I Wonder - Blog Posts

no rizz. just big bambi eyes and many unsettling things to say.

I sorta wanna whip out a playboy magazine during silent reading and see how far I get before the teacher sends me away-

Using 🙏🏽 palette when your icon says you're pastier than Elmer's glue is blackface

My dude.. I have brown skin

besides what does my icon has to do with anything..?

Hm I wonder..

should I...?

Are u excited to see me?

Do u miss me when I'm gone?

How often do u think about me?

What do u think if u do?

What is it that u see in me?

...And I wonder.

...And I wonder.

I’d like to be a Hufflepuff so bad. I’d like to be kind and hard-working and caring and loyal. I’d like to be a Hufflepuff, because then it would be possible for me to say “I’m a good person after all”. It’s hard to say it now. Now I fear that I am not. I fear that I’m not kind or smart or brave or ambitious. I can take the other ones (even tho they bother me sometimes, especially the smartness). 

But the kindness is killing me.

Hmmm, I think that’s a cow, don’t know what makes me say this

Ya know what I can’t stop thinking about digital circus? That both Pomni and Kaufmo are clowns (I know Pomni looks more like a jester but you get the idea) I wonder if that link is on purpose since they’re both desperately searching for the exit. Or Caine already knew Kaufmo abstracted and figured that the next person to get trapped would need to be a clown since they’re a circus staple and they just lost the one they had.

As we have done to our ancestors, so will our descendants do to us.                         We who are descended from giants, who fell from their shoulders                           to rise to new heights on impossible steel and glass towers,                                  who'll fall from those?                                                                                                                         I wonder.

Honestly... The darkness scares me more now rhat i have a life im excited to love for. i actually have peolle in my life that care about me and i realize that, which is terrifying because i dont wanna hurt them like i wanna hurt myself ya know?

Why am i trusting him with my body if i cant even trust him with my mind?

Ive memorized every part of you. I can remember how your hair feels in my hand. I remember how perfect your teeth are when you smile. I can recall perfectly how your lips felt on mine. I can visualize your perfect face. I can still hear your laugh. I can feel your breath as you whisper in my ear. I remember your hands, and how they fit perfectly in mine. I can remember how close you hug, and how your hand slides down my back. I can remember every single thing about you so clearly. I remember every single thing you made me feel. Whenever i remember this, it makes me want you again. Thats what i'm sure about. So i guess my question is; Why arent you sure after all thats happened between us? Do you remember every detail of me? Do you think about me as much as i think of you?