not be 100% accurate (because it’s science). So don’t force yourselves to accept the result, only do that if you relate.
✎For instance, they said mediators are more likely to Vegans & I do relate I’m not Vegan but I like more greens, let’s say I’m almost a vegetarian (but not 100%). ❁𝓗𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓪 𝓰𝓸𝓸𝓭 𝓭𝓪𝔂♡❁
Okay so..Judge us, me and @clarichoupie on our mbti kins part 2! (First part on her account)
My friend made an adorable video about our respective MBTI kins in supermassive games. So I decided to answer her with a video similar to her but with very different characters, I wanted to look beyond supermassive games and remind her of some movies or series we see together.
(Oh yeah, And I think the memes at the end of the video represent us 100% x) )
Picture source : Pinterest
Picture source : Pinterest
After all what we are ?
A spec of dust within a spec of dust of the universe -)RB
Picture source: Aesthetic Wallpaper app
Looking at the sky is like looking back in the time.The night knew ,the moon saw and the stars retold our story-)RB
The night is long.
The moon is alone
And so am I.
Alone ,ethereal and yet
Fighting in the darkest hours of night.
-)RB
Don't you know jealousy, is a kind of pain? A pain, of not being enough?
🍀We can't keep expecting anyone else, to fill up a void created by someone else, in our heart. We can't replace other people to numb our own pain. We don't possess the right to pass on our pain to others.
People who were there, had sculptured themselves, curved and crafted their unique shapes in our hearts. Now, when the sculptures are gone, it leaves nothing but those crafted scars behind. We can't force any other artpiece into the box of a specifically crafted void.
Instead, why don't we try to find our buried selves into the crafted scars? Why don't we breathe through the voids created by them? When theres nothing left to save, let us relish the freedom.🍀
🌸Youth fades fast, breaking me more than anything else when I realize it passed before I could feel it, and not much is left to have peace for. It feels as if I've already lived a half a part of my life in these teenage years.🌸
🌸No, keeping you as my favorite prisoner will never satisfy me. If I ever grant you freedom, I know you'll run far far away from me. You'll never come back in my arms, saying you loved it, being isolated with me.🌸
🌸That's the power of mine that I often question about. The unrealistic enchantment within myself, I can fall in love with everything.
I know, how effortlessly I can fall in love with almost anything, alive or not. Even when I'm in a prison, as time passes by, I would turn it into a temple.
Does it certainly makes me one of them? When I give rest to the monsters of the world, the weirds, the unusual, the madman,broken and bullied one finds peace within me and I, be a shelter to the loneliest beings treated the worst?
Why do I crave the smell of sadness, broken people? Why theres always a worn out rose for me? Do I deserve this? Or am I suppose to turn the beast into a prince?🌸
• PC Credit : Pinterest
☆☆ It certainly makes me nostalgic,when I know how young I was when I realized it's not easy living here, and I transcended from living to surviving.
It certainly makes me unhappy, the person I see when I look to the mirror. She disappoints me more than people.
It certainly makes me brutal, how it's me, who knows every weakness about myself, yet turns them against me. Instead of delicate consolidations it burns me, with my flaws. ☆☆
•PC CREDIT: PINTEREST•
🍁 Acceptance isn't forceful. It's the complete admiration of who you are, and the strong will to posses nothing else other than exactly what you have.
Something that kills artists:
🌸 Some people will demand the best of you since you begin, forgetting the passion and effort and the stage you're at. The misunderstanding, the rigid definition of "perfect" and "talent" that leaves no place for efforts, kill them. 🌸
PS: keep going! Efforts matter.💫
▪Picture Credit : Pinterest
🌟Sometimes I'm scared of how
I deny the reality and live inside my head, in the most comfortable corner I've created despite the darkness.
How complex and detailed view are there in my mind about everything I see. I'm scared to be different. Scared to fight with almost everything that's against me. One pain of being different is the fear of being lonely. But the urge never stops itself.
Sometimes I'm scared, I see I'm turning into something I shouldn't. And the scariest thing is, no one ever notices how, a complete stranger from inside, is walking around wearing the old, acquinted shell of their very own girl.
🌸Change is necessary. The more you thrive in your comfort zones, the lesser you explore yourself. It's absolutely natural to hate it. But the more you're unfamiliar, the more you unlock truths about yourself. How you certainly react to things that's a 'debut' for yourself. The outer layer of habits eventually gets peeled off and the core you is exposed out of your original instincts to unknown circumstances. It helps you to know yourself.🌸
Weak and Frail
INTJ (Me): I won't be able to go with you. Can you carry all these bags by yourself?
INFP (Sister): What? You think I can't do it cause I'm a weak and frail woman?!
INTJ: O.O
INFP: Well, I AM Weak and Frail but NOT because I'm a woman!
INTJ: O.O?
INFP: SEXIST PIG!!
INTJ: O.O?!?!
INTJ: *I have no idea what is happening right now.*
Is it just an Fi dom thing to cry about making an argument that you don’t completely agree with?
(Argument being the Great Depression was caused by the individuals and I have to say that the individuals caused their own doom when not all individuals even invested in the stock market bubble and just happened to be caught up in that situation since those who did invest in the stock market lost their savings so they did bank runs then banks ran out of money so those who put their money in the bank lost their life savings then so they stopped spending money which led to economic stagnation and eventually mass unemployment since no one was buying products which led to the Great Depression)
If you couldn’t tell by the explanation above I’m an INFP hi I sob inside because of existing