I'm So Fucking Scared Of Going To Uni - Blog Posts
Starting uni today, I've been trying to hold my tears in since I woke up. I couldn't get much sleep because of how nervous I was, I woke up at three in the morning, and finally got up to get ready at five; It's almost seven now.
How strange this is, I feel as if my youth withered away. I miss my childhood, and especially my teenage years, which weren't too cheerful as I was a strange child, and even stranger teenage girl. I guess nostalgia is a bitch, but I just want to be fourteen again. Time goes by so quickly I'm getting whiplash.
I'm scared about meeting people, scared to not make friends, scared to be that weird teenage girl forever. I can't eat, my stomach's all closed up, and I've got a migraine. God, this is weird.
Anyway, I'll keep you posted, lots of love,
Anna.
Starting university tomorrow. Can't believe it, I'm going crazy. I had lunch with my family yesterday, they're strange people and I've never felt much of a kinship towards them, as a little girl I used to think I was an alien.
Anyway, having lunch with them only stressed me more about uni, like: will I make friends? Will people like me? Will it be too hard, will I be too lonely, will I fit in? God, I am terrified. But I can't stop time so I'll just have to deal with it.
I'm re-reading (probably for the seventh time...) Donna Tartt's The Secret History, it always makes me feel better, I get lost in the pages and feel at home.
It still hasn't hit me, the realization that I'm going to university tomorrow. I guess when it hits it'll be much more emotional than this.
Anyway, love you always,
Anna.