breaking breaking breaking
I ask for forgiveness,
for a sin I haven’t committed.
bow to the pillar of greatness or madness or whatever there is.
hospital bed number 5,
you’re not here. you’re not here. you’re not here.
(I don’t want you to be).
suicide wraps it’s fingers around my neck and whispers sweet nothings,
flashes of blood and the noose and the pills the rush and the silence
the silence the silence the silence the sil
(I can’t breathe)
i close my eyes and wait and wait and wait
it’ll pass, I tell myself, just breathe and let it be.
I hope you find yourself whoever you are
I hope you listen to music and fall in love and go dancing
find your happy ever after,
with ur messy hair and teary eyes
hospital bed number 5.