I need my brain to shut up for once, like explain to me how I can hyperfocus on three Fandoms at once?
Like... how tf does that work?
Bsd makes sense cause of course, I'll never escape it's clutches
But I've gotten sucked back into Poppy Playtime in the last couple of weeks
And now... I fell down the rabbit hole of UnderTale after like years of not seeing anything for it
At the very least I finally got to really work on my UnderTale AU that I had started when I first got into UnderTale some 5-6 years ago
Lmao my YouTube feed is also currently Bsd, Poppy Playtime, and UnderTale, a lovely bunch
I posted about my Undertale AU HERE
I've never felt like this... fuck I miss him.
Were keeping distance because were both not ready.
my scars haven't even healed, and i don't think they're going to heal anytime soon.
Hes not ready to be open and trust me
My mind is a constant battle, and even when we were "together", I couldn't mentally handle it.
I'm really not ready, and neither is he, and it fucking sucks because I think he's the one.
ik its only been a short time, but I think I love him.
but it doesnt matter. he's gonna move on soon, but I never will.
"You and i were meant to be, but only in a memory"
- Lauren Duski -Deja Vu
I thought you were the one for me...
I just keep thinking about that kiss... i keep thinkung about how much i want to just run up to him and kiss him. I just want to be with him, which only proves that im a psychopath. He played me before, hes not good for me. This isnt healthy. But, something that feels so good cant possibly be bad, right?
I used to love the holidays. But now im crying myself to sleep on Christmas Eve, praying i dont wake up tomorrow, and i dont know what changed.