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@godkilller​  UwU ???????

the lily discord guide *

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my discord for anyone who would like it ! limited time onl --- well, maybe not. i thought i’d use an icon that had actual lilies in it so i used my first video game fave! please let me know who you are, and if you’d rather just im me, that is most welcome also. really, my goal is to be a safe place and a mutual that looks out for you / does right by you, as much as you may allow or even in subtle little things like comments ! i know it’s hard to earn trust, but i’m up for trying and not be someone disingenuous or fake. you won’t get that. ever. i am many things but not that.

details of being lily’s mutual and possible friend. - protector  mutual / friend. no if’s and’s or but’s. lily-types will protect with their life. - gentle conversations! no time limits to when you reply! space respect! - honesty and the ‘nothing leaves this chat’ policy, our place is sacred! - me up at weird hours because i can never sleep properly earning a look. - always available to talk about whatever you’d like to share, be it in the physical world or just our roleplays, and always always gratitude that you opened up or invested!  - plots, plots and more plots. i may be slow, but that’s okay because i believe quality is as much as quantity. judgment free zone on replies / responses, i can’t stress enough. - hopefully, a calm, warm, gentle, protective place where you can feel at ease telling me what you’d like, knowing that i will never ask for more than you feel you can give. as kaoru says, ‘we all have things we don’t want to talk about!’ 

as ever, there is no pressure to add me on dms, i’m very easy going! you can always, always just im me. but if you want a place i’m always on when i get online, that is also a spot as well because we all need dash breaks. i want to be respectful of what makes you comfortable and i want to make sure your experiences with me are nothing short of calm and gentle and quietly warm! i want you to feel safe so please, do what is best for you, but just know that this is an open ticket that will never expire. thank you kindly if you read this, thank you either way, and know there is no pressure to add me, just do what you feel is best for you. 

sincerely, lily.  ps: please drink your water!

are we all just picking the wrong quizzes or is there a deeper message here.

verses / possible verses list.

Verses to work on / establish that aren’t canon. Please note if you read these they won’t by any means come immediately, as I am exploring new things to my canon and exploring even further the rich history of the Edo / Meiji Period while writing in two notebooks . 

Fire Em.blem

Fate. (5′2 freakishly powerful Saber)

KNY. (Dragon Pillar? Dragon Pillar.)

Fina.l Fantasy.

Harvest Mo.on.

Modern Verses ‘Happy’ and ‘Tragic Past’ versions.

Deity Verse. ( Kenshin as Hachiman / Yawata no Kami. )

Tentative Okami Verse.

Things I want to make verses for but I Need To Go Through Them First: - Hakuouki , I admit Kenshin’s title of ‘Demon of Kyoto’ by Saito loosely parsed being used literally would be fascinating and even more terrifying than his 14-19 year old self in the Bakumatsu.  I hope I have some kind of platform for this because it’d make a nice present sometime. - Sailor M.oon. Frankly I have no idea how I’d incorporate this save have Kenshin be a freakishly powerful bodyguard / entity / something that helps out the girls while also holding their proverbial flower. Bleach: Eventually! With all politeness, Bleach’s length is a bit too much for me sometimes despite me really really enjoying it! and while I remember admiring deeply the character’s personalities / nuances, I never finished it. I’d like to be able someday to find time and give it that justice. For me, I’d make two different verses based on Kenshin being a shinigami that does lose his memory and one that as a friend helped with on my OG blog, is akin to Ich.igo in that he is still alive. 

note: this will be edited as more ideas come to mind. if you think of a verse that this legend would fit into that i haven’t though of, please by all means, drop a comment or suggestion, i love immersion!

@miburoni​ when miss sunny and i go back into the bakumatsu to meiji restoration times .... ishin shishi and shinsengumi bonding . . . . wholesome..... kenshin and hijikata bonding imminent, a walking mass of talent if i do say so myself. guess i’m making a fate verse and working harder than ever on my research / reviewing! people like her are worth following. this is a polite promo.

Wakes up insanely early but also free day so. Honestly don’t know about you but I’m suffering from brain rot but and this blog’s beginning and continuation of having Tumblr completely ..... not make things work right. Will that stop me? Probably not but it’s a bit frustrating! It’s just one of those things that it inevitably when you think it never will, will probably sort itself out. 

Honestly my first meta will be about Kenshin’s red gi but I also just want to talk about one of my favorite fights / that one time Kenshin roasted someone so bad they were almost Shishio 2.0 aka the second battle with Shinomori Aoshi and just how Kenshin gives so much wisdom and inner, unshakable strength of will against empty physical strength and how he calls him out on it as using it to do awful things. 

It’s a great example that while Kenshin is the strongest warrior of the Bakumatsu / Revolution in this canon, that’s literally stated in the opening pages starting our story,  and just how I feel again, Kenshin hones in on what matters. Is it cool that you can single-handedly deal from 14-19 against adult men of the Shinsengumi on your own at once without breaking a sweat greats like Okita Souji and Saito Hajime and make them consider if it’s smart to touch you? Much less be the very person to make them break back or break their stance, again, at once? Yes, it’s very impressive and quite scary and very telling that at that young he’s so strong, in that way.

Is it perhaps even more compelling to me that such a legendary swordsman has a soul, even when it’s ultimately tested and broken, restores itself at the end of the story simply by listening to an innocent girl weeping for his protection to save an innocent life and finds even when he wants to give up, his own will won’t let him? In a way, yes. Both aren’t exclusive. But it gives Kenshin’s title of strongest in battle new meaning when you realize that out of every character in Ruroken, Kenshin’s willpower  / will to live is the highest and  “off the charts “ , canonly in one of the many info books that...I don’t have my hands on.

Me: And most of the series he didn’t even care if he lived or died! GROWTH.

Also me: That is chapters and volumes away / a season away. One thing at a time!

also you can tell how loved kaoru is in her community, as both the breadwinner, and an orphan of six months prior. i love how it emphasized her impact already in the lives of people willing to understand the path she walks especially after kenshin kinda...obliterated the entire gang that was going to take her dojo for sale all by himself. them all running to her alone really says a lot of kaoru’s character, and the person kenshin will, and is, inevitably drawn to. 

basically kaoru is the light of tokyo.

when the sheer presence / energy of kenshin’s discarded sword from the bakumatsu / revolution makes jin-e flinch and recoil and literally say what the hell is this ? because even kenshin’s imprinted aura is so powerful, he’s touching the sword of the strongest warrior in the revolution and he knows it.

me softly: kenshin in k.ny as a pillar / hashira using ‘dragon-breathing’ incorporating  hiten mitusurugi-ryu, literally with the name ‘heavenly’ in it because he’d undoubtedly be on par with anyone and also a mentor among them as well as being one of the oldest members besides himejima if not older, and being known as the dragon pillar / dragon hashira with quite a background / reputation of excellence and if not for his kindly nature outside war, intimidating.   also me: kenshin being a mixture of his younger self and present self in order to fit the setting and also because he’s at literal war with the demons alongside his other fellow pillars, while being shrouded in mystery because no one knows who is his master / trainer, only whispers, and every time a demon is felled by his blade it’s very, very quick they forget how devastating the attack was. but also having a really open and accepting opinion of demons who are fighting their natures like tamayo and showing their human hearts, suffering from intense empathy despite killing them, possibly knowing the fifth water breathing form of  ‘blessed rain after the drought’ which he physically humbled himself to know the form from quite possibly urokodaki or giyuu if only to know a technique that puts them peaceably out of their misery out of sheer agony of the heart despite not erring in his path.  also me: he kind of scares the other ( smart ) pillars because no one knows what’s behind that smile unless they actually really know him. that and how is someone so short that insanely powerful and the smart ones really know better than to see him turn that might on them, which he’d never. i think he wouldn’t approve of all of oyakata-sama’s actions especially the last bit, and actually be quite angered and for this reason it’s likely he isn’t made aware because who wants to anger a dragon, right? me again: kenshin actually willing to take on a tsuguko. someone naturally has to have some level of god-speed, maybe not on par with kenshin’s or hiko’s terrifying levels but enough to match the beauty, raw power, colossal speed and terror of his style, a speed shared by wind pillars or at least a close margin. i mean we have a snake pillar i don’t see why a dragon isn’t possible! if not a tsuguko, him just imparting some wisdom that is just life oriented. me: kenshin surviving but at what cost :) by the time the infinity fortress arc is completed kenshin has completed the cross shaped scar. 

😔 mayu suzukaze literally being every aspect of kenshin is just iconic, the inflections, the delicacy turning to fierceness, the shift between every aspect of kenshin’s facades and inner turmoils to true core emotions is just  😔 😔  and it really fits how seemingly ‘delicate’ in physique outside (beneath his gi he’s quite muscled without being bulky (which lends itself to his shinsoku / godspeed )  kenshin appears despite having incredible arm strength / leg strength for his height of 5′2 and really no one that practices hiten mitsurugui-ryu is going to be able to uphold it without having it - and also paying for it like any human being in the most realistic sense.

the first live action film demonstrates and confirms that kenshin doesn’t need to use his sakabato to be able to pulverize and curb-stomp you and then take you to the doctor in less than a minute ! !!! but seriously props to mayu for voicing someone who’s such a fictional legend / icon and doing it insanely well when i imagine the role would feel intimidating due to kenshin’s considerable fame as a character and protagonist / hero.

frankly i also am vastly impressed in general by sato takeru, who i think the pressure would especially be intimidating if it he wasn’t so joyful about kenshin as a whole embodying all my expectations and wishes of kenshin’s mannerisms and my own headcanons confirmed / perspectives, so i also like his voice as well as much as hers. but there is a nostalgia in mayu, and always will be, so i think it’s a blend of both in a sense? 

i love how even his voice is complex and a thing in itself. it dips from soft and dulcet to low and fearsome, to formal to going ‘yup!’ in the most unexpected moments or ‘huh’? i watched some episodes today since tumblr i read was really glitched this month so it will take a while likely for me to get some of my images up when you hover over my url for me, lily, to see so i’ll be slow here since it’s mildly irksome, but not unbearable! 

my first headcanon since...eight months will be about the red gi . i honestly don’t think it’s realistic that he could afford such a fine red gi when it’s heavily implied and outright stated he can’t afford an inn so i’ll take some liberties from the films.

I’ve written tons of characters, but as this is my original fandom, my first fandom I got into when I was younger, the first anime / manga and story I ever truly indulged in, I can say even with all the new stories, and new characters I’ve come to love, that after watching Tsuioku-hen / Trust and Betrayal once again, and knowing I will once again, glean it apart, that Kenshin Himura will always, always, be that one character (TM). 

Personal and fond musing under the cut.

I have so much to say, and each time I watch I have feelings and emotions and the ability to relate to him and understand him in a way I just...even eight months hasn’t dulled. I really don’t want to go without someone I deeply, fictional or not, empathize and relate with so personally ever again. I think his story and his character so similar to mine in personality to an eerie degree, the fact that we both are pacifists, achingly gentle people, and always strive to shield others has always resonated with me. His tragic life has resonated with me, and he has always given me hope that /my/ life that has had no small tragedies will be better because good things come to him.

This is a deeply personal post, but basically I don’t mind being compared to other characters, I always will humbly as possible find similarities in others and thank you!, that is our nature, but some characters are just that one character, that one story, that one you always thinks, ‘man we’re alike’.

And Rurouni Kenshin and Kenshin Himura are that. He will always be my favorite character. He will again, always to me, be unprecedented. The things he stands for, the things he wants to be, the countless lives he’s impacted and that innate aching kindness that he cannot let go of no matter what stage of his life...this isn’t even me being dorky, this is me completely serious that Kenshin will always be my favorite character in anything of all time. Not only that but we resonate deeply with one another. That’s something I wouldn’t trade, and honestly his story gives me hope for myself. That people like me can find peace and healing and purpose and always protect others.

This post doesn’t mean I don’t write other muses who have a different, but in their own way, equally special place in my heart, like Lucina, etc. But as I slowly invite friends once again to this place, this very, special, safe, sacred place, both in my heart and mind, engraved in me forever, I only hope that you even a little bit, cherish him as I do so wholly and utterly.

But yes, if you wanted to know Lily’s 20+ year favorite character going on into forever or as long as she’s alive, the character she arguably at the end of the day would  say she’s most like, most on keel with, can never let go of, will always carry those engraved messages inside her, then it’s Kenshin Himura, hands down.

Some stories and characters you come home to. And for me I guess every time I come here, I almost imagine someone telling me ‘welcome home’ just like in the story.

For those who write, those who empathize and resonate spiritually with a fictional story and character, I too, hope you find someone who is this for you. There is nothing wrong with finding yourself in stories. It’s natural and I encourage you. I hope that once more, I glean even further and more deeply into Kenshin than ever before. If you read this, thank you very much, I think those who know me know what this man means to me.

on this blog we do not condone rk’s katsura kogoro :) thank you. and he will never, ever, ever get a tag. i looked up katagai and it led me to kogoro and i was like uh..........................’benevolent to kenshin’ ? in a wiki page. i am open to different intrepretations but no matter how much katsura ‘regrets’ ruining kenshin’s life even if kenshin did bring this on himself? katsura still had a hand in him bringing it down, a big, big hand. it didn’t stop him from making a 14-15 year old up until he was 19 and then retiring from the choshu-satsuma alliance as their ultimate soldier any....less...horrifying?

anyway raise your hand if you feel katsura kogoro personally hurt our rurouni.

how is someone who literally point blank says ‘i inspire his passions and make him kill’ that benevolent uhm.. . to be honest the ‘three heroes’ i’m most fond of is okubo due to how badly history treats him but honestly....rk paints him in this really sympathetic light that i don’t have to agree with all of history to be like oh.......

but katsura makes me actually feel...i think what you call disgust. and i’m a really calm and gentle person but this is just a very foreign sensation i always pick up when i think of him oops.