Bro i dont know if this is normal or not but like does anyone else just absolutely hate physical touch but crave it sm at the same time??
Its only from my qpps tho, like if i made a tierlist or smth it would be like:
- I can tolerate it but i hate it so much (most people are here, including many of my family members)
- I can tolerate it but im indifferent (some of my family)
- I can tolerate it and act ok tho i dont entirely like it (the remaining family members and closer friends)
And this is how it usually was until like 2 months ago when the 3 of us figured out we were actually in a qpr
So it has added a new level:
- I love it so much please just hold me or smth its so nice (only those 2)
And i dont understand bc whenever i explain it i sound touch starved tho i dont think that i am i just really like them making non sexual contact with me like cuddling or holding hands or whatever (especially cuddling i love it so much)