on the one hand, it's vindicating to read about people with similar feelings to my own, who can word them so poetically while all I can muster on my own are vague uncomfortable emotions (which is to say, reading posts here help give those feelings release by providing words to them).
on the other hand, it can leave me feeling like a faker because I can't articulate my yearning and loneliness well on my own. it can amplify my loneliness because I know I'm feeling vicariously through the words of others.
I can analyze and dissect what various issues contribute to my isolation, but those problems seem insurmountable.
just want to end the post by saying that, in the end, I appreciate and adore the posts made by the sapphics here who are more articulate than I am.