//rant?
“Because “she” is so scared of being perceived as a girl and feminine” yes, yes I am actually my dear sibling. I dont want to wear the clothes you are trying to force upon me, I dont want to be seen as something I am not. I dont want to hate what I see in the mirror more with make up and “girly” clothes. Fuck you actually. Stop trying to make me something Im not just bc you are probably transphobic (or whatever it is called for me). Im so tired of this that I dont want to do anything that has ties with “femininity”. I dont want to wear the pretty clothes I would wear otherwise bc I just know they are going to call me “Oh you are so pretty! You are finally acting like a proper young lady!” Fuck you, again. I oh so wish to try make up but again, same shit will be said; fuck you, for the second time. I did not had such strong feelings about this before, but these last years made me much more affected by it. I hate men but Im desperate for ways to make myself more masculine because otherwise I cant feel comfortable in my own skin. I try more pants, less and muted colors, I want to chance every shirt in my wardrobe for male clothes. I dont want to shave (yes Im saying it clearly and directly I dont care, I started to hate it because every time I do I hear the SAME shit AGAIN). Im actually so tired of not being able to be comfortable in my own skin. I wish for peace with myself but NOOO fuck you for the third time.
I prob said before but Im saying it again, if any of my moots see this, if you refer me with anything feminine, I will unfollow you and never interact with you ever again and Im very strict about it.